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Feeling... stressed up Happiness of the day: beautiful sunny weather Event of the week: 3 exams I actually only have 3 exams, I shouldn't be so damn stressed up. But I really am. I was just telling cheryl, that I really want to do well for this semester, simply cos there's no reason why not. Theoretically, except the fact that I'm a lazy bum, all factors are working for me this semester. I only have 1 job, I'm taking fewer credit hours than before, I'm emotionally healthy...there's no reason for me to screw up anymore. And yet, I still do. This is all very frustrating for me. Usually I don't care, but this semester, just for the sake of superficial academic vanity, I want a good GPA! I'm taking a longer time than usual writing this entry. I don't know why, I've been taking a long time consolidating my thoughts these days. There're too many things on my mind, too many plans just floating around. Like my plans for the 5days after my exams before I fly home. Plans for when I'm singapore. Plans for next semester. Plans for next year, even. Usually when I think about such things, I get really exciting and it makes me happy, even when these plans are really just in my mind. This time, because I force myself to think of my exams all the time, I don't want to think about anything else. But against my wishes, these thoughts keep on popping back into my conscious mind, and disrupting my studying. Gggrrr....fighting against my subconscious mind is so tiring. Need to study...need to study.....need to study.... | |