You WISH you hadn't gone back out with me
 
You want to BREAK up with me
 
 
But you feel GUILTY??
 
 
 
 
How about feeling GUILTY
 
For letting me LOVE you?
 
For ACTING as if you CARE?
 
And for LYING when I ask if you are HAPPY with us?
 
 
 
 
How about feeling GUILTY
 
For telling my FRIENDS
 
That you WISH you hadn't gone back out with me?
 
And that you want to BREAK up with me?
 
...But you feel GUILTY?!
 
 
 
 
And you know I'll hear it from them first.
 
 
 
 
 
GUTLESS
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
What really makes me want to HATE you
 
What REALLY makes me want to
 
RIP OFF YOUR HEAD
 
Is the fact that I had to hear this from THEM
 
Not from you
 
 
 
 
 
I had to be the LAST person
 
To find out
 
 
 
 
 
That cuts so deep
 
The wound has not yet begun to bleed
 
 
 
 
 
And it is THIS
 
That angers me so much
 
And makes me realise
 
What an ASSHOLE you really are
 
 
 
 
 
And it is THIS
 
That stops me from crying
 
(for now)
 
Because I realise
 
 
 
 
 
YOU'RE NOT WORTH IT
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
You and I to gether
 
It feels so
 
Right
 
I wish I could feel
 
This way
 
For the rest of my
 
Life
 
You are so much
 
More
 
Than I can
 
Describe
 
You are so
 
Good
 
To
 
Me
 
 
 
 
 
 
You have
 
Torn out my heart
 
And fed it
 
To my friends
 
You have
 
Fucked me up
 
Ripped my self-esteem
 
Into shreds
 
I should have known
 
You were only after
 
One thing
 
I should have known
 
I am
 
Nothing
 
 
 
I sit in my own
 
Tears
 
Because of
 
You
 
I wallow in my
 
Fears
 
Because of
 
You
 
I lie awake
 
At night
 
And wonder
 
When
 
You are going
 
To put me through
 
This
 
SHIT
 
Again.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
I have decided to treat relationships
 
The way GUYS do
 
 
When in a relationship
 
I will ACT as if I like him
 
And when he starts to feel secure about us
 
 
 
I will PUSH him away
 
 
 
And then when his self-esteem/ego is as low as it can go
 
 
 
I'll REEL him back in again
 
 
 
Treat him as if MAYBE I do care about him after all
 
 
 
And when he believes me
 
 
 
When I've suckered him in
 
 
 
I'll dump him
 
 
 
I'll give him some stupid excuse
 
 
 
For ripping out his heart
 
 
 
(But being a bloke, the only thing he'll be truly upset about
 
is me beating him at his own game.)
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Why am I so gullible?
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
I've found the perfect medicine for your state of mind
 
A Bach Flower Remedy called 'Beech'
 
For intolerance
 
 
 
Now I just have to find one
 
For me
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Maybe
 
One day
 
I will go out with
 
Someone
 
 
 
WHO ACTUALLY LIKES ME!
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
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