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This is Shaun's first contribution to this journal. He's very recently been reading up on Satanism, as a form of alternative religion. Apparently it's inspired him to write this....
Right now, its 1.25am, 24th March 2000.
I just read a few websites about Satanism and I must say that it totally blew my mind off. I have never seen anything like it. It has really cleared my mind of all the misconceptions I had about Satanism. It is more than just about lamb sacrificing, sex crazed, blood-thirsty cultists going around performing rituals that will disgust the general public, including me. There are actually several denominations of Satanism that ranges from traditional to setian to Laveyians and many many more. Satanism is actually an organised set of beliefs or a religion that uses the word �Satan� as a form, be it a divine entity or mystical forces or just a a combination of various forms of energy, to channel all their attention towards.
Maybe I am not explaining myself clearly. To get a better understanding of Satanism, I will suggest reading on Ascendancy Satanic Website. A very interesting and enlightening website on Satanism.
Basically, what I am trying to point out is that Satanism is not all that bad. There are satanic cults that perform demonic rituals and advocate all acts of evil and destruction but there are also satanic organisations that advocate peace, love and respect. Let me quote from this person in her email on the site. She, a satanist, wrote: � We do not choose our beliefs so that we may be the Opponent, but are made the Opponent by choosing our beliefs. And thus is comes back down to the Hebrew meaning of the wordform "stn" -- the opponent, the accuser, the adversary.� It is amazing how differently I will react to the word �Satanism� within one night. There are just too many articles and essays about Satanism on numerous sites that I think I will spend long hours reading, deciphering, reasoning and reflecting. All I can say is that my life finally has something worthwhile to keep me occupied.
Last night I slept at 4am and woke up by 7.30am on this Friday morning, 24th March. As I lay on my bed, I was reasoning with myself on whether there is a all-powerful, all-loving and knowing GOD in this world. I cannot believe that there can be someone describe as omnipotent and loving when there are cancer-riddened believers of his dying. If there is a GOD, why does He let my brother die of leukemia at a tender age of 2? What about the scores of cancer patients, believers and non-believers alike, that are suffering?
Why are people born in this without the ability to see, to walk or talk or hear? What has all these people done to derserve this, including my brother? If GOD is really so powerful and compassionate, why does He allow so much hate and suffering go on in the world, especially thr third world countries while the �vultures� in the more advanced countries continue to milk on their potential cash cows ruthlessly and suck the blood of the oppressed and lower class dry?
All these thoughts were swimming in my mind in an on-off fashion. Finally, I got too tired and drifted into sleep. I don�t think I will ever consult any Christians on those questions that troubled me the whole night. Mostly because I don�t think I will buy what they preach or believe in their explanation and that might put a strain in our relationship. Religion is always a sensitive issue that requires a great deal of effort to search for the correct person to talk to. That person must be sensitive about other people�s feelings, more importantly, he must be able to appeal to logic and reasoning, able to accept and respect the beliefs of others and be as open minded as possible. Sadly, I don�t find these traits among most of the Christians that I met. I will not comment on Satanism due to the fact that I am also new to this idea myself. I am afraid of mis-interpreting it wrongly and causing more misunderstanding than it is has been for the past 2000 years.
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