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Mood: have to study. But obviously, reluctant to even pick up my book.... Fact of the day: The notorious footbinding practice started during the Song Dynasty, the torturous procedure usually done by mothers to their daughters, in hoping help them gain the gentlemen's favour. event of the week: zilch. Play bball on friday?
I was just talking to a friend about love. Again. Oh well, what a wonderful topic to argue about anyway.
My friend and I, we are both not the typically popular kind of girls. Not among the guys anyway. Don't you just know? The kind that stand among a group of girls, and just not attract anything more than just a glance. Even beyond the initial physical bias, after you get to know all the guys, you're still more likely to be the one they talk to about the girl friend they like, than be the girl as talked about. I've long been used to being a good buddy. A good friend. A good aunt agony. Blah blah blah.
I think my friend is one of the sweetest people I know, a little shy, but no doubt humourous and very kind. If I'm a guy, this is precisely the kind of girl that I will like, but also very likely to miss altogether, simply because I'll just be some air-headed jerk. I'm on the other hand, right on the other extreme. I'm so high-profiled. On such buddy terms with the guys, I think probably the guys wish that they could ignore me. Heh. And the funny thing is, though my friend and I are totally different, we're both equally un-loved. Hmm....
I'm in the independent mode right now, so I don't really care. But my heart almost broke for my friend, when she lamented, "Will there ever be a guy who will like me? What does it feel like to be loved?" How should I describe the joys of having a guy care for you like no one else? The sweetness of his kisses, the warmth of his hugs. The strength of his support, the security of his comfort. I think I'm lucky. Though unloved now, I *was* loved. I know what it feels like to be loved, thanks to a guy who somehow saw what nobody else saw in me. But which smart and clear-minded guy can see the virtues hidden beneath my friend's plain exterior?
Why are guys so superficial in their choices? Probably girls are equally superficial, but I feel resentful against the guys, because when I look at my friend, who's so innocently waiting for love, I don't have the heart to even say that love will come soon. Because I'm not confident that any of the guys around us right now have that kind of depth, to appreciate her.
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