Things have been pretty hectic for me since Thanksgiving. I completed graduate school and moved in with Tricia, Cayenne, and Bella; Buddy is moving to Louisiana and the girls aren't following until June, so I'm living with them until then. I'm having a little difficulty adjusting to this new lifestyle. I LOVE my nieces, but being around them 24/7 is a little trying, especially since the novelty of me living here hasn't worn off, yet. Buddy and Tricia are anal neat freaks, and I'm a clutter machine. I'm trying so hard to keep things the way they like them and be helpful since I am living here for free. I try to help out with the girls as much as I can b/c that is the main reason Tricia asked me to move in. The girls have started coming to me for all their needs - even if Tricia or Buddy is standing right next to me offerring to help.
I'm on a HUGE emotional roller coaster right now. To top it off, there are all these no-no foods around the house, that my head keeps telling me I need to eat. I'm assuming it's head hunger, even though it feels like real hunger, b/c there is no way I can be hungry all the time all day. I have been grazing constantly, and each day, it gets worse. I try to at least make myself graze on protein foods (nuts, baked ham, peanut butter, turkey) or fruits and veggies, but there sure is a lot of chocolate around calling my name; I only allow myself 2-3 pieces a day, but that is WAY TOO MANY! It doesn't help that I am also PMS'ing right now. I've been staying away from the chips, but I wonder if that would at least be better than sweets???
I was FINALLY offerred a teaching position (on my voicemail) and left a voice message accepting the position, but I haven't heard back from them since then. School starts Jan. 4th for the teachers and Jan. 5th for the students. I would REALLY like to get all the paperwork signed, sealed, and delivered. I'm also VERY nervous about teaching junior high. I have always said that age group is the "devil incarnate" b/c of all the hormones they are experiencing. The fact that they are students with emotional disturbances makes that all the worse I'm guessing. I think some of my nervousness will subside once I'm able to talk to the other adaptive behavior teacher and find out what we are going to do the first week (Heck, I'd be happy to just know what we are going to do the first DAY at this point)!
Also, I haven't had much time to exercise since Thanksgiving. I finally got back into the swing of things with the exercising a few days ago. I got REALLY depressed when I realized that I hadn't lost very many pounds or inches this month -- like half of what I usually lose each month. It is too early for my body to slow down this much. I'm only in my 5th month :-@ In order to be able to workout, though, I stay up late; I wait until everyone else has gone to bed. My vitamin regimen has sufferred as well b/c I'm not in a good routine and often forget to take them. I'm hoping that will be fixed once I start teaching and have a more consistent routine.
AND......... On top of all of that......... I have not been able to get on the TMB very much. I barely have time to read the posts that everyone else post, much less reply to them (unless I want to stay up and do it after I exercise or do that instead of exercise) :'( This is my support group. This is the place I go for comfort and guidance; yet, I haven't had time to do that since I have moved here. Partly b/c I like to have privacy when I get on here.
Sorry if I'm sounding like a "whiney baby," but I REALLY needed to get all this out before I exploded. |
