| May 25, 2002 Hey guys, what is up?...nm here...as you can see i got mah professional prom pictures...and i must say that they are better than the ones i took...yeah...so me and john are no longer together...but the weird thing about it was that...i'm not really...what feeling sorrie for myself? because that is the relationship was doomed from the beginning and while i had other things in mind...john did too..oh wellz...and the good thing about it is..john and i are friends...how good of friends we are...yeah we are friends...so i am glad...a successful event shall i say? It was weird because i tried to cry it off...but i couldn't...that's the weird thing...i think it was basically because there was no crying to do...hehe...yeah john is a great guy...i think a better friend than a boyfriend...and we juss had a personality clash...no biggie...well yesterday i was worried to death about my English grade because if i can't pass my English class this year than i wouldn't be able to graduate..hehe...well i am passing fourth quarter and will be passing 2nd semester which means i will be passing for the year!!!!!!!!!! WHOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! awesome posum...hehe :-D...yes i am a dork...but there was other bad news...Ms. Roberts called my dad and told him i was basically failing my class...statistics that is...and i'm sitting here thinking...whatever...this is stupid...ak~ but i realized how much i was not only hurting myself so much but my dad...he wasn't worrying about me...he's juss really hurt with mom gone...and i didn't even help the situation by failing my classes...i didn't need him to get worried about me cuz he trusted me with my school work...i was really sorry when he was talking to me...more or less yelling...but i understood at the moment that i really let him down...yeah...how stupid of me...but i'm glad that my dad is a awesome person truly...when he loves something...he'll love it forever and trust it...my dad's straight to the point and he's very honest...i don't think he could ever tell a lie...he'd rather face the consequences of what he has done anything wrong if he did indeed do wrong than him getting into a bunch of lies...i knoe my dad will prob never read this...but I LOVE YOU DADDY! i'm proud to have a father like him...and i'm proud of my mom...time really flies...i notice that...it's been almost 3 months since my mom has passed away...i'm so empty with out her...but yet i sensed a new kind of hope yesterday...i have gotten that lil will power of wanting to "Try Again"...yes...i think of some many ways of trying again...and i'm kinda mad of John not trying again (yes i knoe i'm going in a tangent) but still...ya knoe...he could've tried but i guess he didnt' want to because we're going different routes in about a month or two...yeah...me going off to KOREA...yes! i can't wait to PARTY there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! awesome...i hope i actually meet someone there (which i highly doubt) esp. when my guy cousin who is the closest in age with me has gone to the Korean Army...i won't be seeing him...but hopefully next year i will be! man i gotta learnthow to cook when i get to Korea....man...i hope i get to get all my things done for stats...i really need to pull up my grade..not to mention psychology....ak~! well laterz yo...it's 12:30 i gotta get going cuz i have to get to work at 5......great! i'm pumped up!!!!!!! |