November 5, 2004
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So there I was, vase full of roses in one hand and artist�s portfolio on the other, waiting for my class to start, when my phone rang and I began to speak to a good friend about life. I shared with her a wonderful story that I found in a book. This is what I shared with her, and she encouraged me to share it with others:
��And acceptance is the answer to all of my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, or situation- some fact of my life- unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing absolutely nothing, happens in God�s world by mistake�
Until I could accept my Morbid Obesity, I could not take the necessary steps to deal with it; unless I accept life completely on life�s terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in ME and in my attitudes.
When I complain about me or about you, I am complaining about God�s handiwork. I am saying that I know better than God. Acceptance has taught me that there is a bit of good in the worst of us, and bit of bad in the best of us.
For years I was sure that the worst thing that could have happen to a nice guy like me would be that I turn out to be Morbidly Obese. Today I find it�s the best thing that has ever happened to me. This proves that I don�t know what is good for me. And If I don�t know what�s good for me, then I don�t know what�s good or bad for you or for anyone else.
I know that while I judge myself by my intentions, people judge me by my actions. I wish I could live up to my own ideals�Acceptance opens the door to peace with others. My serenity is directly proportional to my level of acceptance. When I remember this, I can see that I�ve never had it so good, not despite my obesity and defects of character, but because of it.
I guess, some part of me has always been embarrassed that I was so fat once. Today, I wear it like a badge of honor. Yes that WAS me, but this is me now�.BTW, I�ve added a pre-op picture of myself to my profile. I heard that there was rumor going around that I was NOT ever heavy. Hee hee. What a great compliment!
Cyber-hugs Amigos!
Christian Martin
El Studly Presidente
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