No, I'm fine. I just didn't update my journal. But I'm still alive.

I have a tendency to take internet breaks very often these days. There are just some times when I feel like emails are not worth replying, like everything I see on my computer screen are so detached from my life I actually shouldn't bother to keep up with it anymore. Yes, sometimes I just don't feel like keeping up anymore.

Everything happens so quickly on the internet, everything requires a fast response. I reply an email today and a few hours after that, my friend's reply is already waiting in my mailbox for me, for me to read an reply again. It's nice to hear from people so quickly, but sometimes, I just feel like it's too fast for me. I cannot catch up. I cannot even take some time off to ponder over my words before I send my email out again.

I think it's time for me to think carefully about what the internet means to me. My website is important to me. My emails are important to me. But I wonder how I should even compare them to the happenings in real space. In a different time frame, different space frame, how will the comparison even be valid?

I don't know..all I know is, I really needed a break. I needed to be unreachable. I needed to feel like I'm not obliged to reply emails within the day, or update my journal every other day. The internet is not my life. I don't want it to be.