| To Be Desired Chapter 13 Paul pulled the hair away from my face and put a hand on my back. I knew it was him, I could feel it. When I was reduced to dry heaves I started coughing. I stumbled up and Paul grabbed me around the waist I went to the sink and rinsed my mouth out profusely and took a couple drinks. I felt better but my head still hurt. I pulled my head up and looked at Paul. �Are you All right?� He asked. �No� I said weakly. �I feel like crap� I croaked. He smiled sympathetically. �You�re going to lay down� He said picking me up. I didn�t refuse and buried my face in his shirt. He smelled incredibly good. I was starting to get the chills. He set me down on the bed after yanking the covers down with one hand. I couldn�t smell him anymore. �Can I have your shirt?� I asked. He looked at me. �This?� He asked pulling on his shirt. I nodded. He started unbuttoning it. �Why?� He asked undoing the cuffs. �It smells like you.� I said. He smiled. �OK� He said pulling it off. I sat up a bit and he helped me put it on over my spaghetti strap shirt. I unbuttoned my jeans and tried to pull them off. I�m sorry I just can�t sleep in jeans. Paul helped me pull them off as I let my head fall back on the pillow. I snuggled up to the comforter, it was really cold. �Here� he said putting a plastic wastebasket next to my bed. �You can throw up in it instead of getting up.� He explained. I nodded weakly. He came out of the bathroom with a glass of water and put it on my nightstand. I pulled my head up and did a totally messy bunish thing. �Need anything else?� Paul asked. �No� I smiled weakly. �Thanks� I said. �Anytime� He said. �Want me to stay?� He asked. I wanted him to, but I didn�t want to ruin his day. I shook my head looking down at the floor. �You sure?� He asked. I looked at him, contemplating. �I don�t mind staying.� He said. �I�d actually rather, but if u want to be alone, that�s fine� He said. �Stay, please� I said. �You can leave after I fall asleep.� I said. He just smiled and pulled his shoes off. He crawled into the bed next to me and laid on his stomach his face facing me. I scooted over a bit closer to him and put my head next to his. I lay on my side facing him and closed my eyes bringing my hand up and pressing the cuff to my face. It was his smell. I loved it, it made me feel comforted. �Goodnight� he whispered. �Night� I whispered back. I promptly fell asleep listening to Paul breathe. I awoke a couple hours later face to face with a sleeping Paul. I thought he was going to leave, not that I minded. I moved his hair out of his eyes and stared at him. His face was so peaceful and adorable. I hadn�t realized it when I first woke up but now I realized my stomach was worst. I took a deep breath and tried to make it subside. I got that feeling in my throat and leaned over the side of the bed. I proceeded to throw up again. Paul�s hand was on my hip. I finished and took a deep breath. I reached for the glass of water. By now Paul was sitting up in bed, his hand still on my hip. I rinsed my mouth repeatedly and spit it in the wastebasket. I took a big drink and wiped my mouth with the back of my hand. My stomach felt better and I lay back down. �Are you OK?� Paul asked. I nodded. He got up and took my now empty glass, washed it out and brought it back. He took my wastebasket to empty out. �Paul, you don�t have to do that� I said. �I know� He said. �I want to� He added. I shook my head. I�m sure he wanted to go around emptying baskets full of throw up. I laid back feeling better. He brought it back and crawled back into bed. �Paul, You don�t hafto stay here� I said. I felt bad, his whole time here he just been taking care of me. �What am I supposed to do?� He asked. �Go ice skating in the common room?� He added sarcastically. �I dunno, I feel bad keeping you here.� I said. �You feel bad enough, Just go back to sleep, I like staying here.� He said closing his eyes and snuggling his head back in the pillow. I thought he was lying but lay back anyway. I pulled the cuff back up to my face and fell asleep quickly. I woke up to a crash. It sounded like it came from the bathroom. I looked over at the door and Paul�s head peeked out. Once we saw I was awake he stepped out. �I�m so sorry� He said. �That�s OK� I said sitting up. �I�m sick of sleeping.� I said. I was starting to feel better already. Of course soon enough I was sure I was going to feel awful again so I might as well enjoy it. �Come �ere� I said. He walked over to the side of my bed. I grabbed his tie and pulled his head down. I would of kissed him but I was sick so I threw my arms around his neck. He kneeled next to my bed so he didn�t hafto bend over and put his arms around my waist. That�s when I realized he had had a tie on. Before he just had an undershirt, cuz he gave me his dress shirt. I pulled back and looked at him. He was wearing a white dress shirt and a black tie. �Where you going?� I asked. �Press conference� He said. I nodded. �Oh, yeah� I said. He nodded. �I have to talk about the paper� He said. I was lost for a moment, then I remembered the picture in the newspaper. �Oh, that�s right.� I said. �Sorry, I�m like slow right now� I said. He smiled. �just right now?� He asked. I glared at him jokingly. �Rudeness� I said then smiled. �Stop making fun of me� I whined. He smiled. �I�m sorry, couldn�t resist� He said. �I�m sure� I said. I ran my hand through his hair. �I love it.� I said with a fiendish giggle. He smiled. �I�m glad.� he said sarcastically. I pouted and played with his hair, putting it back in style. Paul caught a glimpse of the clock and stood up. �I�m sorry, Luv, I hafto go now.� He said. �OK� I said laying back down. �Do you need anything?� He asked looking at the basket and then the glass, which was now 2/3 full. �Want more water?� He asked. �No, it�s fine� I said waving it away. �OK, Nell is staying here incase you need anything, he�ll be in the common room.� he said. �OK, thanks� I said. �No problem� He said leaning over to kiss me. I turned my head away. He pulled his head back up and looked at me quizzically. �I�m sick you nit� I said. He looked at me and pouted. I smiled sweetly. He kissed me on my forehead and pulled his head back quickly. �You�re burning up� he gasped putting the back of his hand on my forehead. �Do you want aspirin or something?� he asked. �No it�s all right� I said looking at the clock. �You�re going to be late� I added. �You sure you�re ok?� he asked. �I can stay here if you-� He started. �Paulie� I whined. �I�m fine, I don�t want you to be late, now go� I said. �OK� He said. �Bye I-� I said and but my lip. I almost said �-I love you.� . �Bye, Luv, call Nell if you need anything.� He said walking towards the door. Thank god he didn�t catch it. �OK, Bye Paulie� I said and he shut the door. Did I really love Paul? Maybe I loved Paul McCartney-Beatle Paul, but what about Paulie? I don�t even know him. Well, actually it felt like I�ve known him forever, but I don�t know if I seriously love him. It sure felt like it, but I�ve been wrong many a time, I don�t want to be wrong now. I pulled the sleeve up to my face and breathed in Paul�s smell. It wasn�t just aftershave it was also like...lavender, cigarettes, and... him. I breathed it in again. I loved it. I started feeling bad again. My stomach hurt and I was getting more achy. I turned on my side and snuggled into my pillow. I got that feeling in my throat and leaned over the side of the bed as I proceeded to throw up yet again. I coughed relentlessly and rinsed my mouth out. I took a deep breath and sat up on the side of the bed. I stood up slowly and blacked out for a second and dizziness. Like when you get up too fast. I leaned on the nightstand and grabbed my water. I felt really weak. I took the wastebasket as well and walked slowly to the bathroom. I went to the bathroom, cleaned out the basket and my glass and refilled it. I also brushed my teeth extremely well coz it tasted like crap. I walked back into my room and set the water and basket down. I felt a lot better now, I kind of wanted to watch the big TV in the common room. I redid my falling out hair and was halfway to the door when I realized I wasn�t wearing pants. I didn�t want to wear my jeans and I had no idea where my bags were. I looked in the mirror. The shirt was pretty long, I had panties on, it wasn�t like I was naked. just like bathing suit, yeah. I took my glasses and walked into the common room. Neil was sitting on the couch watching TV. �Hey� He said when he saw me. �You need something?� He asked standing up. �No, thanks� I said smiling a bit. �I�m bored� I said. �I was wondering if I could watch TV?� I asked. �Oh, Sure� He said. He helped me walk to the couch. I leaned my back against the armrest and brought my knees up to my chest. �What do you want to watch?� He asked. �Anything� I said. �I�m watching this movie-� He said. I looked at the screen. �OK great, whatever� I said. It was a black and white movie of some sorts. I leaned back further and brought my hand up to my face and smelled Paul. It was actually a pretty good movie. We watched it for almost an hour until I heard the boys talking in the hall. The door opened and our eyes both swung to it. John walked in first. �Hey� He said. �Do you feel better?� He asked me. �Yeah a bit, thanks� I said smiling. He sat down in the armchair as the others came in. Paul was last. �Hey� he said when he saw me. �What are you doing up?� He said closing the door behind him. �uh, watching TV.� I said looking at the screen then back at him. He smiled and shook his head. �I feel a bit better and I was bored out of my mind� I explained. �Ah� He said sitting down next to me. He leaned over and kissed me on my cheek. He put his hand on my forehead. �You�re not as hot� he said. �Good� I said. �Do you know you don�t have pants on?� John asked looking at me. �Uuuuh, yeah� I said. Paul glared at him. �So how was the conference?� I asked. �Fine� He said. �I wish I could�ve come� I said. �They all wanted to meet you� he said. �Me?� I asked. �Yeah� He said. �Oh� I said. Wow. I moved so I was sitting next to him more and leaned against him. He slid his arm around me. Brian stood up. �OK, guys we hafto get going� He said. Already god they just got here. �Already?� I asked. Paul nodded. �Sorry� He said. �That�s OK� I said. He stood up. �Bye, Luv� He said kissing me on the cheek. �Bye Paulie� I said. He followed the others out. �Get some rest� Paul said before shutting the door. I sighed and leaned back in the couch. I was starting to get very tired. I got up. �I�m going to bed� I told Neil. He nodded. �OK� he smiled. �Night� I said. I went to my room and shut the door. I lay down and fell asleep quickly. I awoke and looked at the clock. 8:34p.m.?!? I sat up and looked around. I felt a bit better but still very weak. I looked around my dark room. I felt for my lamp beside me and turned it on. The whole room illuminated. I looked around slowly. I can not believe I slept that long! I drank down my water glass and went to the bathroom. I saw my reflection on the way back and redid my hair. I heard things going on in the next room and opened the door for a peek. There were tons of people in there connecting stereo systems and setting up a bar and all kinds of things. I slipped back inside unnoticed and sat back in bed. I sat against the wall and played with my bracelet. I heard music turn on for a second then turn off again and a large commotion outside. I heard the guy�s sexy accents from in the common room. I heard Paul approaching my door, shouting something over the noise. I looked up as he walked in. He came up to me. �Hey� I said throwing my arms around him. �Hi, Luv� He replied wrapping his arms around me. He kissed me on the cheek. I kissed his cheek, too, but dieing to really kiss him. I stayed in his arms. �How are you feeling?� He asked, his face in my hair. �Better� I said. �Still really weak� I added. He nodded. �That�s good� He said. I assumed he meant the �better� part was good, not the weak part. �Yeah� I said softly. I pressed my face into his shoulder and breathed in his smell. I loved it. I looked up at him. �Do I smell like throw-up?� I asked. He looked at me. �Nevermind, don�t answer that.� I said sitting back down. �Did Nell take good care of you?� He asked. �Sure� I said. �He really didn�t do anything� I added. He sat down next to me. He put his hands on my hip and kissed me on my cheek, forehead, nose, and neck. �I missed you� He said. �You did?� I asked surprised. He was only gone...5 hours. �Mmm hmm� He said sliding his hand up my back, under my shirt. I shivered. I took a deep breath, maybe it wouldn�t be so strong in French. �J�adore tu, Paul� I said pulling a piece of his hair gently. He lifted his eyes and looked into mine. �I adore you, Paul?� He said unsure. �Very good� I said smiling. �I only know a bit of French� He said. �Michelle ma belle� I said. He smiled. �Yeah, that�s about it� He said jokingly. �J�aime tu, Sarah� He said. I hugged him and left my head on his shoulder. aime...that�s either like or love. Love?...You don�t say �I like you� to a girl. Of course not, So he says it in French. �The party is starting� He said. �Oh yeah� I said. I couldn�t go but yeah. Paul kicked his shoes off and yanked his tie down crawling on the bed and collapsing next to me. �What are you doing?� I asked. �Er, resting� He said looking at me. �What about the party?� I asked. He shrugged. �I wanna stay here� He said. I looked at him. �No you don�t� I said. He looked at me confused. �What do you mean?� He asked. �You hafto go� I said. �It�s like your party� I added. �So, I wanna stay with you, your sick� He said. �Paul, if you don�t get your ass out there I�m going to have to throw you out there.� I said. �You don�t want me to stay?� He asked. �Oh, No� I said. �That�s not working.� I added. �Now, go� I said. He looked at me. �I�m not letting you stay in here while there is a party out there� I said pulling on his arm. �Now go� I repeated. �But-� He started. �For me?� I asked smiling sweetly. He sighed. �Do I have to?� He whined. �Yes� I said pulling him up. �Your going to go to the party and your going to have fun, you got it?� I commanded pushing him towards the door. �Can I have my shoes?� He asked. �Sure� I giggled and threw them at him. He caught one and the other hit the door with a thump. �Sorry� I giggled. He shook his head. �All right, am I allowed to come back?� He asked jokingly. �Or am I being banished?� He added. �You may come back, brave sir� I said mock queen. He came back and kissed me on my forehead. �Your fever is gone� He said. I nodded. I touched his arm. �Buh Byezez, Paul� I said. He walked towards the door. �Have fun� I shouted as he opened the door and noise filled the room. He waved and shut the door behind him. I sat against my pillows and sighed. I felt a lot better, I guess the nap helped me. The party sounded fun actually, I was very weak but I don�t think I was literally sick anymore. I stood up ready to take a shower, when I realized all my bags were somewhere unknown to me. I looked around the room and sighed. I walked to the door and opened it slowly, There were millions of people in there dancing with drinks in their hands. Paul was actually walking by a couple yards away. �Paul!� I shouted. He turned his head and saw me. �Hey� He yelled walking over. �Where are my cases?� I asked when he walked up. �My room� He said. �I�ll go get them� He said walking to the next room. I shut the door and waited for him to come back. I sat on my bed staring at the wall. The door opened and Paul walked in with my cases. �Thanks� I said smiling. �Anytime� He said. I shook my head. �I�m going to take a shower� I said. �All right� He said. �I�ll go back out to the party then� He added. �OK� I said. �Bye, Paulie� I said. �Bye� He said shutting the door behind him. I took a nice shower and decided straightening my hair would take to long so I scrunched gel in it and defused it. I was feeling considerably better and thought I�d join the party. I put on my black pants and baby blue spaghetti strap shirt. I didn�t wear any shoes and just walked out the door after applying lip-gloss and powder. I wadded through the crowds slowly looking everywhere for Paul. I found Ringo being hung on by a bunch of girls. �Ringo� I shouted over the noise. He looked over at me. �Hey� He said. �Feeling better?� Ringo asked. �Yeah, thanks� I said. He nodded. �Great� He said. �You know where Paul is?� I asked. Ringo nodded. �He�s over there, Luv� He said pointing. �Look for a horde of girls� he said jokingly. I nodded. �Thanks� I said softly. I walked the way Ringo pointed until I found him. He was by the bar talking to John, with girls all around them. One was hanging on Paul�s shoulder pretty close. The rest were huddled by him laughing at everything he said and flirting like crazy. He was smiling at them all and laughing. OK. I took a deep breath, I can�t go over there if I�m going to be jealous. He�s mine, I�m wearing his bracelet, He�s mine. I walked up to them all. �Hey� I said loudly. Paul looked over. �Hey, Luv� He said happy surprised. Wow, He remembered me! OK bad Sarah Bad Sarah. He�s being nice. I smiled. �Hi� I said trying to get through the crowd of girls. One was particularly in my way. �Excuse me� I said politely. She gave me an incredibly dirty look and didn�t even think of moving. Paul�s smile faded. He held his hand out and pulled me to him. �Excuse me� He said to the girls and slid his arm around my waist and kissed me on the corner of my mouth. �You feeling better?� He asked. I nodded and smiled. He looked back to John and tightened his grip on me. John and Paul picked up their convo. I looked at all the sluts standing around us giving me dirty looks. They had no right to give me dirty looks. I just smiled at them, not evily mind you, a nice small friendly smile. They continued the dirty looks when Paul wasn�t looking and I dropped the friendly act. I didn�t act evil or whatever just not so friendly. All these stupid gets hated me without even knowing me. People like that bothered me so much. I just stood next to Paul, listening to him talk to John. It was incredibly hot in there, smoke was thick in the air and the noise was making my head hurt. �I�m going to get some air� I said. Paul looked at me. �Are you OK?� He asked. I smiled and nodded. �OK� He said. I left (to the happiness of the girls) and stepped out onto the large balcony. It was nice and cool. I breathed in the crisp air and leaned against the railing. Looking out over the lights in the city. I read about how bad the Beatle girlfriends and wives were treated. Mine hadn�t even started yet. I was going to get bashed by practically every girl on earth...I mean who didn�t love Paul McCartney. I felt a hand on my shoulder and started. �Hey� Paul said. �Did I scare you?� He asked. I shook my head. �Startled� I corrected. He nodded. �Paulie� I said. Sliding my arms around his neck. �Dance with me?� I asked. �Out here?� He asked. I nodded. �Slow dance underneath the stars� I quoted from one of my favorite songs. Paul put his hands around my waist and we swayed hypnotically to our own music. I buried my face in his shoulder. I took a deep breath and leaned my cheek on his shoulder, looking across the city. It was very beautiful with all the lights and everything. I leaned into Paul more and ran a hand up through the back of his hair. I pulled my head back a little and looked at him. He kissed me on the corner of my mouth and tried for one on my mouth. I turned my head. He whined �Please�. �I�m still sick� I explained. He took a deep breath. �Sorry� I whispered. He smiled. �I�m sorry about those girls� He said. �Don�t be� I said. �It�s not your fault� I added. �Perhaps it is� He said looking off over the city. I studied his face, then looked out over the city with him. I felt so comfortable right here. So perfect. I almost told him I loved him again but bit my tongue. I hugged him tighter. I sat down on the floor and pulled Paul down in front of me. We sat cross legged, facing each other. I Ran my hand through his hair slowly. �Having fun at the party?� I asked. �It�s OK� He said. �Dance with any pretty girls?� I asked smiling. He put his arm around me and kissed me under my ear �Not as pretty as you� He said softly. Nice save. I smiled and leaned into him. I looked up at the millions of stars. It was so beautiful out. I saw a shooting star make it�s way across the sky and made a wish. I turned to Paul. He smiled. He was sooo adorable. I traced his chin with my finger and looked into his beautiful doe eyes. I slid my arms around his neck. �I Love you� I said gently. My chin was on his shoulder and I froze when I realized what I said. Paul put his hands on my shoulders and pulled back. He looked at me. I couldn�t tell his expression and looked at him s bit fearfully. Had I just ruined it? Chapter 14 Home This story is copyrighted by Sarah Lucey 2002 and cannot be reproduced! Do u know how sick I am of writing this. |
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