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Now admittedly I have an ego problem and I act like I know it all, but I don't. Like the rest of you I am trying the best I can. Now I tried to please you all, tried to do what I thought would work out the best. I looked upon one more often sometimes, and then I had to change to others to keep them happy. I did what I could. I am only human, going against insurmountable odds. A few know some. Most know none. And not one of you knows all. I don't know what to do anymore. I really don't. I have looked away to long in certain areas and it has cost me those friendships. I have lost things very important to me. I hold all me friends high. I count them all as a part of me. I do what I can to please. But like a waiter, rushed, with a tray too full, I fell and dropped what I held dear. Now I tried to clean up the pieces, I did the best I could. Not all was saved. And that which was not, broken glass, cut deep into my skin, raising blood fast to my exterior. I lie now in a pool of blood and wonder where I went wrong. I am able now to see more clearly as I become light headed due to the lose of blood. I see some of my faults. But realize also they are a part of me. They are and always will be, the good and the bad aspects of me. You must take what I have at once, do not pry at me to find what you like, like a tower who's supports are removed, I will tumble and fall. For even though few or maybe none of you realize, you are my supports, you are all I have got, now some of you I come too for help, others, I do not. But you still all are equal, you all are important. And I am losing you. I am losing a piece of myself. And as I do I realize how important you all are, and how stupid I really am.........I apologize, there is little else I can do...but if you think of anything, just ask, and I will try Sincerely, |