I skipped all my classes today.

It's a combination of emotional distress and physical illness that caused my reluctance in getting out of my room today. So I stayed in my room instead. Classes? Who cares... Homework? Who cares..actually I do care, but I'd rather just hide in my room for the time being.

Everything that goes on outside my room, I don't have to care. What the professor taught in class today, what the dining halls served for lunch today, the weather today, how everyone else is feeling today..blah blah...I don't have to care. Because I am not there.

But I can't hide in here all the time. One of the Singaporeans is celebrating his birthday today, so I will have to step out of my shell by tonight. The girls want to dress up a little for the occassion. So I shall dress up a little too. If I could choose not to show up tonight, my one-day retreat would have been complete.

But I can't. I have to turn up. Because this retreat is afterall only temporary. I don't even want my friends to notice that I've been missing. That I've been feeling down. It's not something that I would want on my birthday. So I guess I should just show up, be my usual wacky self and hopefully no one will even notice.

"Happy birthday!!! How are you? Yeah, I'm ok. Yeah, of course I'm ok! No, everything's fine, don't worry about me. Happy birthday!! "