I have 3 major exams next week. Enough said.

I don't even have the energy to whine about it anymore. This is a very weird feeling. It's not like my life now is purely studying. There are other good things happening to me, like picking fresh apples from an apple orchard, hanging out with my friends, getting some exercise, hearing from friends in Singapore or anywhere else. These are things that usually make me feel happy. Usually.

Similarly, there are not-too-good things happening too, like having more bills to pay, being unable to help friends who need help, having no time to call home, not receiving my parcel, laptop screwing up on me, exams, exams, exams. These are things are make me whine a lot too. But I don't feel like whining. [Yes, what a surprise..]

I don't know how to describe what I'm feeling now, because I don't even know what it is. It's a feeling of detachment from myself. I feeling like I'm just going through everyday, doing what I'm supposed to do, experiencing what I'm supposed to experience for the day. It's almost like I know that my actual reactions to the happenings don't matter. They will just erm, happen anyway. What the hell, I'm not sure I know what I'm talking about anymore.

I think there's an overload on my emotions. Or maybe I've just been studying too much quantum physics.