why does it seem the world is so simple. who has defined normal. was there a panel of old balding men that sat down and discussed what the "moral right" should be. if so then i know of a few people who probably didn't get the memo. what is it to raise a child. what is it to bring a life into the world. i believe there is nothing more simple to do. it is instinct. but to do it correctly....that is something oh so different. we are bad at raising children...that's what makes us human. our instincts have frayed. at least my fathers have.
but i appreciate him.....with his disappearence i learned more then he could ever teach. i've learned who i can count on. i've learned who i am. i've learned how strong a mother can be. and i've gained the knowledge of what not to do.
when it becomes my time to bring forth a life i will see the trueness in it. i will see the opportunity it presents.
i will have the chance to create something so much better then myself....you see, no matter how well i can ever hope to do a certain task i will only be as good as i am.....never any better......i will only be able to play the guitar as fast as my fingures can move....i will only be able to write as well as i can spell.....i will only be able to walk as far as my legs can carry me. and i will only be able to love as much as i feel.....but a child.....once i have taught my child all that i know, all that i am capable of. my child will be able to continue becoming stronger in everything that i faulted in through out my life..
my child will be my gift to the world. to live on as all that i could ever dream to be and so much more. the only thing i could ever create that will always be better then me.
