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Mood: much better Fact of the day: Lewis Carroll's the pseudonym of Charles Lutwidge Dodgson, obtained by translating the originial 2 first names from Latin to English, then reversing the order. event of the week: Chinese New Year! Li has been pressuring me to change my mind about going to Links, and it was just getting on my nerves. I don't usually like to change my plans, and I know some of my friends will be there, so I really did want to go. But since shaun and lynn are not going anymore, I would really hate to share a room with an unhappy Li. Or, she might totally decide not to go at all, and we won't spend springbreak together at all. But I would be feeling so guilty, since we did agree some time ago that we should travel together for spring break.
I've been in such a foul mood these days, I really didn't want to make any decisions like this. If you ask me now what I want to do for springbreak, I would just want to stay in the house and not go anywhere and keep away from everybody. But I know I'll regret it if I really decide to do that. Not exactly in the right frame of mind to make decisions. And Li keeps on asking me to decide, every single day, every single time she sees me [which is of rather high frequency, since we live in the same house, by the way.] Argh.
Probably I shouldn't go to links, since nobody I really really really like is going anyway. Since it's bringing back such bad memories anyway. [now that I think of it, links does seem to be associated with mostly negativity.] Since Li really doesn't want to go. Since I am practically sick of seeing big groups of people already. Yeah, I shouldn't go.
Li will be so happy...I'll probably join her on a hiking trip or something. That should be something new. Something different to do, compared to the cities I've been visiting for the past vacations. She was really excited about this potential hike, so I guess at least one person will be happy about my decision. At least there shouldn't be that many people to face in the wilderness, so at least there's chance that I'll be happy too. What the hell...if I suddenly become a major social animal with an extreme craving for fine food and luxurious hotel accomodation during springbreak, I will definitely regret this decision I make today. Sigh.
But I can't think about potential regrets now. Time is running out....cos later when I go home, Li's going to ask me for my decision again. I've been dragging this for too long, I should decide by then. *cringe*
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