This is a glimse into the soul that makes Joanna. Words penned not with an intent to impress, but rather to express. Baring my feelings and offering those who bother a little insight into me.
Fade
conceived on 14th May 2004
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Looking up the sky tonight
Makes me miss you even more
Watching the dark clouds passing by
Missing the past we left behind
The special feelings you gave to me
Sinks my heart beneath the sea
With tears in my eyes on bended knee
I cry for every changes that's left in front of me
I sense a coldness in your voice
Yet I feel that you are mine
And when you promise me you'll stay
I feel you near, yet so far away
With your arms around me under the pale moonlight
Your shadow fading clear
And when I look deeper into your eyes
You just disappeared
A World So Cold
conceived on 29th April 2004
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Thunder sounded off betrayed
Lightning, a flash of memories
Vicious crimson sky
Your voice, fading in my mind
Visualizing a world without you
How strong I stand alone
Stop complicating me with your lies
My eyes has no more tears to cry
I'm falling deeper inside you
Distraught by all childish thoughts
I've lost my sense of euphoria
Suffered by such heart-felt agony
The truth are incontrovertible
How could I ever be so gullible
You have forsaken me
And left me in a world so cold
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Escape
conceived on 23rd March 2004
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My life is filled with hate
This pain is just too real
My soul is dying for you
Your touch is so unreal
My world is black and white
I see you in the dark
My vision isn't clear
It's filled with rusted tears
I live my life in chains
Far away from you
The walls are closing on me
I've got to break it thru
To hold you one last time
Before I say goodbye
I'll set my spirit free
To escape the world for eternity
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Shadows of Whisper
conceived on 4th March 2004
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Living in the shadows of whisper
Under a blood red sky
Wind howling constantly
As I sit there and cry
Not fearin' but hurtin'
Like a knife piercing thru my heart
Lonely.. Still waitin'
Feelin like I've lost my sense of touch
I'm all numbed without you
I can barely feel you
I'm all torn up for you
I can't live without you
I'm screamin out for you
As the pain is suffocatin' me
I'm breathin' hard to catch you
But still...You decided to leave
Lightning strikes and thunder blasts
Sounded as heartless as your cold cold heart
Stranded here in a place unknown
Trackin' back my memories and soul
Darkness falls and rain pours down
Growin' a hatred against you
Thinkin' back as the sun sets down
I am living on without you
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Heart's Not Found
conceived on 15th June 2003
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My heart's not found
I cannot lie
How can I start a new?
Thru darkest moments
I've spent alone
Tell me how can this be real?
I've tried so hard
And cried so much
But I got nothing in return
All I had
Was seeing him
Holding hands with his new girl
With bleeding heart
That's torned apart
I hid to be out of sight
Im hiding away
From reality
Pretending everything is alright
But I believe
That the day will come
When all my pain will go away
That is when
The sun will rise
And time for me to smile again
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