November 27, 2000
I have created many personal pages, but in each one I try to create something new (actually I'm just starting to make them different).
Here's a nice poem I would like to share with you:
(Note: Not exactly sure where I found this poem, but I'm telling you now, that this poem was not written by me. Was most likely found on the website on someone elses personal page.)
Never
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Never say I love you
If you really don't care
Never talk about feelings
If they aren't really there
Never hold my hand
If you are going to break my heart
Never say you are going to
If you don't plan to start
Never look into my eyes
If all you do is lie
Never say hello
If you really mean goodbye
If you really mean foever
Then say you will try
Never say forever
Cause forever makes me cry.
I posted this poem cause when I read this poem for the very first time, I noticed that I was the person that this poem was describing. I've used the word "LOVE" so many times in my past. When I read this poem it hit me that many times people say things they don't mean. So, why do they say it? I can't speak for others, but I noticed that I said those words to show the other person that I really cared abt them, but did I really love them... no. I learned that you don't need to say you love them to show you care but if you really cared it doesn't hurt to say you love them. :0) Ironic, huh? Well, that's my experience.
Here's a "Tearful Goodbye" poem also by someone on Lovingyou.com:
Tearful Goodbyes
by Meg McClain
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I had a dream one starlit night,
That filled my heart with sweet delight.
Detailed thoughts of you and I,
Gazing at the starry sky.
Together embraced, I looked at your face,
As I saw into your deep hazel eyes,
I thought of all the tearful goodbyes.
For it was you I'd missed,
I could no longer resist.
I needed you there, I needed it all.
The night was so perfect, from what I recall.
You looked back into my baby blue eyes,
Told me to leave behind all the goodbyes.
You wiped my tears, erased my fears,
And within a heartbeat, the moment had ended,
Because of your care, my heart had been mended.
It's amazing the power that can come through a dream
Feelings and thoughts revealed at the seam.
And its true when I awoke I missed you just as much,
Still wished you were here, and longed for your touch.
But from now on I must look beyond the tearful blue goodbyes,
And concentrate much harder on the cheerful, bluer skies.
I saved this poem because this was exactly how I felt when the one I loved left me. He tried to comfort me, and it felt a little better, but it still hurts to see him leave and still yearning for his lvoe, especially when you knew he still cared for you, even if not love. :'(
With that in mind... here's a poem I copied from Lovingyou.com by a very sweet person:
An Internet Friend
By *Craig_Rawlings*
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You, my good friend, warm thoughts on my mind
As I woke this morning, bright sun on my blind
Realizing how much you've entered within
Though I've never seen or touched your skin.
I couldn't wait to turn on the computer and find
If you remembered me too and if you were kind
To send me a note and letting me in
On your secret thoughts and where you have been.
I opened the files, they loaded one by one
My heart skipped a beat and laughed with fun
When there it was, an e-mail so new
"Dear Friend, I was just thinking of you."
I enjoy so much the friend you've become
I hope this continues until the day I 've won
The right to hold you close, and ever so tight
Safe in my arms as I whisper goodnight.
I like this poem a lot because after all that has happened to me, I sat back, read this poem, and started thinking about the past a little. My first and only love, I had met online. I still reminisce about the times we had when we first met online. How I would sign on and the first person I would look for is him. I enjoyed every minute of it. Then we finally met in person. And that was when that time came... "I've won the right to hold [him] close, and ever so tight..." So, although I ended up in "tearful goodbyes," I experienced true love with this person, and I will never regret those days...
Now for some interesting quotes to keep in mind:
"Many people will walk in and out of your life,
But only true friends will leave footprints in your heart."
(This is very true. And I have to say that those footprints will not disappear, and they are not sealable...)
"If someone betrays you once, it's his fault;
If he betrays you twice, it's your fault."
(Let's just say I have to learn it the hard way... but do you have to?....)
"Trust is the most valuable thing you'll ever earn!"."
(So, keep that trust, its not that easy to earn... took me seven years, still nowhere...)
"Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you can never have them... when the moment you can't feel them under your fingertips you miss them?."
(This happened to me twice, sort of,... once is when that person was so close but yet so far... the other time was when Daddy left me. I had my Daddy with me, but I never cherished the time we had together, that was when it hit me REALLY hard that I do really miss him... may he R.I.P....)
OK, that's it for now... hope you enjoyed your time here. Please come back for more updates... :0) Thank you for your precious time...
Luv,
Asian Girl
