There is a small pain
That is buried deep within me
Burrowed in the crevices
I eagerly search, yet unable to find
The source of this unbearable ache
Built within a wall
Strong and made of glass
This translucent fortress
Shatter the defenses
Like an iron barrier caging in
The long awaited singe
Searing into the tender tissue
Of my untouchable fears
These sorrows that dwell
Hidden in the frightening darkness
That I never knew to exist
But it is here
Impossible to rid of
And yet I shall try
With all that is in me
This incredible pain
Tortures my mind
I cannot escape the nightmare
Let it live on
In my thoughts
Creations of my suspicions
These false inquiries
Throbbing in my temples
Past mistakes follow my future relentlessly
Disregarding the rivers in my sleep
Cringes from the uncontrollable hurt
Racking my body mercilessly
Try me once
I will overcome this
But the barriers grow stronger
Locking it in
Locking me out
Lonely within myself
It�s pounding again but I will not answer
Not this time
The pain must go
I don�t need a bed of roses
Crushed beneath my touch;
I desire to know
The worth of my smile,
The grace of my neck,
The rise of my back
As you slide you fingers across my spine
In an embrace.
I don�t need security in wealth;
I want to live in the forefront of your mind
And in the deepest crevices of your heart;
Know that you miss me
When I am gone for a moment,
That a day feels like eternity
When we�re apart.
I am not an extravagant girl,
But I promise
My eyes will shine with a flower,
Sparkle with a card,
And dance with a bear;
The most expensive gifts
Come from the heart.
I may be insecure,
But I feel beautiful when you love me,
When you take my face in your hands
And tell me that
I mean the world the to you�
And then even more.
I won�t take second place,
But I am not a prized possession;
I can leave at any moment;
I simple choose to stay by your side.
And all I ask is that you love me.
Truly
Passionately
Purely
You choose what to believe.
Sign your name
Then erase the red letters
With your smudged fingers
Stuck in your mouth.
Gnaw harder in your pain;
Ignore the hunger pangs
That scream for comfort.
Oblivious to His unrecognizable voice,
You close your ears.
Open your liberal mind
To liberating truth,
Not found in political concepts.
More than you can comprehend
But it is real;
More tangible than the life you live,
Harder than the path you trod upon.
Laugh and play
As you fall in the black hole.
The company is growing,
Yet you grow lonely;
Cold as stone
In your limitless ideals.
Everything is right,
But you feel so wrong.
Bash religion with a smile on your face;
Raw knees from falling down.
Taste the salty tears as they slide.
You don�t know
That I know.
In your pretty head
Everything makes sense,
But your heart.
Don�t forget Him;
He won�t forget you.
I can�t take this anguish
That you have given away
As if it were a gift
That I can never return
In place of your smile
The touch of your hand
The kiss of your lips
I long to remember
The happiness we felt
In exchange of the vows
The eternal commitment
Was forgotten and tossed away
With the wrapping
So intricate and unique
This love that we shared
Replaced by this empty space
In a dingy little box
Decorated in fear
That you will never return
