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Mood: sick of studying Funny event of the day: I now know the value of pi up to 21 digits! Check this out [I swear, this is from memory!] pi=3.14159265358979323846 Heh. the engineering freak, that's what I am! Event of the week: In 2 days time, I'll be leaving for a 1-week backpacking trip at the Big Bend National Park. I did say I would be raving about Ranma1/2, didn't I? Hmm...the next time I watch it, I shall. Now, the enthusiasm has sort of died down. Heh.
It's been almost a week since I last updated, which is perfectly understandable, if you know what a disgustingly busy week I've had so far. This being the last week of school before springbreak, there're just so many things to do. Papers to write, 2 midterms, preparations for my springbreak trip and such. Not to mention mourning the loss and death of my wallet and taking care of card replacements. I guess it's not difficult replacing all those cards. But I'm really reluctant to do so, simply because I still firmly believe my wallet is somewhere around, just barely out of my vision right now. I still have that teeny weeny little shred of hope that it will turn up. Every card that I replace, takes away the significance of the wallet. And *gasp* the wallet I'm using now is getting filled up with coins, receipts, small slips of paper and grimy dollar notes, which make it seem increasingly personal and increasingly used. Which just makes my last wallet seem increasingly gone. Am I making sense?
I still mourn for my wallet.....
My school work is still not going real smoothly either. In some cases, I cause my own downfall, for being as complacent as I can be. But in others, it just kills me to know how hard work doesn't pay off the way my mom says it does. I was just telling ws, it's not so much the actual results that hit me. The horror lies in losing confidence in myself. Without my self-confidence, who am I? Without the self-assurance that at least I'm good at something, what should I be proud of? It's funny how I strive so hard to put such a horrible a label on myself - The One Who Does Well In Exams. Hahhaha...man, I'm pathetic.
I need more good news in my life. I need a dosage of pleasant surprises, to keep the dreary aspects out of my mind. I think I need to go out more. Talk to more people. Of course, then there's the problem of making sure I'm not pretending to be someone I am not, to make sure that my behavior does reflect some part of my actual thoughts and heart. I think that's a better solution than hiding in my room. And I wish I can rent more Ranma1/2 to watch. But I'm too lazy to go out, in the snow. Yes, it's snowing yet again. The gloomy, haphazard type of snow. Snow is so romantic? Bleah. right.
Take a deep breath. I am going out of my room now. Up to the living room, where I can talk to my housemates. Where I can play pool. Yippee. Fun stuff.
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