I can't believe my internet connections are not up yet! grr..damn it. So I still have to go all the way to the computer lab to surf the web. Argh. I'm going to bug my friend to fix it up for me. By hook or by crook, I want to be able to surf the web from my room, on my laptop! damn it.

The previous few entries have been stored in my laptop memory, as I thought my internet connections will be up by the start of this week. Brilliant. Today is already Thursday. Argh.

Other than this "little" delay, actually I've been rather busy the past week, trying to complete my homework in time. Basically, I was trying to be a normal student.

I failed terribly. It's weird, but true. I don't know how I managed to fool everyone during the past years, but I cannot afford to not study here. Alvin, [who wrote this entry, remember?] doesn't understand why I bother to update my journal every other day. There's such a contradiction, because in the sense, yet he is full of awe on how I managed to keep up with this for such a long time.

For someone who types so slowly, I'm darn proud of myself, bothering to type in something new every other day. Yet, sometimes I feel so tired. I am really just a student. And for the past few days, I realise that should be my full-time job. But I am very distracted. There's always a haunting thought in my mind: have I updated my journal today?

I don't think I'll give this up anytime soon. I refuse to anyway. But everything has to come to an end and what I'm trying to say here is, I've been thinking : why not now?