I promised to go watch one of my hwachong students play in the basketball final today. But I really didn't want to go alone, simply because I can imagine myself totally out-of-place surrounded by all these jc students younger than me. So, I asked my brother to go with me. He agreed, but because he also agreed to have lunch with his friends first, we agreed to meet for lunch with them first before we go for the basketball match. [Notice the keyword is "agree"...]

Guess what happened? His friends suggested playing snooker and my brother happily went with them. What's more, he expected me to just change my plans like this, not go for the basketball game at all. Argh. What kind of attitude is that??!!!! I felt totally betrayed, but because his friends were in such a good mood, I went on without really throwing a huge tantrum. But seething inside...

I have no idea why I got so very pissed actually. Because I really love watching basketball? Not really..Because I am a closet snooker fanatic? Not at all...Then why? All the time I was with at the snooker place, my mind was all on the basketball game, on how my student might be disappointed that I broke my promise, on how it's not my fault, on how the match is going on blah blah blah...finally, halfway through the snooker game, I decided to go for basketball game afterall. I thought the match would have been over by then, but I guess it would have made me feel so much better, to know that at least I made a last minute attempt to keep to my promise.

I really hate people who break their promises without guilty feelings at all, like my brother, who happily tried to console me by saying, "Promises are meant to be broken mah." Mah your head! Not only do you not feel guilty for betraying me, you actually expect me to feel nothing too??

Argh.

I'm not saying that I keep to my promises all the time, but at least I'm more conscious of it. Shouldn't you just not commit yourself if you do not intend to keep to your word? Then when you find that you cannot keep your promise, isn't it only right for you to know that you are in the wrong and at least apologise and sound at least a little sorry?

Argh.

By the same principle, I also cannot stand people who come late and not be apologetic at all. Think Po Chin, Ming, Agnes and David. Argh. What luck, to think all my closest friends are latecomers. At least after all the glares I give them these past few years everytime they come late, now they either come earlier or they would say sorry once they see me. Haha...I can be very tolerant of whatever crimes you might have commited, except when it comes to making me wait like an idiot anymore than 10 minutes.

I think when we make an appointment, isn't it also a kind of promise? Like say, "Let's meet at 1pm at Orchard." I would think it means, "I'll be at Orchard at 1pm, see you there." Shouldn't there be such a inference?? So am I wrong to expect someone to be there by 1pm?? So what's the problem here?

Argh.

I'm appalled by the lack of such basic moral values in the people around me. At least all I do is steal, rob and murder ok.