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Friday, August 29, 2008 'Strangled in Sleep'

While scanning through the many mommy blogs out there I came across a post that really caught my eye. This eye catching was not a positive reading & I was not a happy camper. "Pregnant woman strangled in her sleep" thus was the title of this post. Reading it I found that it was not a news story of any kind like the title had lead me to believe but it was none other then a whining husband sick of his wife's tossing and turning at eight and a half months pregnant. An opening line read "My wife almost became that headline last night." Here I thought someone had attacked this poor mans wife, when I read further into his entry he stated "it pretty simple to understand why the leading cause of death among pregnant women is homicide." & soon after "it's from your constant tossing and turning in the night, in a perfectly comfortable bed,"

I was in complete shock that this man would write such a hair-raising blotter about his own wife. My first major comment on his entry was the fact that when you're that pregnant or at least past the five month stage you're unable to sleep on your stomach & you are advised not to sleep on your back at all. Both positions are the most comfortable ways of sleep out there & us a pregnant women are unable to be that comfortable in the most comfortable beds out there. If for some reason a pregnant woman can sleep thoroughly through the night through the back ache, headaches, leg cramps, tightness & stretching of skin, constant restlessness, kicking from the unborn child inside you & or uncomfortable swelling of limbs then god bless you! You are one of the few lucky ones!

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Friday, August 29, 2008 'Ready For Baby'

Some people would say being pregnant changes your relationship. Usually for the worse. The mood swings, the sudden vivid & fast growing weight gain can alter an opinion of ones self too fast to take in. Not to mention the stretch marks that most are scarred with for life. The enlarging nipples & sagging breasts. One can only hope that a child will better your relationship with your life partner. Especially a first child. No one really knows what they are getting themselves into when the decision is set to have a baby. Some would argue that a pregnancy is a beautiful thing. But in reality aren't we all attracted to the slim front cover magazine pinups that are posted for all eyes of this world to see? So how is it that some can be attracted to a growing belly?

When your life partner can look at you at your worst of times & still call your 'all' beautiful no matter what you look like, make up running, sex head, sniffles, sneezing & farting. Those are the men who will look at your growing baby bump & call you the most beautiful woman in the world while rubbing their unborn child.

Michael has really changed my opinion. Our journey to a successful pregnancy was long & hard. After five horrific miscarriages we finally got our wish. In 4D weighing in at one pound thirteen ounces our baby girl Brooklyn Jayda-Marie Johnson was sucking her thumb for a powerful reality kick we both needed. Finally we have been blessed with a little girl. Words cannot even begin to explain how the both of us feel. The beginning was difficult with four months of all day morning sickness. The thought of loosing her was running through our minds at a constant daily speed. When the morning sickness subsided & the gaining of weight began, fears of getting my slim figure back crossed my mind persistently. I was always perfect in the eyes of my hubby but in my eyes I can see every imperfection as if it were under a magnifying glass & that was before I was pregnant. Perfect bikini tummy to a beach ball in a matter of months can really boggle someones mind. Yet I have the reassurance of my hubby behind me filling my head with wonderful thoughts of future happiness with him. I truly feel that a pregnancy should be a partnership. Going at it alone you don't have that loving reassurance. The love I have for Michael has grown significantly throughout this life experience, especially within the last month. I couldn't have picked a better man to spend the rest of my life with. Michael & I have been through a great deal of hard times & this is the turning point in our relationship. I have never felt this much love for him in all the time I have been with him. He has blessed me with a healthy baby! I cannot be more great-full then I am now.

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July 6, 2008 It's a Girl da da da

I edited my Previous entry called Art Theft; Well I have finally fixed my sleeping pattern! 'sighs with relief' I had the most screwed up sleeping pattern. I went for some blood work & it turns out I was getting a little anemic. It's hard to eat right when all I'm craving is sweets ha ha. I hear it is very common in first pregnancies. I've started taking a few extra vitamins to keep my baby healthy as can be. Because of this I was sleeping for 9 hours awake for 9 hours & continued as a cycle. I was so exhausted all the time. I'm feeling a hell of a lot better & up for some more baby shopping ASAP. I can't go into a store without spending money. Window shopping is non-existent for me. We've almost gotten all of the baby stuff already. Costing a lot more then I had expected. I'm guessing around 7,000 in total. I want a Giant Giraffe in the baby's room. I Haven't found one yet but I'm quite determined to. How many people can say they had one, really, I would love one myself. I could call him Frank & stand him beside the TV. The baby's room is a Safari theme. I hear that animals trigger the brain a lot better then Barbie dolls do. So this is why I have chosen this theme. Not to mention how cute it is.

Now that I'm living in Calgary they have an amazing Zoo here. Must see! I was thinking of taking a bunch of photos of the Giraffes & picking a few to frame & put up in the baby's room. I'm pretty good at taking pictures I'm no photographer but I'm good enough.

I would like to encourage you all to check out my website! I will be having a members only area with games, online pets, forums, chat, downloads & more! This is free membership of course. I will also offer hosting plans in the members only area! With membership you also get 10% off on all purchases within the site. The Shop is under construction because of this but will soon be back up! The Community area will be open in about three weeks time possibly a little longer but that doesn't mean you can't sign up & claim your user name now! Sometime this year I will be opening a PSP shop & member profiles as well. There are many cool features that I encourage you to take a look at! I have a shout box on the main page if you are stopping by say hello!

Also; I have created a Cartoons account I am keeping my paintings separate from my Cartoon & Anime fan works from now on! (Link is on the side Nav) Oops & I almost forgot! I've incorporated my Website theme into my SheezyART profile! Wow, this is so much better then Devian-TART ha ha. I would like to give a special shout out to [HelloEien from SA] for posting my icon in her Journal & because I used her idea for the preview images in my Gallery! Such a smart idea 'claps.' It just so happens to be that my website theme colors are similar to HelloEien's so I thought I would say something.

Just another Entry

Good grief I’m fat!:Well I’m not really fat, my stomach is just protruding outwards in a pear shaped fashion. Though I must say it does look pretty good on me. I’m having a baby girl; Brooklyn Jayda-Marie Johnson! I couldn’t be happier either. I’ve had this name picked out for 2 years waiting for her. I kept loosing them early on in my pregnancies. But all is well now, I am healthy, my baby is healthy & I’m so excited I swear I could piss myself ‘thinks’ speaking of which that could very well happen if I laugh in the next 30 seconds.

I was shopping today, In the middle of my boring adventures in the grocery store I got the craziest heartburn! ‘gasps & changes voice to make story interesting’ So bad I left a cart full of groceries in the middle of the isle & walked out of the store da da da…

As you can see my day to day life really isn’t all that interesting. I don’t get out all that much anymore. I get the weirdest looks from people when I do. I’ve had 8 people come up to me in the last month & touch my belly. People I don’t even know! just randomly walk up & grab a hold? Instead of shaking my hand they dive right for the belly! This scares the crap out of me.

July 4, 2008 Cyberstalker!

I have a cyberstalker: Since she won't listen to me & leave me alone, continues to harass & follow me around. I have contacted police authorities & an online help center to track her online & create a police profile for me. I am currently dealing with it but I just thought I would let all of my watchers know what is going on. As you can probably see Emberleo has followed me here harassing me constantly slandering my name etc etc

I am placing criminal charges on her as we speak. But because we live in two different countries this will take a little longer. jurisdiction issues. The correct authorities will be contacting the websites she is harassing me on & I am not sure what they will do from there but I have a pretty good idea. Harassment, Defamation, Cyberstalking, intentional infliction of emotional pain & slander is what this person is faced with, they are all against policy & are serious crimes in today's world.

I have been getting reports of her contacting my watchers, friends & online relatives. If you are reading this & you are one of my watchers ignore her & I am sorry that she is doing this. If she has contacted you please let me know so I can add the information to the case! This is some what of a hissy fit she is having. You can see what it is about in my "Someone stole my Work!" Entry

I am 100% against cyberbullying. Computers make the bully think that they have more power in these types of situations. In reality they don't. It's not that hard to trace a computers IP address & build a strong case against them with just that. I have placed the stop Cyber Bullying image on my Journal because I now am a victim of such a thing & I now know what it is like to be harassed. Join the fight against Cyberbullying!

Jun, 3 2008: Sold my puppy

Art Theft Update: I have contacted police authorities & will soon be following through charges with Intentional infliction of emotional pain (I am a high risk pregnancy), invasion of privacy, defamation, slander, cyberstalking & harassment.

Today I sold my puppy ‘cries!’ Because I’m expecting a baby soon (4months) My Fiance & I decided to sell Cocoa a chocolate brown AKC Texan Phantom Poodle. Long name I know. He was such a cutie! He even rang a little bell when he had to pee. Oh man I’m going to miss him so much.

My parents breed and raised pure bread poodles sold across Canada for fifteen years now. I’ve seen a lot of dogs go. It’s just as hard every time it happens. We took him off my Grandparents hands. They couldn’t take care of him anymore due to some health problems etc. We only had him for about 5 months I think. I grew to love him so much though.

We have Diesel a Shar-pei (Chinese fighting dog) & Tiamo a Chihuahua. Oh man if you ever saw this dog. She is mean !! Ever since I became pregnant she doesn’t let anyone come near me when she’s around. aha I love her though. “I’ve won quite a few bets on, I bet you, you can’t pet my dog!” She had come from a pretty bad home (Cigarette burn on her back as an example) her personality got really messed up along the way. She’s five years old now & I couldn’t live without her. She has a lot of fight left in her..

It’s funny how people can get so attached to animals. I see them as very theraputic. I had this figure skating accident when I was fifteen years old. I couldn’t walk for 3 months. I had a poodle at that time. I can honestly say when I was down this dog really helped me out! Diesel well he has got to be the smartest dog breed I have ever encountered. Not once has he pooped in our home. From 6 weeks of age as soon as he found the door he knew what he was suppose to do & how to do it. He learnt his name within two weeks. Sit a month later & lay down a month after that. Shake a paw he just learnt recently & hes only 10 months old! We never had to sit him down & teach him, he kind of just figured it out after a while.

We plan on training him to be a guard dog in our house. We don’t really need one but he acts like one already on his own so might as well. I guess we could use one to protect our house & valuables inside it. He’s so beefy & muscular. He’s knee high & over 100 LBS already. All muscle, you should see this dog play with other dogs. He uses his back end to push them around lol. I’m a dog lover can you tell?

Speaking of Muscle; My Fiance went to a doctor today about his back, has anyone ever heard of having too much muscle? The Doctor told him he needs to eat like a body builder to maintain it. He’s a roofer & has muscles I’ve never seen before. ‘steamyness’ ha ha ..I’m serious though, has anyone ever heard of this before?

Jun, 2 2008: Art Theft!

Update; Seeing as how she is linking to my Journal I thought I would share the whole story with who ever wants to read this non-sense! hey, I've got to defend myself

Sadly enough yes I am reporting an art theft in my Journal. I don't understand how people can do such things & think that they can get away with it! Emberleo on DeviantART who soon after followed me to REDBUBBLE & now here. All of her profiles had no images she was on the accounts to harass me on these other sites. I've already got her REDBUBBLE account deleted for her harassment over there. I've still got the Email sent to me notifying me of this action taken. Hopefully SA will do something about it here, too. I don't mean to name call but she is so pathetic!

Heres how it happened:I was doing weekly features over at Devian-TART where she posted her thumbnail in one of my Forum threads. I immediately knew this image was stolen from me but I had decided to take the back road & simply catch her in her lies. I didn't want to embarrass her. I'm sure she had reasoning for it. But of course this backfired on me. I should have just reported it & left it alone. But nope I thought it would be easier to just catch her lying because clearly it was mine & I most importantly I knew it was not a painting like she was claiming it to be. Initially I thought it would be easy & she would just delete it to avoid anything. But I was wrong, she's a selfish Bitch & refused to admit she was in the wrong!

This is a screen shot of her claiming it as her painting! WTF this is a manipulation not a painting! If you're going to steal something at least call it what it is!

She doesn't even have the balls to link to the photo used to create it? When I asked her for the link she gave me this. Seems a little suspicious to me. What are you trying to hide? hm, maybe the fact that it's stolen? Did you think I wouldn't find out? So here I have put the original photo along side the Photo-Manipulation so you can see for yourself that it matches up exactly in every area of the image. Only a photo-manipulation can be this exact especially with no line art! Link

& I say this because she had admitted to me in comments which she had hidden for a while about never doing line art for any of her images & not even knowing what a WIP is? How can you not know what one is if you are an artist of this suposed skill level? Most importantly how can you get an image this exact without first doing a line art! & further more, why is there line art in your WIP? Here is the proof of her admitting this to me Link

She then creates a WIP to prove to me that it is hers. 'shakes head' Didn't you just tell me that you didn't know what WIPS were? She posts on this WIP that she had to create it after she was finished on my behalf. Well thank you so much for manipulating my image some more! This was her reasoning for why it looks the way it does. This is clearly just a crappy cutting & pasting job. She put this together in an effort to save her name. I zoomed in on it & saw all of the edges were horribly cut. They also didn't line up with the line art she said she didn't have. When you draw something from scratch like she so says she did? Don't you think the lines would be a little smoother maybe match & not all choppy like this? Not to mention the fact that she had clearly stated to me Link that she didn't have a WIP of this image or the line art. "I've caught her lying now!"

She has also mentioned in her Journal that I had numerous accounts over at Devian-TART. Well I didn't. How many lies is this girl going to come up with. Eventually lies catch up to you lol. I had two accounts Synnicity & ShatterFlii. ShatterFlii was not banned because of Emberleo lol. If I must explain myself it was banned because a friend of mine called an Administrator a Bitch on my half. This Administrator was Chix0r. I was then perma banned for creating Synnicity & using that account which is called Ban Evasion. Never once did I harass Emberleo on Synnicity either like she says I did. I did make one comment as seen here, Link but as you can see not a harassing comment at all. I was simply letting her know she unknowingly admitted to Rendering the image.

This print screen shows I was banned for Ban Evasion not Harassment; Link So as you can see I was not banned because of Emberleo like she claims. It was my own fault. Not that I really care anyway. SheezyART has better features & bonus it's free! I also helped run a club which was shut down because the members & other Administrators were running a petition to help me out. You can clearly see the other accounts were not mine if you look at the galleries of them. I think I am far more advanced in skill then most of them & yes two of them were friends of mine. She reported anyone who was harassing her & they unfortunately got banned on there own. It looks like more then just me knew she's a Thief! Lies Lies Lies

She also claims that I do not have the full size image well.. Obviously I do if it was my image so in light of that I have posted my step-by-step of the Angelina Photo-manipulation as a Tutorial for anyone who would like to see how to create them. You can do this in almost any Digital painting program. I chose Adobe Photoshop 5.0 to create it in.

I also have written consent by the photographer as proof. If you came here looking to hear both sides or see if she was really lying or if I was lying or w.e I'm sure I have handed you enough proof to show you that she was & I wasn't. you are more then welcome to share your opinions but I will ignore them if you try to start a fight. I have caught her lying! 'grins' & I will post more proof if it is needed in the future. For now I'm getting too old for this crap, this reminds me of schoolyard behavior 'Final shake of my head'

Just ignore her.. She's having a Hissy fit!

Jun, 23 2008: Frog Legs

You know those knew Bistro sandwiches, have you ever had one? I thought the commercial for them was so neat but I just didn't understand how you could toast something in a microwave? I tried one the other day & well it was okay, something knew & very different. I had the turkey/baccon with motza cheese. The baccon mixed with the turkey was very odd. I picked them off & fed them to my dog one by one. The bread although advertised as toasted just had a hard crust with dough like bread in the center. My rating three stars but still a good idea if it had worked correctly. Rambling about food, you should have seen me today whooa, man could I ever eat. It's like my stomach is now a bottomless pit I can eat until I'm stuffed right full & half an hour later I can be hungry again. It's scary but fun at the same time to be pregnant. The good thing I'm more then willing to try most anything. AKA has anyone ever had frog legs? he he

Jun 16th 2008

The Wrong Side of the Bed posted

Every morning I feel like I'm waking up on the wrong side of the bed. I'm now four months & counting as of yesterday. I have a baby bump & it shows in all of my clothing. I'm unable to sleep on my tummy 'cries'. I didn't think this would happen so soon. Some tell me they lasted until the fifth month. I unfortunately get morbidly sick any time I do. It's odd really. I sort of feel like I have parents again. I do the slightest thing wrong & my punishment is a bedridden sickness. I went through my beloved closet two days ago & bagged more then half of my clothing 'counts 6 garbage bags'. I can still look just as sexy in my maternity clothes 'giggles.' Sometimes my Fiancé looks at me like he's never looked at me before. I still get all dolled up for him my belly & all & to my delight he smiles & says I look incredible. I think pregnancy is a beautiful thing! Just not when it's my tummy being stretched. My pregnancy still seems to be all I think about in my daily living. It's a fascinating experience to go through even when I am sick half the time. I started to feel movement a few weeks ago & since then anytime I get really sad, mad or excited or too excited 'winks' I feel the baby move around. I feel a connection unlike any other.

We've picked out names but I wanted to know what you guys thought of them or if you have any suggestions because we are still of course open to all options & opinions. For a girl we were thinking Brooklyn Jayda-Marie & for a boy we were thinking Michael David Alexander. Still unsure but we have been told it's a girl.

Also,

I'm looking for a good dinner recipe to try something new or out of the ordinary & possibly with no limits. Any ideas?

Sun Jun 8, 2008: Need a Tablet!

I got some very inspiring words from Auria about getting a Tablet. I've known for a while that my work will always have limitations on Adobe Photoshop. I have heard so much about these Tablets and everyone tells me I need to get one, That my work will be so much better if I do. This is now my Goal. Before I have my baby I will get one! cause of course after I have my baby there won't be much time to get one, the wonders of life.

Last but not Least; Another Thank you!

Thank you so much for all the baby support! Yesterday I woke up to 35+ Messages, all congrats & good luck wishes! Really put a smile on my face to wake up to something like that. Pregnancy is a very difficult part of life and after trying for just under two years, mine is a Miracle baby! I never new it could be so hard to stay pregnant. I was very discouraged after a while. Didn't know what to think, but everything looks healthy, I'm healthy and Michael & I are both happy! Thanks again for all the support! Cheers!