I.
If I could just get out of here for a while
but Cerberus is guarding the door
Persephone is in the kitchen
baking pomegranate pies
Yeah, this is Hell
Hades sits in his recliner
watching golf on ESPN
I wait to be saved again by the school bus
thinking if I ever get out of here
I won't look back like Orpheus
Yeah, this is Hell
But what if I'm an angel
with wings in my backpack
If I try to fly away
will I fall like Icarus
I think God is trying to tell me something
but I can't hear
So you found another boy with a pretty face
What's so amazing about a pretty face
Boy, don't you know nothing gold can stay
How's that thought for you
I was looking for Heaven
but I've given up
All my angels turned into harpies
my beliefs into confusions
Do you think they're still enough
to get us there
But what if I'm an angel
with wings in my backpack
If I try to fly away
will I fall like Icarus
I think God is trying to tell me something
but I can't hear over the crimson crowds
roaring through my head
The monster that was hiding underneath
now is sleeping in my bed
Will I choke on my fears
once I've no tears left
Mary is weeping
They just told her that Jesus is dead
Why is it so hard to communicate
Why are we all so filled with hate
Cerberus is howling at the moon again
I'm afraid if I look up
I'll see myself falling
Your mother shows up
with Bachus and Pan
They're all so drunk they can hardly stand
Feels like everybody's looking at you
I know--I've been there, too
Yeah, it feels like Hell
But what if I'm an angel
with wings in my backpack
If I try to fly away
will I fall like Icarus
I think God is trying to tell me something
but I can't hear
If I could just get out of here for awhile
but I never will
II.
Why do I feel so threatened
that somebody else will take what's mine
Probably because somebody did
Babe it's only rented
No one really owns the merchandise
What about what I want
Somehow it got lost somewhere inside
My mother's on my case
I told her I love a boy
Well, she just died
Sorry, but I'm tired of being
Silent all these years
I got me some horses
to ride on
to ride on
they say that your demons
can't go there
When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
'cause things are gonna change so fast
all the white horses are still in bed
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change, my dear
You showed me the meadow
and Milkwood
and Silkwood
and you would if I would
so I chased down your posies
your pansies in my hosies
then opened my hands
and they were empty
Darlin' I remember
when I held the violets
in my hand
love can crush
held too tight
we could bring
it back alive
with a little more
Faith
and if there is a way to find you
I will find you
I can't go
you said so
and threads that are golden
don't break easily
so I got me some horses
to ride on
to ride on
as long as your army
keeps perfectly still
When you gonna make up your mind
When you gonna love you as much as I do
When you gonna make up your mind
'cause things are gonna change so fast
all the white horses have gone ahead
I tell you that I'll always want you near
You say that things change, my dear
Blood Roses
Blood Roses
Can't forget the things you never said
on days like these gets me thinking
You think I'm a queer
I think you're a queer
I think you're a queer
Said I think you're a queer
and I shaved every place where you been
I shaved every place where you been
and I hate and I hate and I hate and I hate
disintegration
watching us wither
black winged roses that
safely change their color
I can't reach you
I can't reach you
Give me life
Give me pain
Give me myself again
No one's picking up the phone
guess it's me and me
nothing's been the same
so are you gay
are you blue
thought we both could use a friend
to run to
and I thought you'd see with me
you wouldn't have to be something new
He says he reckons I'm a watercolour stain
he says I run and then I run from him
and then I run
I know you're late for your next parade
you came to make sure that I'm not running
well I ran from him in all kinds of ways
Guess it was his turn this time
Time
thought I'd made friends with time
thought we'd be flying
maybe not this time
He didn't see me watching
from the aeroplane
You're right next to me
but I need an aeroplane
I can feel the distance
as you breathe
Sometimes I think you want me to touch you
how can I when you build the Great Wall
around you
In your eyes I saw our future together
You just look away in the distance
He wiped a tear
Darlin' you don't know the power you command
with that tear in your hand
No one's picking up the phone
Guess it's clear he's gone
Nothing's been the same
So are you gay
Are you blue
Thought we both could use a friend
to run to
and I thought I wouldn't have to keep
hiding if I were with you
Thought I knew myself so well
Took my leather off the shelf
Look I'm standing naked before you
don't you want more than my sex
I can scream as loud as your last one
but I can't claim innocence
I could just pretend that you love me
The night would lose all sense of fear
But why do I need you to love me
when you can't hold what I hold dear
Oh God could it be the weather
Oh God why am I here
If love isn't forever
and it's not the weather
hand me my leather
God sometimes you just don't come through
Make me a day
Make me whole again
and I wonder if he's ok
if you see him say hi
Boys on my left side
Boys on my right side
Boys in the middle
and you're not here
didn't know our love was so small
couldn't stand at all
caught a lite sneeze
dreamed a little dream
built my own pretty hate machine
I wanna smash the faces
of those beautiful boys
those Christian boys
So you can make me cum
that doesn't make you Jesus
I remember yes
in my peach party dress
no one dared
no one cared
to tell me
where the pretty girls are
those demigods
with their nine-inch nails
and little fascist panties
tucked inside the heart of every nice girl
Boys on my left side
Boys on my right side
Boys in the middle
and you're not here
Boys in their dresses
and you're not here
You say you packed my things
and divided what was mine
Don't make me scratch on your door
I never left you
and if I'm wasting all your time
this time
maybe you never learned to give
and if I'm hanging on to your shade
I guess I'm way beyond the pale
I'm trying not to move
It's just your ghost
passing through
I said
I'm trying not to move
It's just your ghost passing through
It's just your ghost
passing through
Now I've got to worry
'cause boy you still look pretty
when you're putting the damage on
Happy for you
and I am sure that I hate you
I don't want to lose it
It must be worth losing
if it is worth something
and now
I'm quite sure
I never seen a light move
like yours
can do to me
so now I'm wishing
sure that star can twinkle
and you're watching it too
boy so hard boy so hard
and I'm sure
said I'm sure
he's watching it too
I know he's watching that star
gonna twinkle
gonna twinkle
gonna twinkle
Every road leads back to my door
Every road you will follow
Every road leads back to my door
I'll leave the light on
just in case you like the dancing
you can remember where you come from