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Mood: a little grouchy Fact of the day: I'm in school, but I'm not learning a new fact everyday. Hmm... event of the week Swing dancing this thursday! For the past 3 days, I was participating in this leadership training program thing. Nothing really special, nothing that I've not done before. I mean, the same personality tests, the same activities, the same lessons. I don't think I learnt anything new. I probably should have known, I've probably already exhausted all my self-help potential from all those camps and training programs I have taken part in during those rgs and hwachong days. Oh well, just another one to add to my history I guess.
There's something more interesting that happened to me during this program though. It happened on the first day of the program. We were supposed to organise ourselves into teams, and somehow, I ended up into this group where there really these really cool American people. The awesome, totally charismatic ones that anyone would love to get to know, to work with. But when another team needed another member, I gladly escaped from this team and joined the other team, where there were the shy and awkward girls and the less impressive guys.
And somehow, I felt like I would be happier with the second group than with the first. Isn't this interesting. I don't want to degrade my new friends from that group, but those were the people that no one else wanted to work with. They were seen as the outcasts, but I felt so much more comfortable with them.
I don't want to get all overly analytical again. I'm not in the mood today, but it really reminds me of the rgs days, when I always hang out with the GEP 2nd intakers*, who were initially seens as the intruders of this elite group of 1st intakers*. Of course, the segregation dissolved away eventually, but I still retained that reluctance to get too close with the more prominent 1st intakers. They are impressive, they are smart, I will probably be seen to be o-so-cool if I hang out with them. Some of them are really approachable, but somehow, I chose to keep a distance.
I'd rather hide in the background. I like hanging out with people that no one else wants to hang out with. I think I work better that way. Though I don't know why. * I was part of this GEP program where supposedly smart kids are put together for a more stimulating and intensive education. There are two entry points into this program, once in primary school and once in secondary school. Those enrolled in primary school are known as 1st intakers and those in secondary 2nd intakers. I was a 2nd intaker. | |