| Thursday May 16th, 2002 "Somebody I Love..." Somehow I managed to care for a guy See this guy is not as strong as he seems He's not a dork, a nerd, nor is he a jock. I'm talking about a guy whom I didn't take long to know I felt a strong connection since day one. We talked at first, then shyed away We met one day and kept on talking I found out how nice and noble he could be Until the day he broke my heart, of course. He's a guy who is short, strong, and very smart Just not wise when it comes to difficult situations Just one look at him would prove otherwise... But you'd have to see him to believe me... His big brown eyes and his big bright smile Melted my heart but made me think twice I questioned my feelings towards him time & time again I know he caught on because he was not dumb His way of being made me open up to him Not for this time though... For he knew something was wrong I told him how i felt about him And he did not hold back his true feelings about me He showed me how much I meant to him... - Would you like to know what I did? I never learned to love him the way he deserved to be loved I took his feelings for granted for not believing him But worst of all, I learned to love him because he let me go Now... it is all too late for him to love me back... Hello Again it's Thursday May 30th, 2002 (7:51am) And guess what? Prom is already tomorrow night. ack! i can't believe it =( although i wish i could've taken one of my closest friends, but he backed out on me like the wuss he is (well not really but I'm angry, u know?) anywho, I asked one of my other friends to go and i hope he does go, I think he's a real nice guy to know and to have fun with. You wanna know something funny, he was all sad last night b/c of what i had done a few nights ago (i played a mean trick on him but it was only b/c it had been so long since we chatted and i wanted to know what was up u know, anyway, yeah he forgave me, who doesn't forgive me? so we were chatting last night and he made me put my status as "I'm jealous of Mike b/c he's cuter than me" All my other yahoo buddies were like "what, who is he... and why am I mentioning him..". stuff like that yeah but who cares? I was just trying to make it up to him. Now back to prom, like i was saying I hope he goes b/c i think it would be so cool to hang out with him b/c i honestly do not want to go with the guy I was set up with, I don't know who he is, I don't know him, and I don't even know what he looks like!!! The worst part is I'm not going with the guy I wanted to go with. yeah I'm sad but i guess stuff happens u know. I hope he does good on his finals b/c he really deserves to pass. Lucky punkass I still care about him, but like a brother :P I don't know why I even bother writing about him, since he's not worth talking or writing about. I guess I'm just at that point in my life where I'm re-evaluating everything I'm doing. Just like trying to get in touch with certain friends i lost touch with for about 4 yrs now and b/c I know I'm going to keep running into them, even though they won't recognize me. Yes, I've changed a lot, not personality wise but looks wise. I mean Christine, my one time elementary school friend barely recognized me. and I can't wait to see Carlos, my long time jr high friend and i wish he lasts a long time with his new gf (i was never with him, although i used to like him in the 6th grade) what was I thinking? he's my closest friend since ever, besides someone else I know. and dude, well I just need to see where I want to end up. either at Santa Monica College or at Cal State L.A. I guess all will be revealed in due time huh? All i have to do is enjoy the ride b4 i commit myself to school again, damn please help... =) anywho I have to get going already I'm going to get my ATM acct today and I'm only 17. he he he well buh bye au revoir -Elizabeth (8:05am) Monday, June 3rd, 2002 (9:27am) Hi? well I'm just here doing nothing because I'm here at school. I'm supposed to be in service period but I guess I didn't go. I'm here in another person's class so I'm like really bored... Geez, what is there to talk about? I dunno, oh I know I met my friend Mike on Saturday. I went to Whittier to see him and although he wasn't the way I expected him to be, he was still real nice and real cool with me. I think he tried too hard to flirt, but at least he knows how, what a dork. So yeah, he was nice. anywho, I want to talk to Chris dammit. I need to talk to him before I graduate from high school. I think I already said that already, but I need closure before I decide where I'm headed to. I got accepted into Cal State L.A. and obviously into Santa Monica College, but I'm still undecided as to where I'm going to end up. I care fo him but only as friends care for each other, as of this point I'm really undecided about my summer. I don't know how I'm going to spend it and I don't know what I'm going to end up doing. One thing for sure is that I have to get a job because I need to buy a car no matter what. My mom said she's going to help me and I don't think she's ready to see me go off to college just yet. I f i want to go into USC, then I'm going to have to work real hard to get accepted there. I don't know what else I'm going to do, since I'm bored right now (he he he) So I guess I'll end it here for the moment since I'm at school (now I'm the dork :p) well laters (9:34am) (4:17pm) wel I'm now at home, lol... Didn't do much at school, but I couldn't stay home either. I stayed home on Thursday and on Friday. Yes, Friday was prom, it was alright I guess. I didn't get to go with the guys i wanted to go with but it's all good. click here for my pic I'm not in the mood to hardly write a thing because I have 3 book reports due by Friday, yikes :o so I need this time to catch up on my reading!!! Did I say I missed Chris? well I do, cause we were close at one point, I hope we can still remain friends. I thinki ought to e-mail him one of these days just to see how he's doing and how finals went for him. I must really care about him if I'm writing about him huh? yeah well I care too much for the ppl who have been close to me. Even though I don't want Maria and Luis to get married, I wish them the best of luck u know, but they hardly know each other intimacy wise, but it's their decision. I was about to get married once, except I never told anyone b/c I didn't want to go through with it. If i start telling ppl I was in their shoes they might think I am just making it up, although everyone knows I'm very honest and truthful when it comes down to sensitive issues like that. The engagement meant a lot to me, but I had to break it cause I knew I wouldn't stand to lose all friends and my dignity like that. Anyway, I have to get going already my brother is about to come home any second I don't want him to see this. buh bye (4:21pm) |
| YES the long awaited 7th page =P it's about prom and it's updates and stuff like that enjoy =) |
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