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Mood: - Fact of the day: event of the week: flying off this sunday
Yesterday, I finally got to experience a suana! Hahahaha... yes, it's very hot. I felt so grossed out by the layer of sticky sweat on my body. Eeww..but I guess the good thing about it was, I was with my mom, and we had one of our rare heart to heart talks.
Maybe also affected by my birthday, she suddenly became very concerned with my relationships with guys. Besides asking who ws is, who I used to like, anyone liking me and all, she also offered me advice on what kind of guy to like. Basically someone like my dad, naturally. Hehe... I thought it was pretty funny of her to ask me about all my guy friends and analysing my "chances" with them. Hilarious...
I said I may not actually get married if I can't find any guy I love, and she was kinda horrified. I guess she doesn't really want me to stay at home to wait on her after all. Not surprisingly, she says my expectations are too high. I thought so myself too, and I guess now that she says the same thing, it's probably true. Hmm.. but things may still change when I get older and more desperate. For now, I shall remain this snobbish modern independent woman. Heh.
Actually, I really don't mind not getting married. But I think it'll be quite tragic if I can't even fall in love. Have I liked guys? Yes, a lot. Do I love any of them? No, highly unlikely. Sigh...isn't that just tragic? Argh...
Coincidentally, I went out with shaun and because he's recently had some love problems, we came to the topic of whether it's better to not love or be hurt by love. From his perspective, naturally he'd rather he didn't love the girl. But from the perspective of someone who's a total love-idiot, I can't say I'm not envious of his confidence of his love for her.
I guess it's time for me to confess that shaun is the guy that I used to like. He's not the only guy who's ever made me feel happy, but he's one of the few who's ever made me feel hurt. I still remember the pain in the chest that I felt when he first told me the details of his relationship with the girl and he should be damn proud of himself! I've gotten over him now, which probably made it easier for me to talk to him about his problems. Hahaha..less distracted by my pseudo heart attack..
He's not the only friend I have who's having problems either. Sigh...what's this, anti-cindy's-guy-friends month or what? What can I say? I wish them all luck. I really want my friends to be happy.
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