240102, 0820hr, central time.

yesterday started out really bad, actually. besides having to start the day with two engineering classes, of course. i've already resigned myself to the fate of leaving the house as an engineer, and coming home not. muahaha. ok, besides that. my international security class yesterday sucked big time. it was quite interesting, i guess, and conceptually really difficult. i still don't get it - "the subject of security is the subject of security itself." erm. erm. erm. i have to talk to my professor today. the worst part of class had to be the part when i completely humiliated myself, by interpreting the reading the completely opposite [ie completely wrong] way. oh, but this moment of intense stupidity barely nudged out the moment when i stepped into class, and the professor in his dry "wit" said, "where's your chair? you have to bring your own chair, go. gotta pay a price for being late!" f*** him - i practically ran across campus from my electromechanics class to get here, 2 minutes late, and i don't even have a chair to rest my tired sweating butt. blardy hell, i did not deserve that jab.

after that, i felt inspired to check out some books in the library, and ended up getting so engrossed in looking in the education stacks, i was late for my japanese class. argh. yeah, ran across the campus again, to get there. there's a chair waiting to serve my sweaty butt this time though. ahem.

psst. it was a very warm day yesterday, i'm being figurative when i said sweaty butt, though there is a likelihood that it was in fact sweaty. ahem.

i was in such a foul mood though, japanese class wasn't fun yesterday at all. we learnt how to write a japanese postcard. yawn. ["the postal code comes here....the address here...."] though the sensei is still yummy. heh.

i also lost the bid for a winter hat on ebay - it spun waaaaay out of my budget, so i had to let it go. i'm fated to have a cold head and messy hair in winter.

by dinner time, i was feeling so down and unmotivated, i didn't even feel like eating. i found out that alvin's gone to the vietnamese restaurant with clems and sidat, which further irritated me, cos i had thought of going there with him. lizhen recommended the place to me. and damn it, the guys had beat me to it. i had absolute zero appetite, and felt intensely stressed up [loads of work to be done, which in retrospect, i probably knew i wouldn't be able to finish anyway.] so i baked some muffins, toasted half a bagel, and roasted a whatever of corn. i had only one muffin though, cos the muffins were very popular with the guys, who were watching basketball on tv. alvin ate the last one, which the rest of the guys had intentionally left for me. sigh. i didn't mind, of course. i didn't even have an appetite, remember?

anyway, i felt too miserable to do anything, so of the million of things i was supposed to get done by yesterday, i did about 1.645% of it. today's a brand new day of course. a day that carries the debt of yesterday - now i have to do both yesterday's work and today's work. argh!!!

but at least i don't have to carry my own chair to class today. gggrrrrrrrrrrrr.