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FRIDAY, 11/29/2002
HAPPY chinese BIRTHDAY, MOM!!!!!!

KangTa *Happy Happy*
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Tears you shed from pain. I don't think there's tommorrow in your heart.
You couldn't dream.
You're down on yours knees to uneasy world,
even living with your head down was hard.
Everyone feels depressed time to time in their lives.
Living is not easy. But today,
*Forget everything. happy happy. Try to smile. Your world, the song for you.
Always for you. It's everlasting. You are precious to me.
World will say it won't be easy. But it is worth a try. This is the beginning.
At the end of pain, happiness always finds you.
The happiness is for you, who are more precious than any others.
Everyone gets chance like sunshine time to time in their lives.
Living is like that. Don't cry and stand up. oh! *Repeat*
You know that today is not everything.
Many people who love you are trusting you. *Repeat* The world is only for you~


credit to ^^ hot012.cjb.net

THURSDAY, 11/28/02 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LINGGA!!!!!! Tiap hari aku semakin nga karuan..... Semakin stress....aku harus gimana T T Serasa ingin mati saja +_+ hiks hiks.........semoga aku bisa sadar dari ssemua ini...aku perlu banyak merenung dan memikirkan sikap dan perbuatanku selama ini dan apa yang sebaiknya kuperbuat.......Aku benci diriku.....aku bener-bener merasa jadi john Lennon kedua...... Aku bener-bener bingung akan semua masalah ini!!!! Aku harus gimana??? Aku ngrasa aku ini jahat sekali >.< bg : Starting Over-SPEED!

WEDNESDAY, 11/27/2002
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HYE SUNG!!!!!!
Kaligrafi sialan!!! Walaupun hari ini ultahnya hye sung, tapi aku nga ngrasa bahagia....ekonometriku dapet 38 rank 3 dr bawah sekelas, pidato gagal-tapi yang drama ppkn lebih parah....i've got auntie visit (u know....) my stomach is hurt T T
I musn't give up with the oriflame....i'll try my best!!!! thanx for Ko Yudi n Hani for supporting me :)
PK lesson this afternoon was really useful!!!! about confidence....nice lecture!

bg : BABY BABY - Jo Kyu Chan *melt* so romantic~

TUESDAY, 11/26/02 I'm so sad today T T but also happy in the same time n_n I cried a lot ne......so much problem, but really thanx for stefania for listening all my crying things and problem.... go map sep ni da ( korean, in english means thanx!!!! Kim taught it to me^^ ). BTW, mom and dad has just came back from s'pore *love them* bought a lot of snack :) Got 2-5 magazine 1st edition!!!! that's all for today~ bg : Kang Ta- HAPPY HAPPY

MONDAY, 11/25/2002
After the sucky weeks, here comes the happy week...... Even this week full of tests i don't care......there's a lot of cds we bought today. They're :

1. SHINHWA ::MY CHOICE:: totaly a great album!!!!!MUST buy album!!!!!!!
2. KANG TA - Pine Tree ( aaAAAaaaaaa kang ta is so....cool^~^ GREAT ALBUM!!!!!!!!)
3. SPEED - Dear Friends 1
4. SPEED - Dear Friends 2
5. K-pop super best (2cds)
6. His Greatest Hits FRANK SINATRA - New York New York
7. La' cryma Christi - Single Collection
H A P P Y...H A P P Y...H A P P Y!!!!!!!!!!!!yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lalalalal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tapi kita belum belajar sama sekali buat ulangan besok - -;;

bg : Purpose-Kang Ta!!!!!

SUNDAY, 11/24/02 I guess, i'm at the highest point where i HATE laruku, don't wanna buy hear their song, and anything about laruku > <# i really HATE them!!!!! really bored with their music--i don't want to listen to j-rock anymore for the rest of my life!!!! Go hell with dir n grey, luna sea, disgusting Gackt, x japan, glay, malice micer, plastic tree, buck tick, de la quartz,etc. and especially go hell with HYDE!!!!!! aku bener2 nga bisa berpikir....kok bisa....hyde yang beragama kristen (aku nga tau kenapa dia masuk agama itu, dsb) malah nga percaya adanya yesus kristus n malah istilahnya nebarin jalan sesat??? co-lambang metal(kata wiliam itu lambang sesat), menciptakan lagu yang berhubungan dengan setan- Ibara no namida(kalo nga salah), Shout at the devil, Route 666(aku baru tau dari fenny kalo 666 itu angka setan). Sejak aku tau semuanya berubah....aku bener2 muak!!!!! aku bukannya sok alim ato giman cuma perasaanku jadi nga enak....mana ada orang yang berbuat demikian pada agamanya sendiri, co seperti kita jelek2in bangsa kita sendiri, ato lupa asalnya kita dr zhong guo.....yah semacam kayak gituan lah! kalo bisa aku mau banget jual semua cd, vcd laruku yang ada!!!!!! thanx to hyde-aku benci laruku. Padahal aku suka musiknya tetsu-dive to blue, perfecet blue, dsb....ah, sudahlah..... bg : WAKE ME UP-SPEED!

SATURDAY, 11/23/2002

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO INDAH !!!!!!!
ALSO FOR DONG WAN OPPA AND BEN-A1 (11/22/02)!!!!!!!

geez, why there's so many friends and idols celebrate their birthday in nov???i'm totally banrupt!!! BTW, it's snowing in Masan, a city in korea where kim lived in.....envy envy!!do you like snow? i like snow very much.irma--snow=winter sonata. i received email from Hye sung SHINHWAISM..she said that she had received my wallp...so happy!!! now, i've just realized that my wallp is nothing compare with others....... 2 days ago i visited a damn site about hye sung. damn great but the site made my feelings so uncomfortable......i don't wanna visit it for the rest of my life!!!!!! but i must admit that her wallp are really really great!plz visit it. Mar, you MUST see her wallp!!!! My mom called from s'pore...so happy!!!!! we miss you mom T T401 ppl have visited sendy's SPEED! One More Dream!!!!yeah!!!

bg : Seribu Tahun Lamanya-JIKUSTIK

WEDNESDAY, 11/20/2002 Lama nga update....males pake inggris-norak! Ekonometri gagal, cape banget gara-gara semalem begadang n besoknya bangun pagi-pagi. Mom n dad is having Medical Check Up in Singapore-we'll be home alone until next monday. They planned to visit Sentosa Island. Lili, aku udah pesen 'MEME' yang banyak ke mamaku ^^;;; Lusa foto n aku belum siap sama sekali..aaaa....peduli ama ama foto studionya!!!! aku benci difoto!!!! BTW, walp-nya SHINHWA udah jadi!!!!!!silahkan klik di sini buat liat. Thanx buat margaret n lili yang udah ngajarin photoshop n buat semua yang udah dukung aku terutama sendy-chan, memei, irma, dll. Kata-katanya sebagian kuambil dari kartu ultah yang dikasih kalian (mar, li, yoyo). Thanx for the inspiration! Doain' supaya menang yach!!! yay!!!!! ada email dari kim^______________^ dia ajarin bahasa korea!!!! Besok Meteor Garden 2 tayang di indosiar jam 8 malem. nonton ya!!!! bg : Hae Gyul Sa-SHINHWA

SUNDAY, 11/17/2002
8:08 PM
Hiks hiks....ce ming2 ama ko akiong besok pulang T T so sad......padahal udah lama nga ketemu......hiks......ce ming2 begitu memberi semangat, dorongan supaya aku jadi psikolog (cita2 ce ming2 yang nga kesampaian) juga dorong masuk design grafis gara2 liat gambar jelekku yang dipigura.......hiks hiks......sendy juga supaya masuk managemen.... hiks nga bisa melupakan dekapan hangat ce ming2 pada kita semua--> bahkan sama memei yang pemalu itu.....apalagi jabatan hangat ko akiong pas mau pulang *SOBS* Jadi mikir gimana kalo nerima ajakan ce ming2 aku n sendy ke Inggris, tinggal di apartemen ce ming2 3 bulan buat les Inggris.....pasti Inggris kita lebih maju!!!! Kita juga mau diajak jalan2 di sana........Oh ya, akhirnya aku bisa liat foto calon istrinya ko akiong (orangnya romantis loh, simpen foto di dompet, dibawa ke mana2 *melt*). Istrinya cantik, tipe yang kalem, baik hati, sabar, pokoknya cocok deh sama ko akiong!!!! Kapan2 main ke sini lagi ya!!!!! Inggris belum belajar > <, mana bahannya banyak lagi......akhir-akhir ini aku banyak kepikiran n stres....yah nga juga, cuma aku bener2 rindu hidupku yang dulu.... sekarang udah tambah besar n semakin nakal, egois, banyak tengkar......capek! Mau ngomong sama seseorang yang bisa dipercaya- thanx buat sendy- chan n stefania.....Besok papa mau beliin aku bakpao MING isi casio...... sooo....happy! udah lama kepingin banget makan.....
Mar dalam rangka ultahnya Dong wan (11/22/02) n Hye Sung (11/27/02) forum SHINHWAISM mengadakan kuis membuat icon, banner, dan sebangsanya, terutama yang berhub dgn Hye sung ama Dong Wan.....Can you help us??? Hadiahnya menggiurkan, yaitu handuknya SHINHWA (kalo nga salah) ama foto ato apa aku lupa......pokoknya bersemangat banget deh!!!!! Gambarnya kita punya kok.....kapan kamu n lily maen ke rumah n ngajarin kita photoshop???

SUNDAY, 11/17/2002 LAZY LAZY LAZY - -; BTW, yesterday, me and my family were having dinner with Ce Ming-ming, Ko Akiong and Ko Aciong. Long time not see!!!! Ce Ming-ming lives in England and Ko Akiong livea in America-he'll getting married next February :) So happy we can see them again, but don't know how to talk with ko Akiong......Ce Ming-ming is the copy of my mom. She's funny, warm, friendly, brave, love challanges, and wanna learn anything. I really admire her!!! We took picture of them last night. As soon as the photo is washed out, i'll put it here! Anima 1st b'day edition is on the store!!!! lots of bonus, there's Laruku's article inside but it's suck!!!!!!! The article is damn horriable. Wrong data, cheezy, empty, ugly pics and anything bad !!!! The worst is that the author just copy from 4th ave cafe. oh my.........we're so.....disappointed > <# bg : Vic Zhou- Loving You

 FRIDAY,11/15/2002

Hi!!!!!! Long time not seeing each others-li, your new layout is cute! Why don't you put chii's pic? your blog will be looked cuter :) Margareth, congratulation for the movement of your bog!!! hahaha~ also congratulation for sendy-chan, 351 + ppl have visited your site!!!!!! What a great achievement!!!!! Keep working hard and UPDATING!!!!! Don't be lazy!!! We're sooooo........HAPPY!!!!! Our UMAX ASTRA 4500 is delivered-finally, and we got a cute, orange bubble radio. It looked like an astronout. H A P P Y......H A P P Y.......H A P P Y........knowing that MIN WOO ISN'T A GAY ^______________^ thanx to *SYUNGMIN79* for the reply! i've just finished reading DOBYUK PRINCESS.......76 chapters......romantic.....lots of SHINHWA' fanfics are still waiting for me to be read! Aku ada sariawan 2 biji-sakit > <#, ul Akun lagi-lagi ancur T T, infeksi tenggorokan, suara abis, jerawatan, kepanasan*sweat drops* HAPPY BIRTDAY TO FENNY, DEBBY (today), STEFANIA n KIMUTAKU (11/13/02) !!! Wish all of your dreams come true!!!!!!! bg : PERFECT MAN [english ver] -SHINHWA

SUNDAY, 11/10/2002 HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!!! i saw kang ta and eugene's short movie preview at the TV. Aaaaaaaaaa......kang ta was sooooo......cool!!!!!!!!! we have the pics too ^________^ HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!!! i have a new email friend from korea, her name is Kim Na Young :) she's 19 and she LOVES SHINHWA esp Hye Sung :) Her english isn't good.....but the good thing is that she want to learn it! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!!!! i found a great site with lots of flowers for arrangements, etc.....they're all beatiful. Please visit setagayakadan.com HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!!! i saw WITH LOVE, a dorama starring Yutaka Takenouchi and Norika Fujiwara. Irma selamat ya udah diterima di Teknik sipil UKP n buat sendy-chan, selamat 290 orang-an udah dateng ke sitemu!!!!jangan putus asa dan menyerah yach!!! BTW, lily, where are you?????

 WEDNESDAY,11/8/2002
Yesterday we went to TP(again), but with Stefania ^^ We're looking for clothes for the trip--my father told us to do so.... Anyway, it was fun looking for clothes with stefania-she's such a good friend~ um we've been friends since 3rd grade junior high school.....it's quite a long time--hope our friendship can last forever.......we tried the new japanese reataurant (last day we ate at Soubon???-->>their food were sucks and we saw cocroach baby there > <# eeeekkkk!!!! guys don't go there!!!!). Um but the prices are kinda little expensive, but they taste good :) and the portion is big too. Sendy-chan bought a pair of reebok shoes....she really love the shoes. We arrived there about half past eleven and went home at 5, then we went to Gramedia.

Li!!!!!!!!!!!Nice color--black white chocolate and brown. I like the new color of your blog :) keep it up,ok! how's your day????
Mar, are you planning to move to pitas???
Irma, congratulation for the UBAYA JAPRES!!!!!! For Sendy-chan and erica too^^, too bad, i wasn't T T but it's ok, there's still the entering test. Li, isshoni gambare!!!!

HAPPY HAPPY ^_____________^ i found a GREAT k-lyrics site!!!! right after founding the site i posted the add to the SHINHWA LUV' message board. BTW, i read from a SHINHWA forum, it said that Min Woo is a GAY!!!!!!!!aaaaaa~~~~~ can't believe it. It said that he liked Hye Sung. NOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bg : Make it High-Black Biscuit (cool song!!)

THURSDAY, 11/7/2002 Lately i always have a headache. Why??? the worst was yestrday....and it's still continuing until now > < We went to dermatologist this afternoon. after waiting for almost 1 and a half hours, finally our name were called out! BTW, there's 2 little cute babies there... aaa.......they're just so CUTE na ^~^ Irma, thanx for lending us Winter Sonata-we have watched until disc-16!! Meanwhile Nobita lent us Aoi Yori Aoshi.... it seems good~ I've just received email from Pook. About prices in Bkk, she said,"it depends and various but if you talk about official cd album (japanese version) it would cost around 1,000-1,200 baht and around 300 baht for cd single and cheaper for Thai version, just 100 something. As for the magazine, it depends on how much is it cost and the currency exchange at that time but most of the time, R&R cost around 300 baht and manga (translated to Thai already) cost around 35-40 baht". After i calculate them, it means that the prices in Bkk are more expensive than in Spore (1 bath=Rp.200,-) How's now???mar, i'm so sorry T T Oh ya, kemaren komputerku ke-reset gara2 ada sret......kilatan cepet, sama waktu hujan 2 hari yang lalu komputernya ke-reset 2x gara2 kilat. komputer kalian gimana??? bg : Still a Friend of Mine-INCOGNITO

 WEDNESDAY,11/6/2002
PUJI TUHAN!!! tagihan internet bulan ini tidak membengkak T______T syukurlah!!!!! tagihan bulan ini malah berkurang-->kita semakin hemat. Tagihan bulan ini turun sampe 78.000 rupiah T T *menangis terharu* ternyata usaha kita selama ini tidak sia-sia T T *menangis terharu lagi*
LI !!!!! Gimana kabarmu di sana??? Kami ikut prihatin atas kejadian yang menimpa mobilmu - - jadi kamu terpaksa bolos les EF-nya yach?? Tabah ya li walaupun kamu cuma boleh maen 1 jam sehari~

Mar, aku bisa ngerti perasaanmu-aku juga pernah mengalami hal itu......aku salut sama kamu, bisa mencoba meredam emosimu- kalo aku sih udah langsung menyerang balik - -;;; um kalo kita mbantah ortu kita itu dosa yach??? aku kadang ngrasa bersalah-aku kalo dikasih tau ortu ga mau ngerti....tapi pas mereka nga ngerti maksudku aku trus ngasih pembelaan.....gimana sebaiknya?? Kalo dulu tengkar hebat ama ortu itu udah biasa...tapi seiring bertambahnya umur, udah nga meledak2 lagi kecuali hal-hal ttt. Sekarang ortu bisa lebih ngerti....kalo omongin baik2 akhirnya selesai juga kok! pertama mereka nga mau ngerti, tapi lama2 pola pikir mereka yang kolot bisa berubah. Untung ortuku masih bisa diajak kompromi *fiuh!*

Tadi pergi ke TP bareng ortu ama melissa. Mar, kita jadi pergi nga ke TP?? Aku mau beli jaket-jaketku yang lama masih sangat bagus, tapi sudah pendek. Maklum sudah dari SD kelas 6 :) tapi aku sayang banget jaketku~ Barang2 yang sudah lama bersamaku sekarang satu persatu mulai dimakan usia....yang menjadi korban adl kaos CONTEMPO gambar bunga-kesayanganku sejak SD aku masih pake sampe SMU kelas 2....tapi sekarang udah robek2 dan dipensiunkan mamaku T T Apa kalian punya benda kesayangan dari SD ato bayi???kalo iya beri komentar kalian yach!!!

Kemarin kita pergi ke PA, mau beli cd....CD-nya KANG TA yang PINE TREE SUDAH DIBAJAK ^_____________^;;;;;;;sayang print2an covernya nga begitu bagus jadi kita tunggu minggu depan! Coba dengerin lagunya CLICK-B tapi nga tahan > < sangat sangat keras!!! lagunya JTL juga!!! Li, info- yang di cd yenny yanny itu kan ada lagu yang judulnya I BELIEVE, yang nyanyi BUKAN WON BIN tapi BROWN EYES!!!! Aku juga coba dengerin lagu mereka...enak, tapi nga beli soalnya kan R n B jadi bakal mboseni....yang PERFECT MAN-SHINHWA juga lebih R n B, jadi nga beli....

Mengapa di dunia ini banyak benda yang ingin kita beli, tapi kita nga bisa beli????? contohnya seperti PHOTOBOOK-nya KANG TA yang POLARIS???? ato majalah TEEN SPIRIT yang ada SHINHWA-nya???? T_________T

bg : album CHOOSE MY LIFE-U (S.E.S)

MONDAY, 11/4/2002 Hari in panas banget ya!!!!!!!!kita kaya babi guling > <# panasnya!!!!!!! aku di kamar siang-siang nga tahan kalo nga ada AC - -# panasnya minta ampun, masa mataharinya belum pindah dari khatulistiwa??? BTW, tadi disuruh ngisi polingnya DETEKSI...hiks hiks.....pertama kalinya aku ngisi! kemaren sendy-chan ngajarin maen SPEED! seru loh. hari ini bisa kalahin memei sama alfred, yay! tadi juga dipijetin sama Bu Beno. leher n tanganku...sakit sih, tapi enak juga..... eng...sabtu lalu dwld lagu SHINHWA yang belum pernah dipublikasiin' nice song! Lagi semangat cari fanfic-nya SHINHWA. Kemaren aku baca yang ::: Caramel Frappucino ::: 46 chapter!!!!romantis n lucu~ bg : FIRST LOVE-SHINHWA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 SUNDAY,11/3/2002
Mar,where's your 'kamui'. i didn't see him, i only saw your cute buldog. hahaha, anyway, i couldn't give comment to your blog (again!). Next time, i'll just write my comments on my mboard. Last Saturday, we used internet for long times-so scary with the bill, nyo > <; hahaha....we just went to SHINHWA LUV and SHINHWAISM. WAAAaaaaaaa.....got lots of shinhwa rare pics :) ok

above is kang ta's pic-wearing black wedding suit and holding white rose boquet..so romantic na >w< ~KYAAAA........kang ta!!!!!!!! Credits to H.O.T always and foreva forum

11/2/2002 AAAaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!i've just come home. ugh right now i really hate my father because he asked the drawing teacher how's my painting......ugh hate hate hate > < maybe it's because i don't have any confidence of my painting......man, other's are great ne~ oh well, i wanna quit anyway. I also hate my mom. she kept mumbling about 'KA'!!!hate hate hate!!!! hope she'll stop doing that! Anyway........thanx to Lily-chan for the PARAMEX (hehehe...chan is fit with your name, li!). also Bu Beno for the INSTO.... Irma, i can't wait until Monday to watch bae yong jun!!!! Kapan ya kita bisa beli HOTELIER???? Oh ya, sendy--chan said that there's a old market near Orchad Rd that sold karean food and also many korean cds and serene, sendy-chan's email friend will take us to there...waaaa......really can't wait when that day will come!!!!! I notice that Agus a.k.a Nobita a.k.a Kobo-chan (his pony is sooo..... cute!) a.k.a Achangel (cool name!!!) is a funny person...... he said that Kang ta is a handsome man!!! (muahahahaha......we really don't expect it!!). No wonder Vania likes him... and we guess nobita likes her too--> evidence : they don't have enough courage to look at each other's eyes (hehehe....but we think they're a perfect couple!). Sementara itu aku dipasangin ama cewek trus sekarang ama Liman. Tadi pas pengayaannya si BOS, kan aku ngomong masalah penting ama liman di belakang...ditegur 1x ok..trus pas bos udah sampe di belakang, negur lagi....gara2 kelamaan ya udah, aku kembali. Hua...trus aku malah digodain sama arek2 > < sial! bg : Nae Namja Chingueh-Fin K.L

 11/1/2002
TADA.....this is the new look of my blog! How do you think??? I really hope that this month, the blog will be looked warmer.......please enjoy :) thanx to sendy-chan for helping me! There's no guestbook anymore. I think it isn't efficient, the only left is just the message board... Please feel free to join up anytime^^

.....um i've got surprise at computer lesson. There's a second grade student that wanna know me better. You must be asking...how??? hehehe lemme tell you the story. It has been 3 weeks since i wrote blog in the school computer....i was depressed at that time because the failure of our PPKn drama.....hahaha i wrote about SPEED and Pizza Hut, Min Woo,etc. When i had computer lesson i wanted to write again and i found out that someone has read my shinkirou and he(i guess the person was a man) reply me. shinkirou_buat_kamu. then i openned it. He wrote : (karena susah, maka aku tulis bahasa indo aja) kamu suka curhat di komp sekolah ya?? kurasa kamu orangnya lucu juga ya^^;; ( muahahaha.....*blush! )Aku mau kenalan sama kamu. ME kls 2. kamu kelas 3 IPA/IPS? Reply di sini yach!----yeah not exactly like that but that's the point. Hahaha.....everyone make fun of me- -; Alfred, Liman, Astri, Debby, Yenny, Pat2......so embaress ne~ //^^// hahaha it just like those on the shoujo comics that i read.

BTW, Margaret-thanx for the phone call last night!!! hiks... hiks.... so touching ne-t t th th thanx!!!!! Semoga kamu cepet sembuh ya-

bg : If I Never Knew You-John Secada & Shanice