December 9,1999
no one else on earth will ever understand just how much erin puts things in perspective for me.
From: "erin" <*****@hotmail.com>
To: "sean" <*****@yahoo.com>
Subject: Hey!!
Date: Thu, 09 Dec 1999 01:44:57 EST
how are you? I hate dumb e mail because i can never understand how you are saying
things and if you are pissy or sad or just don't too much to say or what!?! I mean, I guess it's better then no words at all but it just seems so impersonal. I don't even get to see your handwriting:(
i was talking to mike about you today and he told me something profound. well, let me give a little background. mike is 28 and somethimes he feels like he should share the knowledge he gained from that point in his life that i am at now. it usually annoys me because i am a person who wants to go through whatever without someone trying to warn me about every step of the way. Today, though, what he was telling me made sense. he said that looking back he realizes that when he was 20-22 he thought that that time was the most significant, important, best time of his life, and that the friends that helped him through those years were the best.
Now, though he realizes that really his teenage years were all of that. He feels that the most significant people in his life even now(not now the most significant, but the most significant in the scheme of his whole life) are the people he was close to during those years. It all came up because i told him that i was a little sad that everything has changed so much and now it just seems to be only you and me from old high school days and that sometimes i have a hard time letting go of that and i know that you do too and that is when he said it...that you and i kind of wish that we could be hangin out now and experiencing this part of our lives together. And also he is very envious of you because he feels that you got to spend the best, most influential times of my life with me and now he gets to spend time with the person i have become partly as a result of the times you and i shared. I guess he's saying that he is sad the he will never be a part of that part of my life that was so important to me and that no matter what he and i have together, he can never share the memories that you and i have. I know that you and i never dated and it would kind of seem that he was talking only about an old boyfriend but i think that it applies to all old important friendships. I don't know if i explained the whole scenario very well, but if i did, i think that if anyone could appreciate it it would be you! I better take off, but always remember that no matter who we get close to or where life takes us no one can ever take away, or even become a part of the memories we share!
love and miss
erin