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Feeling... sian Happiness of the day: finishing my semi-conductor homework on time. Event of the week: 4 ushering assignments this week. Sometimes I wonder...we all need to have other people around us. We're definitely social animals, aren't we? There was a period of time, I felt that I can be a hermit. I seriously don't need much social interaction, I just need my music, and books to read, and I'll be totally contented. But will I be happy? Will I be happy having no one to share with the beauty of the music, the wit of the books or even how crap either one is, or something like that. I wonder. I also wonder what kind of company I like then. I'm supposed to go out with lynn this week, sort of have a nice dinner together, before exams swing along. Then neither of us couldn't decide if we want to invite the other girls along with us. On one hand, of course I don't mind talking to them. They're all nice girls, and pretty fun to be with. But it's different, spending time with good friends like lynn. I can't really tell which one I will prefer. After all, the more people there are, the less the attention on any one person alone, and the easier it will be to actually have a good time. Yet, on the other hand, I wonder when I'll finally get sick of acting bimbotic in front of any group of more than 3 people. In 3 weeks time, I'll be going home. There're so many people I'll have to meet up with, some relatives, some friends. It's all part of the anticipation. I look forward to seeing my old friends and my family again. But I also know that possibly after just about 2 weeks, I'll get tired of going out. I'll want to spend time on my own, going to the pool, to the library, just hanging out at some anonymous fast food restaurant with my favourite mangas, or something. That's the kind of person I am, I like hanging out with myself. I need to find some ways to do that more here at uiuc. To hang out with myself... and not in my room. My room is a little too gloomy for that. I need to go somewhere else. I need to go away from everything. I need to get away. I wish it'll be a little sunnier, makes it easier to feel cheery when it's sunny. | |