Ta Ein

 

*Part 10*

 

~Ding-Dong~

 

“Who is it?” asked Krissy.

 

“…..”

 

“Who is it?” asked Krissy again…however she juss opened the door without caring.  To her surprise, it was Ji Won.

 

“Oppa…wha…what are you doing here?”

 

Ji Won didn’t reply.  He was drunk.

 

“Oppa….”

 

“You said you wanted the truth.  I came here to give you the truth.” replied Ji Won angrily.

 

“Well?”

 

“Are you juss going to let me stand here and tell you?”

 

“You’re drunk.  Come back when you’re sober.”

 

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“I’m sober….i’m sober….this is your last chance…..after this…..you won’t get to knoe why even if you wanted to.”

 

“Whatever~” said Krissy, who was trying to play it cool.

 

“Alright…I’ll see you later~” said Ji Won as he was headed out the apartment complex. 

 

“Oppa wait…” said Krissy, grabbing Ji Won’s right arm.

 

Without saying anything, Krissy lead Ji Won into her apartment.

 

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“Quinn and I …..were lovers.  We were in a serious relationship….i loved her…she loved me…we were juss meant to be….we got engaged and were going to marry last year in March, but I blew the engagement off because….because of my mother...she had cancer and I didn’t want Quinn to have to get hurt by this.  I knew she would have a difficult time taking caring of her because it would hurt her emotionally and physically….Quinn’s a really weak person….and I couldn’t give her the responsibility of that…..i knoe it seems like a lie…but it’s true….that’s the only reason why I left her…..i left her without saying why…..she said that if I had told her then….she would have given me support and help me go through this time…..but…I juss couldn’t let her…….i felt as if I had to be the responsible one in this case…it juss frustrates me…..I mean everyday….every single day…I thought about her….how I knew I made a mistake…I wanted to go back, but I felt it was too late…there wasn’t a day where I didn’t regret not going back to her and asking for forgiveness.”

 

“….”

 

“Quinn called me up months later……saying she wanted to tell me something and that we should meet up.  So I did….i was happy to see her……she didn’t seem to have changed much….juss the same Quinn I knew….always fun to be around……always a delightful person to talk to….That was when I learned of her news.  I didn’t want to let her go…I knew it was already too late to get her back….but the fact that someone was claiming her….was juss….different…..i would’ve juss rather her live on her own…..but I guess everyone has to find some kind of love in their life….and the new guy was the lucky one to get it.”

 

“…..”

 

“I knoe….juss a stupid mistake of mine.”

 

“So now what?” asked Quinn.

 

“….”

 

“Are you going to try to get her back?”

 

“I do have her back.” said JiWon.  He seemed to have awaken from all the alcohol he had consumed.

 

“You’re not making sense oppa.”

 

“I called her about every other day.  She tried to keep me away.  She tried to pretend that her love for me no longer existed.  She tried everything…but knew that nothing would work…..and she gave in.”

 

“and now, what’s the problem?”

 

“What else would be the other problem?  Although her heart is aiming towards me, she still has the other guy to take care of….I mean how would you feel if you were that other guy?”

 

“Then let her go.”

 

“What? 

”Either claim her forever, or let her go…you can’t feel guilty in a situation like this.”

 

“But what if Quinn won’t be able to do it?”

 

“That’s her problem….oppa….how can you be so blind?  If you loved one person….wouldn’t you try anything under your power to stay with that person?  You did…why couldn’t Quinn uhn-nee?”

 

“Because….don’t you even knoe anything about love?  Even though you love that person ……you could be miles apart and still love each other?  Lovers don’t necessarily stay together.  And I’m afraid that this….mess…that I got us in…won’t be executed with the plan that I had…”

 

“Go.  Leave.  I don’t want to see you again.  You are pathetic!  If somehow you and Quinn uhn-nee don’t make it to the end…that’s when I won’t forgive you!”

 

With that, Krissy took Ji Won and shoved him out and slammed the door in his face.  Ji Won on the other side sat down and had his back against the door.

 

~*~*~*~*~*

 

Quinn was at Jae Jin’s house, sipping her tea while waiting for Jae Jin.  Jae Jin came in from a different room and sat down next to Quinn.  He smiled brightly at Quinn, but as soon Quinn saw his smile, she looked miserable and heartbroken. 

 

“What’s the matter?”  asked Jae Jin.

 

“Jonathan….i’ve been meaning to tell this to you…every since…it happened.”

 

“….”

 

Quinn sighed deeply.  She looked at the innocent eyes of Jae Jin.  She knew that he would forgive her, but would he let her go?  Even if he did end up letting her go, would he do it so easily?

 

“I don’t knoe if I ever told you about my ex…Ji Won…”

 

Jae Jin nodded his head ‘no’ and Quinn sighed again.

 

“Ji..JI Won….and I were engaged to get married last March, but we didn’t make it to the end because he ended our engagement abruptly.  I couldn’t let go of him…I waited and waited for him….my parents convinced me that he would never come back and even if he did he wasn’t good enough any longer.  I however, did not think he had the heart to just leave me.  But in the end, I was almost wrong.  But seeing that my parents were indeed right, I anticipated that I had to move on.  This is when I met you.  You…”

 

“Is there something wrong about me?  Do I not fulfill the position that Ji Won once filled?” asked Jae Jin sternly.

 

“No…..no, not at all.  It doesn’t matter about Ji Won…….until….i called him up about 2 months ago.  I told him that I was getting married.  I felt that he had the right to knoe, because I did indeed counted him as a good friend.”

 

“I don’t understand where you are going with this story….”

 

“Just listen, please?”

 

Jae Jin nodded and Quinn continued.

 

“I told Ji Won about us, and how we are getting married next March.  I thought he would be happy for the both of us, but instead, he begged that he come back to him.  I didn’t understand where he was coming from and at first I thought it was out of pure jealously, the idea that he might actually lose me to someone else.  Days went by, and every other day I would get a phone call from him.  He begs turned into whimpers,  he became a helpless creature….and that’s where I found out that he was doing this for love.  I thought I had lost all my love for him….but seeing this image of him tore me apart.  This is how I understood that my love was for Ji Won and only Ji Won.  My love for him would never leave, even if we were miles apart.”

 

“……”

 

Jae Jin sighed.  He looked…heart broken.  

 

“So what are you trying to say Quinn?  You could never love me, therefore you shouldn’t marry someone whom you do not love?”

 

“Jonathan….i care for you so much.  After meeting you, my eyes opened up into the light, away from the darkness that I was once in.  Like Ji Won, you too helped me learn how to grow and see a different side of life….”

 

“…..”

 

“But I’m going to ask you to do me a great favor….please….let me go.”  With that a tear from Quinn’s eyes dropped on the floor.  She looked down, trying to cover her tears.  She was ashamed to look into Jae Jin’s eyes, fore she knew that she had to break Jae Jin’s heart.

 

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