220202, 1427hr, central time.

it's a glorious day today! the weather is beautiful, and it's friday! i'm so happy.

besides angel being nice to me, and my friend being so supportive of my lousy physics joke, i think great things will happen to me today. this morning, i thought i missed the bus, and was just beginning to think it's a lousy day, when a second bus pulled up to the stop. it turned out to be the backup bus, in case the earlier bus gets too crowded. so not only did i not have to walk to class and hence risk being late, i was actually early for class too. we usually had to show our student passes to the bus driver, but because i was so excited to see the bus [and plus i had to run across the street to catch it] i was kinda panting and terribly stumble-y with my things. so the bus uncle said, "ah, don't worry about it" and let me pass. see, isn't this such a wonderful world?

i still have to go to lab later though, to make up for the terribly unproductive lab on tuesday. we're building a regulated power source, using cool electronic elements like rectifier diodes, zener diodes, capacitors and mysterious looking boxes. on tuesday, clems and i blew up one capacitor and one zener diode, complete with sparks and lots of smoke. so we got demoralized, and the lab was getting dreary because the lab didn't have enough of the mysterious boxes and we couldn't try out our new circuit. so we gave up and decided to try again today. which really sucks, because friday is usually the day i play badminton with priya. sigh. looks like it's a non-exercising week for me this week again.

i'm quite worried about my health - at work yesterday while shelfing the books, i sort of got up from a squatting position a little too quickly and nearly blacked out. i mean, my vision blacked out, but i didn't pass out or anything, i grabbed the shelf and steadied myself, till my head didn't feel so giddy. eek. that was a scary experience. i mean, i've always had problems like that, but i think yesterday was the closest i ever got to actually passing out. hmm. maybe my anemia is back. after all, not been eating too much meat these days. i need to get healthier!

i had another scare just now, re: my appeal request for the exchange program. i received a letter in the mail from the political science department, i thought it was the results of the appeal! i ripped the envelope open only to realise it was just a generic "welcome to the new semester" kind of letter. sigh. ok. i want the results of the appeal! i think i'm ready for it, i'm really beginning to see the good side of not being able to leave. more like the lazy side - by default, life will of course be easier to just not step out of the comfort zone. either way, whether i get to go or not, i think i can handle that letter. so just give it to me! grrrr. what's taking them so long, it's already been more than a week! i kinda feel like i cannot really start planning for anything, without confirmation about the appeal results. should i apply for summer school? should i buy air tickets home? what classes should i take? blah blah blah. i really want to know now! grrr. tearing my hair out. i don't like everything being so uncertain. i hope though, the fact that they're taking so long with it, has something to do with possibly granting an exception for me. i think i'm over-analyzing everything, but oh well, when i can't think about future plans, my mind has to wander somewhere else. i have a mental image of the dean sitting in her office right now, making phonecalls to other important people of the university to explain my situation and recommending that i get approval. hah. i'm too optimistic. self-delusional. whatever. i. want. the. results. now.

i wish i don't have to go to lab later, what i really rather be doing now is go home, take a shower then grab a book and sit outside to read. yeah, it's still cold, but the sun is beautiful! i want to do crazy things, i want to actually play. but hey, life of an engineer sucks. my lab beckons.....