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Mood: at peace Happiness of the day: It's wonderful weather! The sun is out....aaaaahh... Event of the week: Going up to Wisconsin this weekend to visit the singaporeans there. A lot of my friends are plagued with problems these days. I don't know if there's some sort of a latent force threatening all these people around me, but it just seems as though all these people I care for are all troubled by one thing or another.
I have a friend who's having problems with her parents. I have another who's having problems with just one parent. Friendship problems are always around, all year round. But this past week, there seems to be problems that even I can't really offer advice to. Or maybe that I'm too tired to actually advise about. Whatever. Computer problems...my computer was infected by a virus, and I was just thinking that's the worst thing that's happened to me, and then another worse virus attacked Po Chin's computer too. I should probably count myself lucky, that at least my situation is not as bad as hers. Financial problems...apparently I'm not the only one who's got problems with that. Relationship problems. Come on, guys, it's valentine's day next week! Don't fight!
Plus, of course, I have my own problems too, so sometimes I feel like there's some invisible enemy trying to attack me from all angles. And when I didn't quite die, he/she started attacking my allies, hoping I'll be weakened. Man, I sound so drama, but I really feel this way.
But just about yesterday, about 9.15pm, I had a revelation. I freaking don't care anymore. I was ice-skating last night, in my meek attempt to do some physical activity at least once a week. As I was wobbling around, I realised that though I was still frowning, I wasn't really thinking about anything anymore. Like suddenly things don't matter. In fact, I realised: why should they? From a much larger perspective, these are such insignificant problems, because come on, it's not like we're starving to death. Even wrt the financial problems, food is never a problem. The same problems, when put to the most microscopic timeframe, don't matter either. At every single moment of my life, these problems don't have to exist in every single moment of my life. I should have a choice of allowing certain moments to be free of trouble. And it just turns out that last night, on the ice-rink was one of those moments.
I felt so good....I think I've finally kan4 kai1, which directly translates to the title of today's entry. These two words have been in my mind for the whole of last night, yet I cannot find an appropriate english word for them. Yeah, my vocab really sucks.
I wish my friends can start feeling better soon. Of course, I'm not responsible for their problems, there's no reason why I should be so affected, but nonetheless I just wish people around me will be happy too. I wish they can start to kan4 kai1 too. I hope my good mood will last. I still have a lot of work to do, so if I get stumped by another ece question anytime soon and hence lose my momentum, I might go back to the whiny brat I was before. Or something like that. Cross your fingers.
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