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Mood: tired out Fact of the day: My Chinese name is such because of the weather during my birth. event of the week: party this saturday.
My grandma came over from Malaysia to visit today, so almost the whole day has been dedicated to keeping her entertained. Some of my relatives came over to my house as well, both to see my grandma and to see me. Of course, there's no lack of the "Eh, you a bit fatter already hor!" exclamations. Sigh...
Visited my cousin's new born baby as well. Hearing those adults talk about the delivery, the after-care, the discomforts and inconveniences, I felt this strong urge to really remain celibate for the rest of my life. Argh, it's so much pain and torture to have a baby! I think my other cousin saw the look on my face and said half-jokingly, "Aiyah, but when you have your own baby, then you'll realise these things [referring to the discomforts] are nothing. I most certainly hope so...
During the visit, we were also talking about those days when my cousins are I were still young, talking about the funny kiddy things we've said, about how naughty we were, how time flies. Sigh.... I'm really not young anymore I guess. My 20th birthday is coming up soon and actually I wasn't really too bothered. But after seeing that cousins who had played with me only 10 years ago getting married and having babies, it's hard to not feel a sense of loss.
Later that night, after my relatives left, and after dinner at a family friend's house, guess who called? Shaun.
He's not called me for such a long time, and we've not had a decent conversation for more than two months. He went to London for the last 10 days, for his brother's graduation ceremony, but even before that, when I was in Singapore, we didn't really talk either. I guess I really miss him, yet I felt so distant from him when he finally called. More distant than for friends whom I've not talked to for the last one year. Weird, isn't it?
Maybe because he was busy trying to do his work at the same time he was talking to me, or maybe because it's really been far too long since we've had a good conversation, it just didn't feel right. Sigh... I probably shouldn't be overly sensitive. Probably the next phone call will be better...if he still remembers to call me. Or maybe I should call him....
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