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Mood: highly demoralised Fact of the day: The UN situated in New York has its own post office. event of the week: Doom Week now, and counting down to next week, also known as Yippee Week. That dreaded elctromagnetism engineering exam finished about 1.5 hours ago. And I'm screwed. As usual. Again. Although I studied very hard for it...it was snowing when I stepped out of the building, looking so pretty, as the snow was sort of fine and very light. But I was in such a foul mood, I didn't even notice. Only when I came to the library, did I notice that my coat was covered with snow. Cute little snow particles that looked especially white against my new black winter coat. I had to basically jump up and down to shake them off my coat, cos I didn't want to wipe them off.
I have an ache on the right side of my neck. It's a very dull kind of ache, like I accidentally strained the muscle there or something. It might have something to do with the way I sit when I take my exams, and hence the way my head is tilted in the same angle for the whole 3 hours. I had the same ache there 2 days ago.....interestingly, that's also the day when I sort of screwed up my history exam because I couldn't remember a single date for all thsoe really important historical events that I had studied so hard about. I'm beginning to think there's a pattern here. I know now..probably as I curse and swear in my mind through my exam, all those negativity and hostility gets translated into a literal pain in the neck....ouch.
Not to mention the turn for the colder these past few days has brought that pain in my arm thing back. It's not too serious yet, but as the wind blows, as I feel it through my coat and past my arm, I can literally feel my muscles tense up and bones starting to ache. [I know this sounds biologically incorrect, but that's how I feel it.]
Basically, I'm not feeling too well right now. I'm old! Goodness, all these aches around my body and such. Oh, I have some mysterious insect bites on my arm too, which is kinda funny, cos I thought they were mosquito bites, till I realised mosquitoes would have frozen to death in this weather. Now, my guess is that there's some weird insects living in that disgusting-I-wonder-which-dirty-bums-have-owned-it couch in my living room, and they had an early christmas feast on my arm when I sat there studying a few days ago.
.......................sigh.
I have a problem saying what's really bothering me now. Yeah, pain in the neck, itchy insect bites, blah blah..yeah, they irritate me. But what's really bothering me now? I can't believe it, I'm bothered mostly still by that 3 hours where I sat there and couldn't do my exam. I freaking studied so hard for this exam and I still don't know how to do those freaking not-that-tough question. I don't understand how my best is not even of an average standard in this class. I don't understand why I allow myself to be so upset. Sigh. Yeah, that's that's bothering me. Very much. Sigh.
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