I have this dull feeling in my gut,
My first day of reckoning has begun,
I shall have no say,
I shall not be able to defend my acts,
I rely completely on the defense of others now,
And I ask myself why this is,
Why is my word of no value?
But the words of those who know not the entire situation are of utmost importance.
I am trying to see what good there may be,
I am trying to understand what has happened,
As I vicariously walk down the court aisle,
My reckoning has begun.

Will I be found guilty?

Will I be set free?

Free to live the way I want?
Free to do that which makes me myself?

Or Guilty?

Guilty of all my thoughts.