210901, 0455hr, illinois time.

one might wonder why i'm awake at 4 in the morning. such an unsaintly hour of the day. when everyone else is sleeping. when i should be sleeping too. but i can't, cos i didn't get any work done last night. seized by a sudden attack of acute headache, i gave up on dinner and lion dance practice with shaun and chose to sleep through my headache.

my headache is gone now, replaced by a constant dizziness, though that might just be cos i was sleeping in this odd twisted position in my bed [i had my books in my bed, to prevent myself from going to sleep, and i didn't bother pushing them off the bed when i finally decided to.] and a strong sense of guilt. and a little teeny weeny bit of panic. god, i have so much work to do! argh!

i have 9 more pages of augustine to read, for my political science quiz. 1 engineering homework. 3 pages of notes to copy [for the class i missed today]. 2 political science assignments i had wanted to finish since last week. 1 chapter of social psychology reading. and about 30 japanese vocab words to learn for a quiz. shit.

i guess i'm being too harsh on myself. a headache is a legitimate reason to sleep, quite definitely. i think the question at hand is, though the headache is gone now, i still feel like sleeping. our st augustine writes really well, but a little too overwhelming for my little dizzy brain right now. let's see if i remember what i've read for the past hour. no. sigh.

seriously, if i get another headache attack like this though, i think i should see a doctor. it isn't quite normal, is it? this time, i think it's stress...like my body's way of telling me that i should rest. yawn. yes, i should rest. my quizzes and homework can go to hell. <--- though i say that, i know that i will not be able to remove the guilt if i go sleep now. argh. torture. i think i should go make some coffeeeeee....