Bewilderment
Some people are really lucky. Right from the day they are born, they know what they want from life, and where their life is going. I still haven’t worked that out for myself, yet. I always seem to want the opposite of what I have at the time. I guess I’m just hard to please. If your life is one long battle of confusment, let me know.
Bewilderment.
By Amanda Jay Clark
In summer, I long for
cool winter,
In winter, I long for the spring.
It’s a year round longing for seasons,
And the new things they will bring.
When I’m alone, I
long for company.
Then company stays too long.
We start off laughing and joking,
Then it’s hard to get along.
When I’m tired, I
wish I could wake up,
When I’m awake, I wish I could sleep.
I can’t lose the memories that haunt me,
Good ones, I struggle to keep.
When he’s hot, I wont let him near me,
When I want him, he rushes to pack.
When I’m in love, I worry he’ll leave me.
When I’m not, I fret he’ll come back.
I don’t find
living that easy.
Some days, are really great fun.
While others just drag on forever,
My suffering is never done.
If I knew what I
wanted from life,
I could stop all the contradiction,
I would have better peace of mind,
And live life with much less friction.
So, what is it I want
from life?
I haven’t the faintest clue.
When I’m bored, there’s plenty of action.
When energetic, there’s nothing to do!
Will I ever know a day without bewilderment?
Life’s not what I hoped it would be!
The others seem perfectly happy,
So what the hell is the matter with me?
Bewilderment, is protected by copyright, and remains the property of the author, Amanda Jay Clark.