I guess being a student, I should be concentrating on my homework. But I find it extremely hard to concentrate. It's weird. Hmm..

I find it increasingly difficult to enjoy my school work nowadays. I've never enjoyed school work anyway, but really, the courses I'm taking now seriously bore me to death. I suddenly miss the PE (Physical Education) and GP (General Paper) classes in JC. I'm not sure if I actually want to declare that I love PE, since there have been times when I painstakingly tried to skip one or two PE classes. I guess it's probably the variety that I liked then.

In JC, even though I only took science and maths courses, they were all different. But here, I take 2 maths course, one physics course and one engineering course..omigod, they're about the same! I'm looking forward to taking my humanities and economics classes next semester...

I know it was also the personal relationships I had with my tutors that kept me going back for classes everyday back in those JC times. But I have none of that here. My tutors don't know me, we meet for a class, we part after the class. I feel incredibly distant from all my TAs and professors. I know they're nice, but somehow, we don't need to get to know each other, so we don't. Simple as that. Damn it.

I don't know....I know my grades will eventually suffer if I don't find a comfortable niche in class. I want to enjoy my work, I want to feel motivated to actually pick up my homework to do. I'm wondering if I've chosen the wrong course, wrong major, wrong career....argh argh argh...I'm too young to be thinking of this..

Even the cute guys in class isn't enough motivation...now that's bad...