I've done relatively well for most of my subjects. Yes, all those hard work and stress are worth it. I'm very contented now. I don't have any other major exams for the next 2 weeks at least. Aaahh...bliss...

Tomorrow, I will be setting off to Purdue University for a formal dinner and dance social event. I've been looking forward to it for the past 2 weeks at least, once in a while motivating myself to work hard, knoowing that this function happens to fall right after the end of my exams.

But now that I think of it, argh, I wish I can spend this weekend not socialising. I don't know..it's probably the introverted side of me talking here. Socialising just takes up too much energy. Too much effort, too much fuss and too much smiling. Very tiring.

And it's not like I can expect anything to come out of one night of socialising. What, really find my soulmate there? Or am I there really to socialise with the UIUC friends, except we're not wearing t-shirt and jeans anymore, but dresses and shirts and ties. How exciting. Duh.

I wish I can be with good friends. I wish I can just get Wallace, Agnes, David and Tee Joo to just come over to my house so we can play bridge and talk crap for the night.

Yet I know that I want to get to know more people, to make more friends, to see the world, blah blah blah......I'm such a confused kid sometimes..

Don't mind me. I'm just talking nonsense here. Of course I want to go to Purdue. Of course I want to spend about USD100, a lot of time and a lot of effort, to go there to make small talk with uninteresting people before coming back to study extra hard to make up for lost time. Yes, of course I'd love that.

OK fine. *give myself two tight slaps* I shall be more optimistic. I will enjoy myself there. Wait for my good news.