230701, 1000hr, Singapore time.

i meant to write over the weekend. but i didn't know. know why? cos kor is back from japan now, and he's like so damn hungry for mahjong. god, i lost $70 over one weekend. i absolutely refuse to play anymore. ggrrr. didn't i say i have already retired from the scene? in chinese, we call it, "washed hands in a golden basin." hahahahhaa...

jurong bird park was fun. i didn't bring my camera, so poachie says she'll make copies for me. she took some rather cute pictures of me, and i took the blurred ones of her. hahaha..i truly suck at photography, i know. makes me wonder if i really should go ahead with the digital camera quest. after all, even if the camera gives me really good resolution, i'll probably just waste it by taking blurred pictures all the time. hahaha.

poachie says the jurong bird park is a wonderful place to go on a date. good scenery, interesting subject, deserted walking paths. upon saying that, and upon seeing me raise my eyebrows, she quickened her footsteps to walk further away from me. all because of all that bostonian marriage crap i mentioned. heh.

my mom finally managed to corner me on sunday, to talk to me about my "future". she started out by asking, "so what happened to that mysterious boyfriend of yours?" i got a huge shock. like which one?! hahahaha... but of course, i kept a straight face, and replied, "what mysterious boyfriend? don't have lah." after that, i thought about it, and i had this mental image of some guy dressed in black, with a mask, leaping to my window, carrying a bouquet of flowers. haha. like the guy in sailor moon. hahahahhaa....very funny, very funny.

my mom says that two years later, when both kor and i finish our studies, there isn't going to be anough space in the house for us all, so my parents are thinking of extending the house. like build an attic or something. i don't even know if that is legal, but apparently it is. i took the opportunity to say that i want to stay on my own and have my own place. partly to save them the money. [imagine, it costs $8000 to build 2 cabinets, how much does an attic cost? sheesh.] and partly cos i don't want to depend on them too much. my mom told me all over again how poor we used to be, blah blah, how we cannot take our fortune now for granted, blah blah. precisely because i don't think i have a share in our present fortune, as in i don't think i earned it, i would feel so terrible if my parents had to spend a bomb to build an attic just so i can still have my own room.

of course, there's also the issue of being an old spinster still staying with her parents, as opposed to being a modern new age swinging bachelorette. haha.

the ideal win-win situation would of course be for me to find my darling husband within the next 2 years. [my mom's already told me what kind of guy to find. ahem.] so my parent don't have to house me anymore, and i can have my own place, without having them feel like they threw their daughter out. mauahahaha...perfect. now, there's just the tiny problem of erm, getting someone to marry me. btw, one of my kor's friends is getting married. god, she's only 23. wow.

anyhow, the house-extension thing is not resolved yet, though my mom is reluctant to spend so much money on the extension, she's reluctant to let me stay on my own either. i think she's shocked by how independent i am. or rather, how independent i want to be. she still sees me as the clingy crybaby i used to be. yes, mom i still cry a lot. but i'm not clingy anymore. so let go, just a little, please?