Well, where do I begin?






I'm not new here on WWW, as you have finally figured out by now.
I started surfing, chatting and creating hps since May, 1997.

I live in the beautiful city of San Diego, southern part of California.
I never lived in any other part of this country except this great city.
I traveled to different states like Las Vegas (I've been to this exciting
place for the umpteen times! The last few times, I stayed at Balley's
and it was an unforgettable event to boot.) and The Venetian (beautiful
hotel); Texas (Kileen, San Antonio-Riverwalk was a romantic site, &
Dallas-saw Southfork where they shot the Dallas series and saw the place
where Kennedy was assasinated); Georgia (Atlanta and Augusta)
beautiful green State; Orlando, Florida (Disney World); New Jersey
the only place I saw was a beautiful lake with July 4th fireworks);
New York (saw broadway play of Grease, saw the empire state building.
I think that's the name of the place],and a lovely boat ride along
the Hudson River); New Mexico (Albuquerque-saw the balloon fest)
and Louisiana (New Orleans-saw the famous BOURBON STREET-where the
annual MARDI GRAS is held. Now this place is spelled "p-a-r-t-y".
Different music left and right. The place is just soooo exciting).
With each travel.I have always longed for San Diego and I am always
glad to get back to this city each time I leave.


UPDATE: relocated to Texas in November 2005. Why? San Diego is a beautiful city but is getting congested.
It lost the charm that was San Diego that I used to love and used to favor, the country feeling is long time gone.
Texas is a laid back state (still) which I clamor. It soothes my mind and bring peace to my being.
I never thought there would come a time that I would say that about San Diego.
I lived there for the longest time, met wonderful people, built lasting memories, some good, lots of bad, but it made me what I've become.
I will treasure the good memories I've had there,
but I knew that it was time to go over yonder. *smile*

To afford some luxury in life, I unfortunately have to go to work *lol*.
I work in a prestigious, one of the biggest banks in USA. Have you heard
about FORECLOSURES?...that's what I do. I am not a meanie, in fact, at
this stage, I don't have to harass borrowers coz almost always, they will
keep in touch with me to help them save their houses. I always sympathize
with them and I try to help them the best way I can so they can keep their
houses. Sometimes, there's just no way, due to circumstances beyond the
borrowers' control, they just have to abandon their properties. During my
early years with this department, there was one borrower, I will never
forget. He sent a letter to my boss with a $100. dollar check. In the
letter he was thanking me for saving his life. He was thinking of
committing suicide because he thought he will not be able to save his
house. (I helped him by arranging a repayment plan for him) He said
because of my compassion and able to understand his predicament, he got
out of that black depression and he bounced back. Of course, I returned
his check, thanking him for sending the letter which is now part of my
confidential file. For me, just being recognized like that, was the
reward he had given me. To this day, I still think of that day when a
customer took the time to acknowledge my dedication towards my work and my customers.>
UPDATE: I placed this as one of my good memories in SD.

Now, I am not all work; I play too. Aside from traveling, I love to sing.
There was a time in my life that I almost chose to become a singer. But
I am impatient, so the idea was shelved and I just do laser karaoke at
my house for purely entertainment and pleasure. I love the music of
Vanessa Williams, MADONNA, Sharon Cuneta (P.I.popular singer and actress),
Chris Isaak, Kenny G, Earl Klug. I am leaning towards romantic and lite
jazzy sounds. As to movies, you got it!!! romantic movies. Love tear
jerkers too and suspense movies. Top of my list are the Titanic, Ransom,
Braveheart, Con Air, Primary Colors and many more. I get mesmerized
by Sharon Cuneta's tear jerker roles. My early favorite actor was John
Travolta but my attention nowadays is toward MEL GIBSON.

I have a big thing about FLOWERS. I love ROSES especially. I have this
climbing pink roses in my backyard and I just enjoy watching them
grow. I have red and yellow roses. I can seat on my deck for hours just
admiring them. Flowers can heal and relax me. My project lately though,
is to plant some veggies and I would like to plant a tangerine and a
lemon tree..
UPDATE: I placed this as one of my good memories in SD.

On February, 1999, I finally got a chance to visit my homeland after
so many years. I was so excited to see the Philippines again. The plane
ride was long, the climate was warm. When I landed at the airport, I
was impressed of the improvements; but was depressed to see old buildings
and houses and the traffic was AWFUL! I wanted to turn around and
go back to the airport! However, after just a day, I told myself, I was
not going to allow this 'culture shock' feeling to cramp my style and
that I have to enjoy this long-awaited trip and that's exactly what
I did. Especially, when I realized that I can buy a lot of stuff for
less!! I bought clothes and 12 pairs of shoes! *lol*. Additionally,
I bought lots of souveniers for my friends back here in San Diego.
I also savored and enjoyed the Filipino foods and the exotic fruits
I have not tasted for years.

Every year, during holy week or probably thru Easter, I always make
it a point to watch the video tape JESUS CHRIST, SUPERSTAR, a rock
opera. I saw the play in '93 here in San Diego and I was very impressed
of the cast, most especially Ted Neely, who played Jesus Christ and Carl
Anderson as Judas. Everytime I watch the movie, I've always been touched
on how it depicted the last days of Jesus. The music score was fantastic
and the movie can easily be understood by anyone of this day and age.
The acting of the whole cast was superb. This is my way of commemorating
Jesus and be reminded of how he saved us from our sins. I had watched
other musical plays in the past, too, like-Cats, Chorus Line, The Phantom
of the Opera and last year, I went to see Miss Saigon..
UPDATE: Another one of those good memories in SD.

Last May, 2000, I visited, for the 2nd time, the city of NEW ORLEANS.
This time around, I was able to explore the city a little bit more.
There's something about New Orleans that you would feel you would want
to come back; even if it's not MARDI GRAS time. It's very historical
and nostalgic place.

My vacation week of March 25, 2002, started with visiting some of
the places we have not been to. Towards the middle of the week, though,
I had piece together the real reason why this week was picked for me as
a vacation week.

My life, ever since I came to the States, has been fast paced.
Everything has to be done as fast, or I would be left behind. I never
realized I stopped observing Holy Week, as we've done in my country.
I did not even know that the week my husband picked for vacation was
Holy Week. I only knew that Holy Week is coming, and I thought it's in
April; and that I have to watch the movie- Jesus Christ Superstar, as it
became an annual commemoration I adapted in my life, but then, after
that--back to the old grind. I don't go to church, as I was told I was
supposed to, being raised in 90 percent catholic country. I don't go to
church because I never had felt the cleansing of my spirit. I do not
understand the sermons and the mass that is so repetitive that;I lose
the true meaning of why I am there in the first place. I see people
around me either ready to fall asleep, reciting the Sunday prayers
after the priest but I could tell they do not understand what the priest
is talking about because most churchgoers have blank and bored face expressions.
It seems like it was just an obligation to be there. Most of the sermons
were about church contributions or sales that they will hold after mass.
It's just going through the motion every Sunday. For years, all I knew
was Jesus Christ died to save all of us from our sins.

This week changed all of these notions I had. I did not go to
church still. But I feel I was given some signs to rediscover HIM
again which led the rest of the week to a sort of retreat, in a way,
for me. I went through a research of HIS life on earth and read some
of HIS teachings. The experience has been so profound--it penetrated
real deep in my spirit. On Holy or Good Friday, I stayed home so I can
grasp all HE said on some of the chapters I read in the BIBLE. I
watched the movie KING OF KINGS and THE ROBE (this movie is about the
days after the crucifixion). These are some of the words HE said:

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are they that mourn, for they shall be comforted. Blessed are the
meek, for they shall inherit the earth. Blessed are they which hunger and
thirst after righteousness, for they shall be filled. Blessed are the
merciful, for they shall obtain mercy. Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they shall see God. Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be
called the children of God. Blessed are they which suffer, for theirs is
the kingdom of heaven."

I had forgotten to be patient, to be humble, to not criticize, to
forgive. I forgot to be thankful of our daily bread. I forgot that
GOD'S teachings are about LOVE, PEACE and BROTHERHOOD towards men.
I forgot to LOVE THY NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF. I forgot that GOD loves us
unconditionally.I forgot to love HIM with all my heart, soul and mind.

On March, 2002, HE showed me the way-- HE came to me in spirit and paved
the way and HE HEALS my spirit. I know because I felt it released me
through so many years of heavy heart.

I made a pledge to myself that from now on, I will take days off
on HOLY WEEK and remember HIM. I pledge to also remember HIS teachings and
read more about the Word of God and APPLY it in my everyday existence and PRAY
to give me the strength to survive the evils existing in our daily lives
and to guide me to keep that faith.

Why am I saying all of these here? Because I want to share the peace
and happiness I have inside me and to let everyone know that the KINGDOM OF
GOD is within -- it's in our grasp, all we have to do is let HIM in and
the power and glory are ours now and forever. These are the words of the
LORD, our GOD.

I know that talking about HIM makes people unpopular. I know that
people will say she's beginning to be religious. I know that it will
make people say she's talking nonsense and she's insane. I know people
will say that I am seeing things and that I am making things up. I know
people will say she wants to repent. I also know that most people will
shoo me away because they feel I am now part of a cult.

You know why I said that--because I thought of the same things also before
my revelation.


I will not spread the WORD as much, only when the time calls for it.
I will let the preachers or other Christians do that. I am just
writing it here, because I experienced a MIRACLE within me.

And if you decide to read this, I am thanking you now, in advance.

It's March 2006 and many things had happened since that memorable day
on March 2002. It's been four (4) years since I have that revelation of
having a close contact with Jesus Christ. It has been a joyful and
mind-boggling event in my life. Since that fateful day in March 2002,
my life has completely changed. I knew now that God made it happen,
so that I maybe able to share my experiences with others and bring people
I know to salvation.

My life does not consist of church attendance; but a constant
attendance wherever I am in the presence of the Lord. He has been
directing my path which has been good. He taught me discernment and
wisdom. He made me aware of the importance of the Holy Spirit in my
life. I've been listening to God's instructions in my life, especially
after two (2) years of difficulty as I struggled also with the people
who were not understanding the attitude change I went through
as I continued to seek understanding of God's nature.
To assist me in knowing God, I bought different translations of the Bible with
study guides. Through the years, I bought several devotional books, mostly
of Christian pastors. I completed reading the Bible in 2004; but I still
continue to learn more of God's manual concentrating on God's promises and
Jesus' teachings. I did not memorize them, but I've learned to discern how to
find scriptures and verses when I am trying to help others as they started
seeking God and learning more about Him.

As people who knew me started to see my new nature of being peaceful and
joyful, many has opened up to me. One of God's discernment to me was to
start sending via emails devotional messages I have read. Many of my
friends were encouraged and uplifted, especially at work. As I have
continually emailed devotional messages, two of my friends
came to accept Jesus. A relative announced to me that she has a spiritual
renewal. My Jewish husband finally accepted Jesus Christ as his Messiah.
Many people who received the devotional messages have started analyzing
their own spirituality and connection with God and Jesus. Through this time
as I'd hear from God, I gave Bibles and The Purpose Driven Life books to
friends of God choosing-- the people's names and faces He places in my heart.

Meanwhile, in my own life, God started placing this BIG desire to move
to a different place. Before finding God,
moving away from California, San Diego, specifically
was very far from my mind. When my husband suggested many years ago to
move--he had different places in his mind, like San Francisco & Las Vegas,
I did not entertain the suggestion. Right there, he knew I just wanted to
to remain in San Diego, the placed I called home when I came to the States.
But after accepting Jesus Christ and having a personal relationship with
Him and God, I started having anticipation and excitement to move.
Where? I did not have the slightest idea where to. I began praying to
God about it. That if He was the one who placed that big desire to
relocate, to help and guide me as I begun checking out places.

Our relocation, if ever we would do it, has to be planned where my husband
and I will be financially well taken care of. I made sure that I listened
to God's leading and His sign. All of my actions leading toward the life
changing move to another state I made with the inclusion of God's will
for my husband's and my own life. The time finally came in mid-spring of 2005.
It seemed like God laid a blue print because everything fell into place
Like pieces of a puzzle, every space and connection were on the right spots.

In the last four years, I've discovered by self studying the Bible, reading
different Pastors' stories and their obedience to God and their
own concepts on spiritual growth on their walks with Jesus Christ,
watching many pastors on TV; that they all have one thing in common.
Their continuous and strong faith in God, their beliefs that the only
way to fill the gap between humans and God is only through Jesus,
the works of the Holy Spirit of God within them and complete obedience to God's
commands and Jesus' teachings.

I adapted many of the pastors' messages, but I analyzed God's promises also;
and stories in the Bible and what areas did the chosen people fail
God. Not all that are being preached by the pastors I blindly
followed. I read up and searched the things that they have said when
the Holy Spirit would tug my heart. The Holy Spirit gave me a doubt
and He always refer me to the Bible to find the answers. I don't have
anything against pastors, they are mostly good and godly people, but
they are also humans like the Pharisees of the New Testament. They have
their agendas to mostly benefit their churches, not so much to benefit
the people that are seeking the Lord; especially the ones that are relying
on what the pastors would say on Sunday services.
I did not want to be part of the church statistics and numbers; that's why
I've learned and researched on my own.

When God granted my prayers for wisdom, discernment and understanding
He was more than willing to guide me through Jesus Christ. Through God,
I've discovered that when I welcome Jesus into my heart, I also have to surrender
my will to Him, not partially, but completely. By doing so,
He can completely transform me or shape me the way He wants me to become.
For the first two years, I was not really ready for Him to completely
have my mind renewed. I've already learned a lot of God's Word then, but
I struggled in my walk, although Jesus has already granted me peace and joy
in my heart because of the Holy Spirit.

My third year, through my study, I finally figured out that for God
to answer all my prayers and for Him to completely bless me and grant me
the favor He promised I deserve, aside from surrendering my will to Him,
I have to turn away or repent from all my sins, the sins I still was committing
even after I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior.
When I called Him my Lord and Savior, it means that I cannot worry anymore of the
burden I gave to Him. I have to let Him handle all the circumstances in
my life. He wants me to just continue to study the Word, enjoy His company and have
complete peace as He works into all that I prayed to Him about.
I've learned that even though I am now a new creation and a member
of the children of God, I can be separated from Him and God because
of any sin I commit. I've learned to ask forgiveness and humble myself to Him, so
Jesus can cleanse me each time. But I've learned not to willfully commit
sin as I can grieve the Holy Spirit of God and I could forfeit my
connection to Him because God is Holy and still hates sin.
He wants to always love me unconditionally, but if there's a sin I did not search and
did not confess to Him, as the Holy Spirit will make sure to convict me of them,
I have put a block between me and God. In learning this, I found the answer
as to why Christians still suffer in their everyday life. God could
discipline or punish us, but He is God of many chances. He will hold
off disciplining us if we know we sin and we repent and asked forgiveness
sincerely. He is God so He knows the condition of our hearts. God cannot
be mocked that we could get away with empty promises that we will not sin
anymore if He could just give us another chance. He wants sincerity in
our hearts. Without that sincerity, we set us up to be accessed by our enemy.
Suffering then comes to us. God cannot be blamed for our own
sufferings. We caused them to happen to us because God's protection would
not be with us when there is even one sin that is hidden in our being.

That's why a lot of Christians, born again especially, still suffer
financially and suffer in sickness. Many still have no protection nor favor
from God. They make excuses that God allows suffering and everything will
be all right without asking the Holy Spirit to search their hearts; sin
could still be lingering there somewhere in their hearts. They are defeated
because of not studying God's promises in the Bible. These Christians depend
on their Bible Study in churches and messages from the Pastors
every Sunday only. They do not take the effort to study and far advanced the
wisdom and discernment that God is offering to them. When we pray
to God for wisdom in understanding His Word, God will grant that prayer,
because He wants us to learn His Word, not depending on our own
understanding, but to depend on His wisdom to show us the difference.

When I've learned to apply His Word in my life, God granted me His favor
and blessings beyond compare; with His ever present protection in my life.
God has given me good health. God answers my prayers each time. I hang on to
God's promises in the Bible which are all for my own good.
I declare each time that He will supply all my
needs and I will not be without His blessings. I found the secret to God's
heart: avoid sinning, and if I commit them, ask right away forgiveness from
God always through our intercessor, Jesus Christ; and it must be sincere.
Surrender completely my will to God. Make God
part of my everyday life, irregardless where I am. Listen to God's
promptings through the Holy Spirit; and when I add serving God by bringing
people to Him, so they, too, can know Him through Jesus way, God gives me
total JOY. I've learned to worship and thank God for His favors and blessings
in my life. The most important thing that reshaped my mind
where God listens to all my prayers and grant them is when I developed
this love for Him with all my heart, my soul and my might, it started
that day forward that I could tell Him, without a shadow of a doubt:
I LOVE YOU, MY HOLY GOD! I am forever grateful that I can spend eternal life
with You and Jesus, here on earth and in heaven.
Discovering God's Promises to His people in
the Bible made me fearless of an unknown future because God will take care
of everything for me.

When I completely renewed my mind based on God's Word, all our plans
with relocation to another state came through for my husband and I;
and financial blessings and favors poured in from God. He showered us with His protection.

We are now living in Texas;
and God has revealed to me the reason
why He placed that BIG desire in my heart to relocate. He gave us a Promised
Land where He will manifest more of His favors and blessings in my life,
as long as I keep on TRUSTING in Him and BELIEVING in His Promises; as long
as I keep my focus on Him and study non stop His Word and keep His Word in my heart and not
depart from it, God is unchanging and will not break His Promises.


Well, this is it for now. I will update this as new things pop
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