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Mood: very tired Fact of the day: I'm so braindead. event of the week chinese new year dinner tomorrow Today was a bad bad bad bad day. I was reduced to tears in the afternoon and I didn't get enough sleep.
Last night, I got home really late because I was ushering a dance performance at a local theatre. And I had 2 papers due the next day. I slogged at my computer for about 2 hours, and I just couldn't write anything vaguely eloquent, or even coherent. Finally, I took a 2 hour nap and worked at it again for the rest of the night, and barely 15 minutes before I was to go to class, I finally managed to finish both papers. They were not as good as I could have done, but at least they were finished.
I was so relieved and tired, I fell asleep during my computer science lecture. I tried so hard to keep my eyes open, since I know how bad I am at computer programming, but I just couldn't take it anymore. After I went for the classes where I handed in my papers, I decided to skip the 2 classes left for the day and go back to sleep. I didn't want to fall asleep in this other performance that I was to usher tonight.
When I got home, I realised that I have yet another piece of homework due today, at 5pm. It's really not a big problem, because it is a rather easy computer science homework and I have finished the program like days before and all I need to do now is to transfer the file to my homework directory and compile my program and run it to make sure it works. Then I can sleep after that. Then I can go for the song rehearsal I arranged for later the afternoon.
Fat hope.
The program refused to compile, I don't know why it wouldn't work, I checked and checked and checked and I just couldn't tell what the hell was wrong with it. I checked until I couldn't sleep before going for the rehearsal, I checked until I couldn't even go for the rehearsal. The girls called me and asked if I was okay. I told them I couldn't make it and Angel said, "Don't be too stressed hor, take care of yourself ok?" And I just suddenly felt like crying.
Finally when I put down the phone receiver, I just started wailing. I sobbed and wailed and basically screamed at my laptop. It was already about 4pm then, the homework was due in 1 hour's time and it didn't look like I'll be able to debug that stupid program in 1 hour's time. So I cried.
Of course, finally it took Alvin to come save me from the misery and he debugged my program for me. I was relieved, and I wanted to sleep. But nnnoooo, it is destined that I cannot sleep afterall. I had to talk to Alvin on the phone, to keep him entertained because he was bored. OMIGOD......
By the time I finally got off the phone with Alvin, it's too late. I can't take a nap anymore. It was already time to go for dinner before my ushering act. Sigh....physically and mentally strained, I suddenly felt like my life is such a comic act.
The rest of the night was fine, I didn't cry again, except the time I teared a little when I suddenly thought of my mom and thought of how I should be having reunion dinner with my family instead of slogging through my homework and handing performance programs out to the Americans who probably don't even know it's chinese new year. Anyway, no, I didn't cry anymore. And by the way actually the performance that I was ushering for was really good. Drummers of West Africa..really cool...
Right now I feel like I'm rambling on and on and on. A little bit high, a little bit depressed, very lonely and very tired. I want to go to sleep already. As I look at my bed, I was wondering, is this true? Can I finally go to bed already? finally...........
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