I've also got these monster pains in my bones...especially my back. It happens when I try to lift anything heavy and also after I bend down for any length of time. I blow dry my hair with my head upside down for like, twenty minutes and it feels like nothing I've ever felt before when I stand back up. Not fun. No more nosebleeds though, but my night vision is CRAZY! It was bad before, but now it's hilarious. It does come eventually, but for the first little while in the dark, it's like my eyes are closed. I think it's kinda fun...haha..I love it when I walk into closed doors.
I've never felt so much like giving up. I won't though, cause I can't even imagine what would happen to my face if I quit now. Hopefully this week will be better, and I'm not even going to say that it couldn't be worse, because I bet it can :(
On another note, two good things about Accutane so far: my hair never gets greasy, and I used to have this dry skin thingy on the upper backs of my arms (I think it has some kind of "official" scientific name, but I don't know it)...gone! Exciting because it would never go away before no matter how hard I scrubbed *L* Oh, speaking of scrubbing...to anyone out there contemplating it...DON'T use that "Ultra Gentle" apricot scrub by St Ives...to an Accutane face it is NOT ultra gentle. If you don't believe me, go for it...but you'll be stinging for days...I was...and that was back in week two or three I think.
I'm still on 60mg a day, but next time I go to the doc (March 24th) I'm gonna see if he'll up me to 80mg. He probably will considering he doesn't give a shit about anything. I figure, if I'm gonna do this Accutane thing, I might as well do it hardcore so hopefully I won't be back on it for a long long LONG while. I'm looking forward to looking normal again, and I hope it happens soon.
Oh, almost forgot to tell you one of the most scarring experiences of my life that happened this week. My mom babysits these kids, and I was home on Friday when they were here. I was playing with this little girl who loves me, my little "shadow" and she started staring at my face...I sorta knew what was coming, and yep, it did. She was like "Why do you have all those red spots on your face Katie?" Man, talk about wanting to curl up and die. It almost beats the time over Christmas break when I was at my boyfriend's house eating a small piece of chocolate cake and his twelve year old brother said "Chocolate is bad for acne, you know?" Needless to say, I didn't finish the piece of cake, and couldn't wait to get out of his house. Oh my lovely life huh? *L* Well, I should get going since it's 5 in the morning and I have to leave for Toronto in an hour.
Good luck everyone, hope it's going better for you than it is for me!
Love, Katie
