I lay there as long as I could,
The bickering going back and forth,
The never-ending war starts again,
A new battle,
Who will be the causalities?
What will be sacrificed?
Who's life will end?
All that you are,
And all that you fight for,
Lost in a split second,
Trying to out maneuver,
Out smart your enemy,
You know you will lose,
You always lose in the end.
So again I rise to fight,
Trying to defend my loved ones,
And then myself,
The enemy keeps coming,
Going through all my defenses,
The enemy keeps gaining ground,
Never stopping,
Never yielding,
Never willing to talk peace,
No compromises,
Nothing to stop,
Or impede,
What she wants,
No matter how many lie,
Dead or wounded,
In her path.

* * *

And again she starts the fight,
Not listening to anything we say.

We try to offer help,
We end up having to rationalize our every action.
Why we do what we do.

Nothing is more important than her things,
We must drop everything and help her,
And if we don't,
Don't we love her?

She says we want her to fail,
Want her life to be hard,
We have never helped her,
No matter what we have done.

Her insanity is all I know,
But my love for her still stands,
And I am unable to get out,
Unable to run away,
To leave her,
For I love her.

Which at one time,
I believe she knew.

* * *

I try to write uninhibited,
Try to be free with my words,
But always have I censored them,
And now more then ever should I censor them,
The trouble I have seen them bring.
My life turned upside down and all around.
But more freely do they flow now,
For exactly this reason.
I am not afraid.
Not afraid the world will misinterpret them again.
For I have realized that at least one person who really cares,
Will read these words and as a result they will wish,
Wish to be a part of my world,
And I will love them for they understand me,
And love is worth any risk.