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SEO GUYS...what is up? nothing much here....well...i have tons of makeup work to do...let's see...i have to make up two (2) bio tests...a chem test...prob a psych quiz or two...and then what? i have an upcoming history test...and then an upcoming english...aye me~ life is full of shit~ but hey SHIT HAPPENS!

Wellz...from reading Amy's journal entries...i too have also read Ve's profile of "I'm afraid of falling in love" maybe i worded that wrong, but i think you guys got the good ol' picture...you knoe...i kinda knoe where she is coming from...but if you're afraid of doing this...why get involved in a relationship with a guy? Yeah...i think she's going on with the fact that...she's going to get hurt (maybe along with Dan)...but hell...geez...i'm going to blunt and ask "WHY??!" again..there's that...insecure issue...this is all due to insecure...a relationship can always tie back to INSECURITY....hmm...i dunno...but at this moment...i wouldn't mind having a relationship.

I was talking to Trey on the phone (as usual)...and i was telling him of Andrew's response to mah e-mail...and i also yelled at him saying that i was hurt because he always takes andrew's side...you knoe what his response was when i read him andrew's e-mail? "I feel for the guy...i knoe what he's going through..." Geez...i thought i could count on you as a friend and i thought you would actually understand me...i mean i'm sure Trey isn't against me...but he kinda makes me feel worse than i already am about the situation...like a few years back...freshman year...when i dumped mah first b/f after a month...one of his friend's asked me "why did you even go out with him if you were going to end it so soon?" My response: "if i knew it was going to end it this soon i wouldn't have known"...yeah yeah...it's awkward...i dunno even where the guy is right now...i wish i could take back all the moments...

After talking with Trey on the phone, OO YOO called...how nice of him...actually he told me online that he was going to call...so i was expecting a call...anywayz... i was telling him how i wish i could go back and juss relive mah high school years...he responded with "see i told you high school was fun"...no it wasn't that high school was fun...but i regret so many things...i regret wasting my hours online when i could've been studying (that habit is still not broken)..i regret going out with some of the guys i dated...esp both the davids...and Andrew...so that leaves two guys that i didn't actually regret...i actually liked Mark until the end...i don't hate him knoe..and quite frankly i'm glad that he has a wonderful girlfriend...alyssa...she's really sweet and cute...i'm sure i have mentioned her before...and ABE...gotta love ABE (right TREY?)...hehe... yeah and i really regret not being able to keep up my grades and doing IB...AP could've been MUCH MUCH better

10:25 P.M. - today musta been mah lucky day! I gotta new car...or shall i say mah dad got a new car for me! it's a NEW 2002 honda accord sedan...it's silver with leather interior, moonroof, 6 disc in-dash cd changer (very cool!)..it's a 16-valve VTEC 4 cylinder engine...mah daddy was going to get a 6 cylinder...but i think he got the 4 so i wouldn't speed as much...hahhahahah...........:-P...IT'S GREAT! IF YOU GUYS RIDE IT...HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOY! hopefully i won't ruin the car by next week! peace~ p.s. btw..oo yoo tastes bad~