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I have done up some pages on my class guys, girls and RGS. Pictures!! haha..

Just before I recieved the letter of rejection, I was just thinking if the reason why I was so devastated by the interview episode was that I am one of the lucky few who always get most of the things that I want, if I want it bad enough. Afterall, looking back at my examination results, the kind of love I get from my family and friends, the miscellaneous things like a good temporary job. Oh, how devastating, I did not get an 'A' for Maths. Oh, I don't want to live anymore, I lost my wallet....Duh?

Life has been too good to me.

As a result, maybe subconsciously, I have thought too highly of my own luck. Even if I know logically how low my chances of success are, somewhere out there in my heart, I just wish damn hard. It just so happens, for the past 18 years, my wishes have always come true. I have probably exhausted all my luck for the next 5 years at least. I won't be surprised.

In a way, I guess this is the time to check my egotism. Sometimes, I call it self-confidence. I thought I could be sure that I am quite smart, talented, fun, humourous and likeable. Maybe this is the time to take stock and if it had all been an illusion. Perhaps I have been looking at a distorted mirror all along. A mirror distorted by my ego and an unfailing optimism with myself.

Life is such. Just when I thought everything is going on very well, something has to happen to make me take a better look at what kind of a person I really am. Am I really worth as much as I thought? Have I been annoying tot the people around me? Do I whine too much?

I really should appreciate this. A chance to clear all those misleading illusions clouding up my mind.