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Mood: refreshed Fact of the day: Sodomy is outlawed in most American states, but most states don't actually do much about it. event of the week Going for Links2000 in Philadelphia this weekend. Yes, I am back! With a vengeance indeed.
The weekend has been wonderful. I actually still have a lot of work to do, mostly because of my trip to Philly this weekend. Because of this trip, I actually have to miss 3 tests and have make up for them before I leave. Not to mention the tonnes of homework to be finished. But I don't really feel like fretting about it now.
Instead, I'm just resting now. Reading, bumming, walking as slowly as I want, emptying my mind of work. I realise I've been working too hard for the past 2 weeks, which probably resulted in my near break downs nearer the end of the week every week. It's just such a viscious cycle actually. I get all pumped up to work hard at the start of the week, so I proceed to do so for about 4 days, before I feel really really tired, but also guilty for not being able to keep up with the momentum.
Then on Thursdays and Fridays, which are the days when most of my work are due anyway, I will get terribly stressed up and start belittling my own work and questioning my existence, my worth and blah blah blah.
Like last Friday, I had 3 short essays due, but until about 12 midnight on Thursday night, I still refused to get to work. Don't ask me why. It's already beyond logic, now that I think of it. It took me a nice long talk with a friend over coffee that finally got me back to the writing mood. Of course then I didn't sleep for the whole night and ended up all cranky the next morning. But I survived.
I really hope the same doesn't happen all the time. I'm so tired of getting all stressed up [and sleepless] every Thursday and Friday. Then I'll write about it in this journal and freak all my friends out. I should either take things easy or just stop writing about it here. Hehe.
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