I was supposed to go out with Rai for our 'movie date' since I haven't seen her since Christmas. She cancelled, as her dad suddenly dint let her go (yeah, like, 3 hours before we were supposed to meet. WTF?!). I then made plans with Buan, as I was itching to watch a movie, but then again, it was raining so hard that my mom told me not to go nalang, and to accompany her to her work place thing. So there. I attended my YFC meeting instead at around 6, then headed on to some tita's house for a 'despedida' party for my mom :) 12:30 na ko nakauwi, kakakanta sa karaoke :))
Gluttony
I went to Dad's/Saisaki/Kamay Kainan for an eat all you can bonanza worth 550 + 100 for drinks. 650 din yun. A week's worth of allowance. But heck, I just went to enjoy the moment :))I actually went out with my mom first, then had a 'dinner' party, where none of us (me and some of my friends) ate, as we were saving our appetites for the ultimate buffet experience :)) My mom was perplexed, since she picked out choice foods that would suit MY appetite. Sabi ko nalang, I was being treated out and dint want to waste the opportunity. A huge fib right there. I was actually saving up for it, but I dint expect that this night would be when I'd have to spend it.
We left my mom's party thing at around 7:30, as we were surrounded by old (by old, I mean, my mom's age, which is around 40). We headed on to the Saisaki branch at Edsa, got seats, and stared at the food as we thought of what we'd eat first. We decided to devour on sashimis and tunas first. Salmon Sashimi palang, bawing bawi na yung 550 ko. You know how much Salmon Sashimi normally costs?! Super expensive. But then again, it was a buffet, so I ate all I could right away :)) Totally loved it. It was sooo good, that you dint need to actually chew it, but just let it melt in your mouth. Hmmm :)
Gathered a piece of each sushi I could get on one huge plate, with the sauce, of course, sat down with my friends, and just looked at it blankly. Frankly speaking, I'm not such a big fan of sushis except for the california maki thing :)) Anywho, I tried each, and nuff said, twas good.
I ate loads of stuff: Roast pork, escargot, pork tonkatsu, around 4 kinds of tempura, potato and macaroni salads, a couple of slices of blueberry cheese cake, chocolate cake, strawberry ice cream, grilled chicken, lengua, buko pandan, baked mac, and pork tanigue :)) I ate a lot, but then again, I wanted to make sulit the 650 that I spent :)) GLUTTONY!!!! Still, it was all good. I only got small portions of each, as I wanted to try as much as I could, except of course for the usual Filipino delicasies. I mean, hello? I get to eat those a lot, so I set my eyes on those I rarely get to eat, which included blueberry cheese cake. I mean, I never really LIKED it, but the one there tasted too good to resist. Minsan ka lang makakahanap ng sobrang sarap na blueberry cheese cake. The one at Starbucks sucks compared to the one at Dad's. Uber good, and perfectly made for each layer (blueberry, chese, and cracker at the bottom) to complement each other. Yummmmehhh!!
We rested in between buffet sessions. We stopped eating for about 10 minutes before we stood up and gathered food again :)) After 3 hours of eating, we finally decided to step outside, and distance ourselves from the food. Wala namang nasayang, as I was with guys, who, in my opinion, never got full :)) Finished at around 10, then headed on to some karaoke bar at Tomas Morato for a few songs :)) Laughtrip, as none of us really knew how to sing :)) Lean ended up throwing up cause of all the food he ate, and none of us could really sit down as we were all bloated :)) See that? The effects of eating too much for your own good? And to think, I feasted on Sinigang sa bayabas sa baboy earlier for lunch, which is by far my fave Filipino delicasy. My mom cooks it sooo well that I end up eating a lot :)) Hmmm.
So, in the end, gluttony's not really a good thing, even if you ARE paying for all of the food. I mean, hello? My stomach still hurts, and I can't wait to defacate so as to empty out everything I devoured :)) Gahd
Update tomorrow ;) Too full to think. Haha labo. Ciao! ;)
May naexperience ako dati. Akala nung isa kong 'kaibigan' na gustong gusto kong maging tulad niya. Sa isip niya kasi, cool na cool siya. She thought wrong.
Feeling niya kasi siguro, cool ang pagiinom at magyosi. Umiinom siya madalas, pumupunta ng mga club, at nagdadala pa ng yosi sa mga lakad o kaya sa school. So, sa isip niya, cool siya. Feeling niya sikat siya kasi mayaman siya, at nasa pangalan niya. Pa-english english pa siya kung magsalita minsan, eh wala namang binatbat pag dating sa grades. Cool para sakanya yung hindi papasok dahil tinatamad, tapos paparty siya buong gabi kasama ng mga graduate o mga college na 'nagkakagusto' daw sakanya. Kung kilala niyo lang yung sinasabi ko, eh hindi kayo maniniwala don sa huling linya.
Kaya yon. Sabi niya sakin "you just want to be in!". Para bang sinabi niya na I try to be like her? Kasi feel niya in siya? Ai please. "Kawawa naman akooooo I'm not cool like you kasi I don't drink a lot like you do tapos I don't go clubbing often ehhh huhuhu kawawa naman akoooo!!". Wow. I'm waaaay above that, thank you very much!!
TO THE COOLEST PERSON IN THE WORLD: Kung feeling mo gusto ko maging tulad mo, you're dead wrong. Sobrang yaman mo nga, eh matalino ka ba? May pupuntahan ka ba diyan sa yaman mo kung wala kang totoong kaibigan (lahat kasi nung mga sinasabi mong kaibigan mo, ginagamit ka lang kasi mayaman ka, at binibili mo silang lahat)? Wala naman diba? Buti sana kung napakabait mo, o kaya may 'ginintuang puso' ka. Wala. Sayang ka, ang dami mong potential. Matalino ka sana, kung magsisipag ka lang. Pwede ka pa nga yatang mag honors eh, kung gugustuhin mo. Pero hindi. Pinili, at patuloy mong pinipiling itapon ang buhay mo kasi COOL yon. COOL yung "hindi ako papasok kasi tinatamad ako, and I partied all night kagabi, and I'm sooo tired and I have a hangover na!", diba? Jologs kasi ako. Hindi ako ganyan.
Actually, marami akong kilalang ganyan. Hindi ko mabibilang gamit yung mga daliri sa kamay ko. Meron pa nga eh yung magyayabang na lasing siya ng gabing yon, at kesyo anong oras na siyang umuwi, at kung sinong mga lalake yung nandun at kung ano ano pa. Minsan yung kungyari pa may kinekwentuhan lang, eh nasa kabilang dako pa yata ng mundo yung kinekwentohan niya kaya kailangan niyang sumigaw, este, ISIGAW na uminom siya nung isang gabi at nalasing kasama si [insert name of UNFORTUNATE lalake here]. Nakakainis yon. Hindi lang AKO yung naiinis, meron pa. Nagusap kasi kami kanina, kaya ko to nasulat.
Ang sasayang nila. Ang dami nilang potential. Magkakahiwalay, napakababait nilang tao, may kanya kanyang trip. Pero pag magkakasama na sila, para silang mga robot na sinusunod kung ano man yung ginagawa ni ROBOT NUMBER 1. Buti nalang yung pag absent sa mga school nila at yung pag walang bahala sa studies eh HINDI MASYADOng naaapektohan. Sayang parin. Umiinom sila twing weekend, nagpapakalasing dahil sa wala, at ipapagmalaki sa mga susunod na araw, na akala mo kung anong napakagaling na bagay ang gingawa nila. Feeling kasi yata nila, sobrang cool nila at IN sila kapag ganun sila. Well, mali yung iniisip nila. Kung alam lang nila, bumababa yung tingin sakanila ng mga tao (at least, yun yung sabi sakin, at yun rin naiisip ko), dahil wala silang pagpapahalaga sa mga bagay na nasa harapan lang nila. Ang priority nila eh yung puchak na social ladder na yan, na marami nang nabiktima, nabiktima yung mga GUSTONG GUSTONG MAGING COOL AT MAGING SIKAT. Stop it. Sikat ka nga. Sikat ka for the freakin wrong reasons. Sikat ka dahil lasinggera kang hindi nagaaral. Ang galing, ano?
It's none of my business, tama nga naman. I'm just speaking my mind, diba? Kanya kanyang opinion yan. This is mine.
Nakakainis ano? Hate talaga namin siya. Pasalamat siya, patient kami sakanya, kundi, sinapak ko na yung muka niyang napakamanyak ng itsura. Nakakabadtrip talaga twing Physics. Mas naeenjoy ko pa yung CL kesa sa class niya eh (No offense to Sir Rady, pero it's CL. No one ENJOYS CL. At least, I don't think anyone does, haha!). Nagiging napakaexciting ng CL compared to Sir Salayo's class. I swear. Self study na to. Bwisit.
Technically, all other things are good. Enjoy naman. Sabi nga namin ni Jacyn, less stressful kesa sa third year, na wala nang pahinga. Mas madali naman, at may time mag enjoy. Last year kasi, agad agad yung trabaho, kakapasok palang ng school. Kaya yan. Napansin ko lang this year, mas nag loosen up yung class. Mas masaya na, and mas disciplined na. Galing, ano?
Kanina, hindi ako nakakain ng lunch. Nagugutom na ko nun, Music palang. Kumakalam na tiyan ko, at hindi ko alam kung bakit. Nag usual mango shake naman ako nung recess eh, pero wa-epek. Buong time iniisip ko yung pagbibigyan ko ng recommendation letter. Syempre, pasok na si Mrs. Alvarez. Love ako nun eh (haha baduy amp!), at mataas grade ko sakanya, so I doubt na may masasabi siyang hindi kanais-nais. So, isa nalang natitira. Naisip ko na dati pa na bibigyan ko si Ms. Delfin (bio), dahil sobrang love ko siya, at favorite ko siya, ever :)) At kilala pa naman niya ako, so yon. Kaso, hindi ko siya nahanap kanina. So nakatayo lang kami dun ni missy, naghihintay ng dadaan na teacher na bibigyan ko, tapos kakain kami SANA. Buti pa si Missy, nabigay na pareho. Hindi ko pa nakikita si Ms. Delfin, so, sa Monday ko nalang ibibigay. Diyahe naman!
Absent ako tomorrow!! :)
Mom Kelan ka pa ba walang pasok?
Me Wala na noh! Yung 4 day vacation ko, last na yon for the month.
Mom Ah, magddivisoria kasi ako ulit eh, samahan mo sana ako.
Me Wala akong academics bukas, gusto mo? Kaso susulatan mo ko ng letter, tapos may tatlo na kong absent para sa quarter.
Mom Ok lang. Sige. Wag ka nang pumasok. I want you to come with me.
Ayan naman. My entry's in tagalog!! In all fairness, this is a huge feat for me. Wrong grammar, wrong tagalog, please excuse it :)) I don't proof read ;)
Wow :) Ciao!!
Nah. I never really experienced such horrible things all at the same time, for instance: shedding blood for someone (not literally), while crying your eyes out, doing so under the heat of the scorching sun. Oh please, that isn't the only instance in which you'll be able to shed blood, sweat, and tears, all at the same time. So, where am I going here? I have absolutely no idea. All I know is that I've never felt those. Goodie for me, I guess. Even the whole nagsusunog ng kilay thing, I never experienced it. I mean, I've slept late for a couple of projects or so, but, never the whole, I have no idea what to do anymore and it's almost dawn thing. That would be waaaay sad for me. I'm not really all that good under pressure :))
I've never been totally heartbroken, either. I mean, I've had my fair share of tears (hence, the third installation in the title), but never the whole enchalada. I've gone all drama queen, I have to admit, a couple of times, but never the whole crying fiesta where you lock yourself up for hours, even days because of some freakin' bastard. See. There was an instance, though. (brace yourself, cheesy shit coming your way!) Seriously, I totally did L-O-V-E this person (let's not say that word. It makes me sound sooo hopeless), at least, I think I did. Wait. I did nga talaga. Totally did. I was sooo hooked and shit, but then, I broke up with him. Pain, yeah sige. Staggering heartache, yup. But then, did I feel less of what I was to feel if HE was the one who broke up with me? How is any of it different when it all boils down to you two not being together? Wala lang, random thought. Ohwell.
Sweat. I sweated kanina, cause of all the badminton-ing and all. Wow. Sige. Yun lang yata yung sweat part :))
I'm bored. Random thoughts up there. Random chismis coming your way tomorrow ;) Woopee! No school on Friday and Monday, nice nice! 4 day weekend pare!! :))
Ciao! ;)
Ok. Magtatagalog na ko. Nakakainis eh. Hindi sa pikon ako blah blah. Pero, hello? GET A LIFE nga. Parang, wala ka na bang ibang magawa kundi tignan yung blog ko tapos ibbash mo? OMG hah. Kung feeling mo, loser ako, pano pa kaya ikaw, eh tumitingin ka sa blog ng loser na tulad ko, AT NAG TTAG KA PA! Napakagaling mo naman. Pft. Bahala ka sa buhay mo. And please lang, wag kang gagamit ng pangalan ng ibang tao. Respetuhin mo naman sila. Grabe. Wala ka talagang sense of decency noh? Ginawa mo pang battlefield yung tagboard ko, and for all I know, ikaw lahat yan, talking to your damn self. Wow :) You're soooo cool, ano?
Well, I doubt na si Kurt yan, hindi naman siya ganun kababaw, diba Kurt? At Karen, if that's you, well, your comment's waaay below than what I expect from you. Still, I'm thinking na hindi ikaw yan. So, ok lang :) Nako hah. Please lang, get a life. It's sad that you're bored, really, but don't go around bashing people's tagboards nga. Para kang tanga (not literally speaking). Wow.
Ang saya pala non. Teka, magsasabi na nga ako ng mga hinanakit ko sa mga tao. Pero, let's leave their names anonymous. (I'll try to be nice)
Nako, feeling mo ang galing galing mo. Feeling mo, sobrang cool ka. Well guess what, in the long run, walang kwenta yang mga pinag gagagawa mo. Kaya wag mong ipamukha sakin na "OMG loser ka kasi you don't go out and party a lot, not like me.. Look at me look at me!!". Nako hah. Kung yan lang rin yung buhay mo, magpakabum ka nalang. Sayang ka, kasi marami kang potential, pero please lang ah. Personal level na yung ginagawa mong pagmumukha sakin na pumaparty ka, umiinom, naninigarilyo. Omg. You think that actually makes you cool? Wow. Ano ka? Fake? May mga nakilala na kong ganun. Dati hindi naman naninigarilyo, tapos biglang nagyayaya, akala mo kung sinong bahasa sa pagsmoke. Wow hah. Kung feel mo, cool yun, well, mas cool yung aakyat ka sa stage dahil sa honor. Dati pwede pa, I mean, siguro para sakin, dati, sige oo cool yon, pero ngayon narealize ko na. Mas ok yung marami kang potential kesa nagkukungyari kang bad girl, when deep inside, masipag ka naman magaral, hindi ka mahilig uminom etc etc etc. Weird. I tried saying things to you. Pero hindi eh. You're too cool for that :)
Ikaw, isa ka pa. Mabait ako, sige. Sasamahan kita kung san mo kailangang pumunta, sige. Magpapaiwan ako para sayo, sige. Magpapakagutom ako para lang hindi ka maiwang magisa, sige, pero please lang, wag mong abusuhin. Purket hindi ako umiimik, hindi ibig sabihin ok lang ako. Pero anong magagawa ko? Pag umalis ako, magisa ka lang. Ang galing mo pa, kasi pag may nakita kang iba, kakaladkarin mo ko dun, akala mo close kami nung mga kasama mo. Hindi mo lang alam, gustong gusto ko na umuwi. Pero wala akong magawa, kasi sinasamahan kita. Sa susunod, sabihin mo sakin yung buong plano. Ayoko ng magulong plano eh. Gusto ko, alam ko kung pano ako pupunta dun, kung pano ako uuwi, yung mga simpleng ganon. Haaay. Ayoko na ngang isipin to.
Kaya ikaw, whoever you are, posting such stupid stuff on my tagboard. Baka isipin mo "Wow, na affect ko siya, ang galing ko!" or "Ang babaw naman neto, blah blah blah". I don't care na. As Mr. Olazo said, You can't please everyone. I certainly wouldn't want to please someone like you.
If you don't like me, then leave me alone. Pucha, ano kala mo? Pipilitin kong gustuhin mo ko? Excuse me. I'm waaay above that.
Kung ayaw mo sakin, alis! Hindi ako magbabago para sayo.
Twas an odd day today, really. I had no intention to go out, as I wanted to study for our refresher class next Saturday, plus, I have tons of homework to do, so there wasn't really any time. My mom woke me up at around 10, I was going to be picked up daw by a driver blah blah. So, oo nalang ako, thinking that she wouldn't wake me up if God knows what wasn't so important. Anywho, The driver picked me up at around 11, and to my surprise, headed on to Cars' house. Julian and Lean (Cars' boypren) was there na, we were eating lunch out pala. Ohwell :)) Me and my friends all love eating buffets, eat al you can-s, and want nots. I mean, we love to indulge when we got the chance :)) So, we headed on to Tong Yang, the one at Quezon Avenue I think, and ordered some seafood crap, meat, veggies, and everything else in between. It seemed weird, though. Parang kami ni Julian yung third and fourth wheel, as we weren't really a couple or anything. Still, it was fun. Twas Lean's treat, so we dint have to spend a cent :)) Yummm ;)
We were there for about 2 or so hours, I think. See that? yan naman ang katakawan. We headed on to Lean's to just bum around and stuff. Tapos yun, kwentuhan lang about things.. I was wondering why we were the only ones who went out. We were usually more than 5 or something. Everyone was busy daw, and had plans. It's sad. We're 17 in our group, and sadly, everyone's slowly drifting apart from one another na. Everyone's so busy with school, work, and want nots. I don't get to see them anymore, besides the special occasions eg birthdays, despedidas, and crap. Speaking of despedidas, Sab and Carlos graduated last school year, and are moving to the states real soon. Everyone's leaving na, ano ba yan. They're still fixing their papers pa daw. They might live together daw there, as they're cousins naman and crap. Still, it's so sad. Haaaay. 16 nalang kami now, as bea left a little less than a month ago. So there. Mamaya, magiging 14 nalang yan. Haaay. So there. We were talking about how our days used to be, when everything was so simple, and everyone wasn't so busy. Naluha nalang kami ni Cars and all. Gahd.
So, that was my day. Nothing special. Haaaay.
I've been feeling happy this past week. It all seemed to slip away as my day yesterday ended. So sad.
Nako hah, please, get a life.
Ciao.
View From Heaven
I'm just so tired
Won't you sing me to sleep
Fly through my dreams
So I can hitch a ride
With you tonight
And get away from this place
Have a new name and face
I just ain't the same without you in my life
Late night drives
All alone in my car
I can't help but start
Singing lines
From all our favorite songs
And melodies in the air
Singing, life just ain't fair
But sometimes I still just can't
Believe you're gone
And I'm sure the view from Heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in Heaven
Then we will make it through
One more year, down here
Feel your fire, when it's cold in my heart
And things sorta start reminding me
Of my last night with you
I only need one more day
Just one more chance to say
I wish that I had gone up with you too
And I'm sure the view from Heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in Heaven
Then we will make it through
One more year, down here
You won't be coming back
And I didn't get to say goodbye
I really wish I got to say goodbye
And I'm sure the view from Heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in Heaven
Then we will make it through
One more year, down here
I hope that all is well in Heaven
Cause it's all shot to hell down here
I hope that I find you in Heaven
Cause I'm so lost without you down here
You won't be coming back
And I didn't get to say goodbye
I really wish I got to say goodbye
It'll be my fifth (5th) school day tomorrow. Sadly, my brain is still on hiatus. After seemingly long hours in school, I'm still not used to the whole sleeping and getting up early thing. Sad, really. I sleep at around 12 everyday, which is pretty late for me. I'm not used to sleepless slash puyatan nights unless for some freak paper or want-nots. Ohwell.
I've said it before (with, sadly, no results), and I'ma say it again: maghhonor talaga ako this year. I don't care when, I don't care how, basta I'ma go up that stage and receive a freakin certificate. Gahd. I'm desperate here! :)) Oh sheesh. Responsible Nicola, signing in.
I've been happy lately :) Wala lang. I usually have these drama queen-esk moments almost everyday, due to overthinking I think. But then, I'm happy :) Oooooh for once, no drama queen here! Oh, except for my past entry. Twas a bizarre, sad day for me, really :)) Pft.
1) I hate being seniors. Oh wait, I hate and love it. It's weird. I hate the way those puny (oh, most of them are taller than me pala, haha!) yellow batch (third year) people belittle us, or is it just me? Ooooh nako! I swear. I think feeling nila we're of lower ranking aka 1st or 2nd year people for them to look at us the way they do. Like, kanina for instance, We had this long table reserved, as we put our lunchboxes there and stuff, sa may mini cafeteria sa SportsCom, then some third year people sat there, and when I got there, syempre I said "Miss may nakaupo na diyan", and that tracy girl made irap and shit. Nako hah. Please lang. I can be super nakakatakot if I want to. Nakooooo. I hate her :)) Actually, most fourth year people (at least, yung mga kilala ko) do. She's soooo, ugh! Oh please :)) Backstabbing people I don't know, right here! Kakarmahin din ako.. Gahd :))
2) I love being seniors as we don't have to really make ingat when we walk outside class premesis (not that we actually, like, take note of the past seniors and move totally out of the way for them to move). I mean, we don't have to really move then and there when someone says "excuse me". Mean as it may seem, we even, well, not shout, but say out loud "excuse me"s when we walk as ang bagal bagal maglakad ng mga lower batches. Sheesh. They don't realize the value of time pag High School ka na. Every freakin minute counts. Ohwell. Crap
3) "Self improvement is for the weak" Oh ayan. Status yan ni Kurt ngayon. I tried correcting him with "Self-improvement is for the brave". Irony daw yun. Ooook. I dint get his explanation for the Brad Pitt thing, so I just said yes. Still, the brave thingy, true true. Self-improvement means realizing your faults, and fixing them, or something close to that. See? To realize your faults in itself is hard. I mean, no one would openly (or at least, personally) admit their faults and shortcomings. Wala lang. I just think na, yung nga, self-improvement is for the brave".
Enough with the babbbling :)) Ciao! ;)
I guess it was you all along.
It's been quite a while
since I last saw that smile of yours.
I never really had the guts
to 'examine' my feelings for you.
I guess I wasn't gutsy enough
to face the possiblity
of me liking someone like you.
Someone who doesn't take people seriously,
someone who skids by life without a second glance,
someone who sees right through me.
But isn't it that
knowing you can't have someone
makes you want them even more?
I guess so.
I guess it's you
who I've been wanting all along.
No 'guy' ever understood me
the way you do.
You knew exactly what buttons to press
depending on my mood.
I guess I never realized the worth
of what I had with you.
But then, I wanted more.
Silly me, trying to defy fate
trying to hold on
to that tiny ray of hope,
trying so desperately to believe
that you and I were meant to be.
Hoping that someday,
you'd see me as more than just a friend.
I was looking for someone
not really knowing who.
I was too late to realize,
and now you hold her in your arms.
I guess it was you all along.
Skipped two days of school. Fun? Not really.
I still can't find the strength to really prep up for school. I mean, we've been through the whole 'first day' thing numerous times, and quite frankly, it's getting old. I haven't even bought any school stuff yet, like, pens and stuff. I need to get a new expander, ugh, my old one's in totally bad shape na. Buying tomorrow, I guess. National, here I come! :))
I finally got out of the house last Tuesday, when I had to pass my UP forms and crap. Now that my friends, was an experience I really wouldn't want to go through again. I got to Angge's at around 8:30, and after a few minutes of prepping up, we decided to go at around 9 na. I got my 2x2 pics from Kodak, which incidentally was right beside Pancake House, where we decided to eat. After an hour or so, went to MC to supposedly submit my forms. Everything was going well till I found out that I needed my parent's signature at the back of form 1. Mai gahd. I wanted to submit both na since I had no intentions whatsoever of going to school anytime within the week, and that really bugged me as the forms were due that Friday. So, went back to Angge's, bummed around, and at around 3, we headed on to Mcdo to get my stuff from Buan. At around 4:30 or so, Angge had to leave na as she had a thing with her family. Wala na kong kasama, so I decided to head on to my Lolo's, where all my cousins were :) I was going to commute lang, but as I headed on to the place where I'm supposed to ride a jeep, I remembered about my UP from 1 which I left at MCDO. Fcuk. I dint have any money left except for about 20 bucks. So what did I do? i walked all the way from mcdo to miriam via ateneo. Crap. And I had to hurry pa kasi I was afraid that the guidance offices would close on me. Sayang naman yung linakad ko. Got there soaking wet, as it rained while I was walking sa Ateneo. I dint bother stopping as I wanted to catch whoever guidance counselor was still there. Got to my Lolo's at around 7. THERE. SEE THAT. KILLER DAY. Hated it. Still, experience :)) I never want to be broke again. Woosh.
Days after that was just spent on bumming around, getting manicured, going with my mom to work, and supposedly watching movies. But nooooo. I quote my mom: "Hindi ka nga pumapasok para hindi manghawa, tapos sa cinehan ka naman maghahasik ng lagim? Ano ka ba naman!" I asked if we could both watch Lakehouse (Bullock, Reeves) at Gateway, dun sa Globe Platinum Cinema. She almost said yes, but then realized my 'social obligation' to not spread disease to the clueless. I was supposed to watch kanina. Oh please. Might watch it with someone else, then. My mom wants to watch it though. Sasama nalang ako, para libre, harhar! ;)
Going to school na on Monday. Wow. My chicken pox are gone, but now my ligaments behind my knees are torn. I totally can't walk properly, like, kailangan naka tip-toe and stuff para lang hindi masakit. WTF. Gahd. Need therapy, now! :))
Nasan ka na?
Honestly, hotness is totally running out na. I'm talking to Karen right now. Some really babaw topics we have :))
Anywho, the world is, like, totally running out of hot guys na. Karen's words said as mine :) Which is true, really. There's this dude she mentioned, who was her hot guy of that moment (she always has this someone na hot or whatever), but then I asked her kung sino na yung hot guy niya, wala daw. See that. Totally running out, except of course for Gerald Anderson and JC De Vera. Besides that, kapoot. Sabi ko pa, I might not like my children if they're pangit, kasi I'm not pangit naman. I dint say I was totally beautiful kasi I'm not. I'm just not pangit. Karen isn't, either. So if we ended up with totally pangit children, how sad would that be? Oh please, let's be realistic. I wouldn't want to nurture and have a child growing up in my house who's totally pangit diba? I don't think I could live with that.
Looks don't matter my butt.
I'm totally not shallow when it comes to crushes, though. I guess I'll have to pay a little bit more attention to looks. Pft. The guys I've liked na totally gwapo are, well, mayayabang ang feeling and all that. Pft. Ayoko ng ganun. Basta, ayoko ng pangit na anak :))
OMFG I'm not a conceited little bitch ah. I'm just being, uh, true to myself? Eh sa totoo naman na ayaw namin ng pangit na anak noh. Sino bang may gusto? Pft.
I just wanted to emphasize on the simple fact that hot guys are slowly becoming extinct.
Done.
Out of my skull, if I may add. I absolutely have nothing to do, and I can't even go out, as, in my mom's words: "maghahasik ka ng lagim". Weird though. I might have breakfast with Angge at Pancake House on Tuesday, or something. Breakfast somewhere. Either way, I'll be going out. So there. My dad asked me if I really wanted to go out looking like this. Well, I really have no choice. The UPCAT forms are due on Tuesday (well, at least one of 'em are), and I have to go personally as there are some things which I really can't fill up due to, uh, brain hiatus. There. Same old blah blah shit going on.
1) I have nothing to do when I'm online except for chat up people and blog. Really, I don't find the net that productive at all. At times, I even go visit Neopets if I'm totally bored, like now :)) Only, I have the curious play ova to look forward to later on at around 4, so my day's not really 'nothing'. But anywho, people stay online for hours, some even go to computer slash net shops just to go online (without playing those RPG games and stuff). I know some people who can go through 2 hours of non-stop net surfing, which quite frankly, is ridiculous. I mean, what the hell do you do online for 2 hours besides chatting and blogging (or, yes, ok, multiply-ing)?! Really.. The only times I'm online for long periods is when a lot of my friends are online.. Ergo, more people to talk to, more time on the net. But heck, if I weren't on unlimited internet, I wouldn't buy a net card as often as I did before. I was addicted to Neopets at that time :)) Oh well...
2) I want to be a really effective writer. Problem is, I'm not even close to it. Heck, I love writing, don't get me wrong. It's just the whole gathering your ideas, making an 'outline', and, of course, making sense. I've written a couple of essays. Wait. I've written a lot of essays. It's just, when I read them again, I just think "what the hell was I thinking back then?!" as my essay dint make much sense except for the fact that they were long and, well, true to life. It's hard though. My mom wants me to take up Journalism or something, to improve and zone in on my writing skills. I'm not a vocab freak either, so, I don't really have much to offer. I'm good with English, though. Hopefully, that would bring me, well, far? :))
3) I haven't been to mass in 2 weeks. This is the third time I'll be missing it due to unwanted circumstances. It's not that I loooove going to mass. It's just, I've gotten sooo used to it, that it actually feels wrong to skip it. Ohwell. Make up for it next time.. NOT.
4) I hate this feeling I have. I'm totally in like with this person, pero I like this other one. Then there's this other person, who, quite frankly, is totally my type, but then again, he looks, well, not my type? Ugh. I know, ang labo ko. But still. Pft. I'm not boy crazy, amp. I just, like this guy :)) Oooook, these guys, but heck, the number of real life crushes I've had all my life is totally nothing compared to the number of boyfriends *toot* has had, diba diba cakes? Pft. Oo nalang. Kasi it's true naman.
5) Oooohhh ooohh I saw a YFC friend of mine at Mcdo like, last last week, and she totally bitch-ass-ed me. I hate her :)) Actually, we all do. She's such a mean person, and steals boyfriends away despite her already having one. Tsk tsk. Grabe. I totally made an effort to smile and all, and I was about to make beso when she suddenly made irap? Wtf? Could you repeat that again? Nakakainis. I'm totally sick of being friendly. She's such a mean person I swear!!! Grrrr. I mean, I shouldn't have said hi nalang in the first place eh. Sick of being friendly. Error. Error. Error.
6) I miss summer review. I'd totally rather have summer review than real classes, pero all the people I want to be with should be my classmate sa summer review. Get it? I'd rather have half days, one subject each day, than have a full day of exhaustion and info-overload-mania. It would be much better to go to school in casual, see people you actually like (and not go plastic to all those you don't kasi you don't actually have to), and do stuff you want to after lunch. School's this week na (I'm not coming in for 2 days), and already I'm dreading everything we have to face. Ugh. Plus, summer review dint really have grades. It was up to us to set our standards and all that crapola. Why why why why whyyyyy?!
7) What if, you totally like someone, but then your bestfriend likes him too, and when she asks you if you like the dude, you'd say no because you knew that she was totally crazy about him and all? Is that wrong? I mean, syempre, I'd try to stay away from the guy, kasi my friendship with my best friend is waaay more important, but does it even matter? I mean, why like the same guy? I know it can't be helped, pero diba? Ok. It's not me. Heck, my bestfriends don't even know the guy I like, but my other friend kasi.. She's having that problem. Well, she's never happy, as she always gives everyone else what she wants, so I suggest she take him all for herself, or, let him pick, maybe. It's better that way. No freakin cat fights in the middle of eating out
I'm totally ranting, as I have nothing to do. All those things just popped into my brain-dead skull. Wtf. I have to set aside some 'studying time' pa for the refresher class we have at Exper Guides on the 1st of July. Pft. 8-5!! Wtf?! What the hell do we do for roughly 8 hours (1 hour break, I suppose)?! Nakakainis!! It'll be fun, but totally brain drenching. Wtf.
I miss my friendssssss :( They're all at Palawan, and I couldn't come because of my stupid chicken pox!!! Ehhhhhhh!!! Hating chicken pox.. Hating chicken pox.. It's over now, actually, it's just, I look like I have 15 freakin moles on my face, excluding the big one I already have. Pft. Ohwell.
Nevermind. I've been typing for 30 minutes. What the hell?
I know it's such a sucky title, but hey, I've found, and quite frankly, realized the wonder of meebo! Ooooh yes. In case you haven't heard of it, it's a site which acts as your portal to complete IM messaging, may it be through the Yahoo Messenger, or AIM, it completely acts like one (except of course for the special tweaks here and there), and is completely capable of doing whatever you want it to do :)) So if your having problems with your Yahoo Messenger or something, like I did kanina (haha), then visit MEEBO. Really cool, I swear :))
If there's one thing I love, that's stuff toys :) Well, it's not really on the top of my priority list, but hey, a simple token such as that would really get me :)) And now, I have a moose!! :) Simple simple moose, yet soooo sooooft!!! It's small, but hey, I love it!! ;) It's those simple gifts that just make you go 'awwww' inside! Hmmm ;) Love it love it!! I remember my first stuff toy gift. It was of Pikachu (who we all know from Pokemon). He had this tail you could pull, and when you do, its butt would just jiggle around in a, quite frankly, pathetic attempt to look as if it were walking. Oh well. Twas a gift. A really cute one :) Memoriessss ;)
Oh well :) Nothing happened today. I'm bored out of my skull.
Thanks for the moose. Love it ♥
Ciao!
Contrary to the idea that I made this, I'm really not liking it that much anymore. Again, I think it's because of the simple fact that I, myself, made it. I've been staring at this layout for about a day now, and gahd, I'm already sick of it :)) It's nice though. I just loooove the color of the background. Very warm, don't you think? ;)
Chocolates. I'm craving for some right now tuloy. Oh well, I guess I'll have to settle for staring at all these CHOCOLATE-s right here. Ooooh :))
I like this better than my old one. I think the Senseless Rantings one just hurt my eyes a tad bit too much. Ohwell :))
Oh please. I'm lifeless. I have no life. Yan naman. I hate these chicken pox. I don't even get to go to mass or any of those meetings I have anymore. Pft. Why does it have to be me? I have to say, though, this was partly my fault :)) I actually thought that I had already gotten the freakin disease and went on hugging Mej. Nice. I hate me :)) I can be soooo stupid sometimes. Take note: SOMETIMES!! Harhar! ;) Oh well.
I'm bored. I obviously am. I just want to fill up this thing, para may laman. My last posts are in the Senseless Rantings page (over to the right, connections). I really dint realize the amount of work I put into making original layouts. I mean, hey, looking back, I can't even recall how many I did. Only a few were lucky enough to grace the net. Wtf :))
Ok, enough blabbing. Ciao! ;)
Hmmm :)
I really haven't been doing much, because of the chicken pox. A week of rest and no going out. Wow. I've had this for four (4) days now, and it's really going by quickly. I heard from some friends that it should last for about more than a week, but since I'm taking medication and crap, well, it's drying up faster than it should. AND AND AND, it doesn't itch at all, which is great :)) Pero, my god naman, dapat lang, the medicine that my pedia prescripted was worth 4thou. So, dapat lang na it works. Ohwell..
So, because of this, I wasn't able to do all the things I planned to accomplish for the week before school. I was supposed to go and pass my UPCAT form and everything, go to Palawan for that final stretch of vacation, and badminton my ass out with my instructor slash tito, who thankfully came back from the states and figured that I needed some shaping up :)) He's been my instructor for about 3 years now, but since he left for the states a couple of months ago, I wasn't really able to play anymore. Pft. And now I have chicken pox. Wow.
I'll be missing the first 2 days of school. As Karen said, M.I.A. ako. Missing in action daw. Ohwell. Ayoko namang manghawa noh. That would be sad :))
To whichever group this may conern :)) Too bad the only people in our group left grounded are Lean, Kev, Carlos, Sab, and Cars. The trip was for everyone, though, so they were allowed to come with some major drama acting and endless pleas from everyone. We really couldn't forget about them, now could we? Lean and Cars' monthsary's coming up, so surprise surprise, THAT was the reason for the Palawan trip! Thanks to Kev's dad, Tito Mon, for the kind accomodations and free, well, EVERYTHING :)) I heard the place's to die for!! Too bad some of us couldn't come ;) Justin and I would've really loved to see you guys 'make sweet sweet love', haha!
1) Have you ever seen a blog wherein the 'blogger' tries his/her mucho best to speak in english and all that? Well, this is one, but, that's not really the point. I've come across a couple of blogs na puro barok naman yung nakasulat. See, I don't really mind people blogging in english, but please, if you'll be saying something in english or something, sana naman maayos or something :)) I hate those. Parang ang trying hard and stuff. Haha ohwell. I use english just because: a) It's easier for me to express myself, and b) I know more words in english than I do in tagalog. Buti sana if I dint speak in tagalog at all and I had barok moments. Mind you, I don't proof read, so the wrong spellings and all that crap, well, minor mishaps. But hello? Grammar? Simple simple grade school grammar. How do these people expect to get into college? Ohwell. Mean as it may sound, it's not really an issue :)) Baka I care because I have a bit of an obssessive compulsive side to me lang.
2) Is there, like, an instant moment when you realize that you like someone? Or is it gradual? I don't really know eh. Is it, like, you wake up one morning, then *POOF*, you like him/her all of a sudden? It's sad. I've been thinking about, well, someone, and I'm not even sure if I like him at all. Baka I'm intrigued lang, noh? Possibly. Well, I really don't want to like him at all. He's not my type. At least, not anymore :))
3) Does eating little and sleeping all day make you fat? I don't mean to sound conceited or anything, but does it? I've been doing nothing but that, except for my sudden computer urges and TV sessions. I sleep most of the day. I think the sleepiness and tiredness I feel comes from the medicine I'm taking everyday. Gaddammit! Besides that, I've been trying to eat little, just so I wouldn't gain any damn weight. At the rate I'm going, if I were to eat 'normally', I'd probably be obese by now. Can't help those sudden binges though. My dad gets me everything I want, and everything else I crave for, as I'm sick daw and I need to eat. I need to eat my butt. I can't help but take advantage of his kindness and concern, though :)) Meaney me.. (Haha get it? Mini me? Nevermindddd..)
4) I swear I want a new layout. A tres cool one at that. I just can't seem to think of anything talaga. My brain's on hiatus as I don't really do anything but, again, sleep, eat, watch tv, and use the comp. I swear, nothing's popping in. I was supposed to do the picture for it, like the one I have up there, but then again, I couldn't think of anything good to put in it. Plus, using the same old Photoshop brushes would be lame. Not to mention boring..
Ohwell. I have a boring life na. Stupid chicken pox!
Ooooohh! I think I may like him nga! Ooooohhh, haha! ♥
Pft. Ciao! ;)
I have chicken pox. Wow.
I probably got it from Mej :)) We saw each other last Wednesday, and the first thing she said was "Wait, nagkachicken pox ka na ba?" Stupid me, thinking I got na before, said "Syempre!". Oh gahd. I've mistaken chicken pox for measles numerous times now, but never did I inherit such an awful airbourne disease such as this. Haaay. I swear. It totally sucks. (marami ang namamatay, este, nagkakachicken pox sa maling akala) Weeeh, corny!
I watched Failure to Launch with my sister yesterday. I wanted to watch Manay Po, as, as my friends say, it's super funny :)) But then again, my sister, sort of like a lower version of my Filipino intelligence, wouldn't be able to follow the flow of the story. Boohoo. Sana meron pa when we have classes na. Oh well. I'm still grounded, after all. PLUS, I have to stay incubated daw for a week. Incubated my ass. Pft. Poop!
Oooh. I had a splitting headache the whole day yesterday, which would've probably lead to a fever if I dint take Biogesic or something. It sucked. I could feel my head palpitating while watching the freakin movie. Wtf.
I couldn't breathe kanina. What the hell. There must be something terribly wrong with me. Oh god.
Haaay. Ohh, I'm not making a new layout. Nitatamad pa ko :)) The whole "Blue Sky Holiday" wasn't really working for me. Idea's weren't coming in, so I decided to give up till I get a G R E A T one. I'm thinking of making one inspired by Austin though. You know, Austin from Project Runway? Such a buoyant mind, really :)) Sooo cute, and totally GAY!! ;) Haha!
Nevermind. Ciao, lovelies! ;)
I've decided to make another layout na since I'm sooo bored and absolutely NOTHING's taking up my time! I've decided to name it "Blue Sky Holiday". I totally need slash want one :) Mai gahd. Ohhh lala I might go to Palawan or something. Might. A big might, that is. I'm still grounded, after all. Hoh gahd.
Looking forward to graduation :)) I know it's sooo far away pa, pero let's face it: the school year just goes by like that. Oh well. I'm having my eyes lasered AND getting my driving lessons na then. I couldn't take them this summer kasi I had review, and my dad dint want all the expenses to pile up and crap. The laser thing's super expensive pa naman, but according to my mom, totally worth it. She had hers done, like, 3 years ago, I think. Eyes are guaranteed to be totally clear FOREVER. Woah! Can't waaaaiiiittt!! :x
My mom wanted to give me, like, a month's vacation somewhere in Europe for my grad gift. I could totally go for that, but I also wanted a new phone, or a car, maybe ;) Haha righttt. Seeing as we're beginning to be, uhhh, less poor, my mom's totally taking advantage of it :)) Oh well.
Nakita ko ulit yung commercial for the Cheezy Volcano thingy sa Pizza Hut while watching the PHX basketball game earlier. Nagcrave tuloy ako :)) We might eat there later. I practically begged. Harhar :)
My tito's here, visiting my mom as she just got out from the hospital yesterday. They were talking about his daughter, who's my friend, Justine, who went on this summer program thingy for 2 weeks somewhere in Beijing. It costed $1,200 daw, pero totally worth it kasi everything's included na. My mom might send me and my sister daw there. You get to learn different stuff, tapos they have programs pa for different interests like drawing, painting, music, singing, dancing, blah blah blah. Crap like that. Ohwell. Next summer pa yun, pero we'll see. My sister totally wants to go, though :)
Sige, I'll make na my layout :))
Ciao! ;)
of creating yet another layout. Gahd.
Summer review ended yesterday, with me practically failing the mock UPCAT thingy, passing by only 4.5 percent (79.5%). I can't believe it! Thank God for the English part, I was able to pull up my percentage even by just a bit. I'm actually disappointed about not having review classes anymore. The only part I like about not having classes anymore is not having to wake up at 6 just to commute all the way to Katipunan. Besides that, I'll really be missing actually DOING something productive (not that I was REALLY productive or anything). Pft.
First day palang, I'm totally bored na. I'm on the verge na nga of making a new layout, as I said. I just can't think of a theme or whatever. Ohhh :))
I watched Benchwarmers at Gateway with some classmates yesterday. It wasn't all that, really, pero sobrang benta yung funny parts, kahit corny :) Timezone after, karaoke, tapos uwi na. I got home at around 7 :)) Pft. Leeron and I wanted to watch Manay Po! Kasi naman eh :)) It was to end at around 7 nga, and I thought that I wouldn't be allowed na since I dint give my parents a specific time when I'd go home. Eh. Haha! Nakakainis naman! I doubt I'll be able to watch it na. I AM grounded after all. Grounded ako sa lagay na yan :)) Funny.
Watched XMEN 3 with my two cousins last Saturday! We caught the second to the last full show, kasi nakakatamad na :)) Besides, we totally had nothing to do! So there. Grounded nga talaga ako >:) Funny.
I haven't watched The Da Vinci (or as we like to say, The DAV inci code, haha!) yet, and honestly, I have no intention of watching it anymore. After endless sucky reviews about it, I just lost interest in it. I totally loved the book, though. Eh sabi nila, the movie's far from the book, so, nevermind. Baka madisappoint lang ako. Pft.
I'm bored. Neopets na to!!! Haha! ;)
Ciao, lovelies! ;)
I'd gladly do layouts for you guys, so just email me, with info on what kind you want, and what colors you want in them :)
Simply Strawberry Parfait. Badminton. Horse back riding. Miriam. Green batch '07. Water. Piano. Movies. A Walk To Remember. Friendster profile. Web making. Photoshop. Eating. Sleeping. Math. Katipunan. Mcdo. Shades. Beach bumming. Partying. Dogs. Black chocolate. Friends. God.
Second layout featuring CHOCOLATE :)) I really dint want to put pictures in it, so I used different fonts instead. Thanks to Photoshop CS for the endless possibilities, haha! I love the richness of the background color, as well as all the hues of brown :) To compensate for my lack of creativity, I made use of some brushes to add a little *zing to the picture above :) Put up: June 10, 2006
Credits and kudos to the following brush-makers :)) Background et cetera-s
courtesy of:
Miss M Brushes
Green Eye
Vbrush
Exotika Brushes
Hybrid Genesis
Miinc Brushes
Spy Glass Brushes
Romance Box Brushes
And of course:
Photoshop CS2,