When does a decision actually have to be made about how I will live the rest of my life? Two men, strikingly different. One with money, one without. One with a good career, one who just sits around all day, taking in a nice retirement check. I sit here at my pc, wondering if I�m part of a cunning and devious plot. Tidbits of the movie �Cruel Intentions� running through my mind. I�m talking about the man with the money and good job and a wife!
A while back he put his female friend in contact with me. She has made it known that she wants a relationship with me. But, she has also told me that while I am this man�s �one that got away� and the one he really wants to be with, totally in love with me, that he stands to lose more money than I will ever see in a lifetime! If he leaves his wife, he leaves his wealth, cars and home. He may even lose some friends.
Thoughts come to mind at this point. Why would he start talking to me if he never had any intention of leaving his wife and life? I don�t think he EVER intended for that to happen. I believe that this man and his female friend are somehow getting their �jollies� out of stringing me along. Just like in the movie �Cruel Intentions�.
On the other side we have the retired lazy guy. Yes he does do many things for me. Much more than any other man in my life! He has been my rock while many changes have occurred in my life. He is however, short-tempered. And I�m tired of being his maid! I haven�t been able to write lately because I�m too busy cleaning up after him and doing his laundry! Whenever a fight occurs, he always says, �Well, you want me to leave, so I�ll go�. Being the person I am and not wanting confrontations of this nature, I give in.
I know in my head that married men rarely, if ever, leave their wives. But, most guys who are in their later 30's and never married before have a committment phobia of sorts.
So there is my dilemma. Both men I truly love. Both with their own set of problems and strengths. Torn. Feeling like a fool.
