| 1430h
Mood: like I've slept too much Happiness of the day: just being Event of the week: Mambo party at my house this friday. No, there wasn't supposed to be 2 wallace's on the list. I know only one. One of the wallace's was supposed to say David. That's what I meant to say, anyway. I wonder if this is an accurate freudian slip....david=wallace? Whoa, they're both going to kill me. HAha... I have so much work to do today, primarily for my brother's script. My self-imposed deadline is killing me...but I know I have to do it now, or die later. My final exams will be here in 3 weeks time. Though I still have 2 exams this week, by the way. Gggrrr... I was talking to priya last night, something about getting equilibrium upset because of guys. In some sense, it's an exhilerating experience, to feel the pounding heart, to not be able to hide the silly grin just thinking of him and blah blah.... but the excitement can only last that long, before the sense of vulnerability and stupidity sets in. I guess in my case, I feel the stupidity even more strongly than usual, because of the circumstance. But at least I can try to reduce the sense of vulnerability. I need to get out of this mess, and it'll all be up to me. Everything suddenly seems so straight-forward now. So I'm trying to establish equilibrium again. Life is simpler without guys, so let's just leave it that way. I guess it's a good thing I confronted my feelings and confronted him, got a better picture of the situation and now I can deal with it, just in time too, before I get too deep into the shit. I'll soon be myself again, I'm sure. | |